Devotion of the day: practice acts of contrition; My Jesus, mercy

Why am I not converted? At the end of the year, I look back, I remember the resolutions made at the beginning of this year, the promises made to Jesus to convert, to flee the world, to follow HIM alone… Well, what have I done? Are my bad habits, my passions, my vices, my defects, not the same as last year? Indeed, have they not grown up? Examine yourself on pride, impatience, echo. How have you changed in twelve months?

Why am I not sanctified? Thank God I may not have sinned seriously this year ... And even so ... But what progress have I made in a whole year? I had been granted the year so that, in the exercise of the virtues, I would please God and prepare myself a beautiful crown for heaven. Where then are my merits and the gems for eternity? Is not the sentence of Belshazzar befitting me: You were weighed, and the balance was found scarce? - Can God be pleased with me?

What have I done with the time? How many things happened to me, now happy, now sad! How many deals did I put my mind and body into over the course of the year! But, with so many occupations, after so many words and efforts, I must not say with the Gospel: Working all night, I have not taken anything? I had time to eat, to sleep, to walk: why didn't I find it for the soul, to escape hell, to earn Paradise? How many reproaches!

PRACTICE. Three acts of contrition; My Jesus, mercy.