Ivan of Medjugorje: I am not afraid of dying I have seen Heaven

In these 33 years a question has remained constant within me: “Mother, why me? Why did you choose me? Will I be able to do what You desire and seek from me? " Every day I ask myself this question. In my life up to 16 I could never have imagined that such a thing could happen, that Our Lady could appear. The beginning of the apparitions was a great surprise for me.
In an apparition, I remember well, after having long doubted whether to ask him, I asked her: “Mother, why me? Why did you choose me? "Our Lady smiled very sweetly and replied:" Dear son, I don't always choose the best ".
Thirty-three years ago Our Lady chose me. He enrolled me in your school. School of peace, love, prayer. In this school I want to be a good pupil and do the task that Our Lady has given me in the best possible way. I know you don't give me a vote.
This gift remains within me. For me, for my life and my family this is a great gift. But at the same time it is also a great responsibility. I know that God has entrusted me a lot, but I know he wants it from me as well. I am aware of the responsibility I have and live with it every day.

I am not afraid of dying tomorrow, because I have seen everything. I really am not afraid of dying.
Being with the Madonna every day and living this Paradise is really difficult to express with words. It is not easy to be with the Madonna every day, to speak with her, and at the end of this meeting to return to earth and continue to live here. If you could only see the Madonna for a second, I don't know if your life on earth would still be interesting for you. I need a couple of hours every day to recover, to return to this world after such a meeting. What are the most important messages to which Our Lady invites us in these years? I would like to highlight them. Peace, conversion, prayer with the heart, fasting and penance, firm faith, love, forgiveness, Most Holy Eucharist, reading the Bible and hope. Through these messages that I have highlighted, Our Lady guides us. In recent years, Our Lady has explained each of these messages to live them and practice them better.