My God, you are my everything (by Paolo Tescione)

Almighty Father of eternal glory many times you have talked to me but now I want to turn to you and I want you to listen to my cry of pain that now flows from my heart. I am a sinner! My cries reach your ear and may cummove your bowels so that your mighty mercy and forgiveness may descend on me. Holy Father you have done so much for me. You created me, you woven me in my mother's womb, you created my bones, you shaped my body, you gave me life, you gave me soul, eternal life. Now my heart moans like a woman in labor, my suffering reaches you. Please, Father, forgive me. I looked at my life and complained in front of your glorious throne and asked you for everything. But now that you have given me everything I understand that I had everything since you are my everything. You are my Father, my creator, you are my everything. I now understand the true meaning of life. I now understand that neither gold, nor silver, nor wealth can give the good that you give. Now I understand that you love me and you do not abandon me and even if sin covers me with shame you are at the window like the good Father and I as the prodigal son I come towards you and I wait for you to celebrate for my return. Father you are my everything. You are my grace. Without you I see only hate and death. Your gaze, your love make me unique, strong, lovable. Holy Father my cry reaches you.
I have seen my life and I realized that I am worthy of the most bitter punishments but my gaze is directed towards you, towards your immense mercy. Now Father open your arms. Holy Father I want to rest my head on your chest. I want to feel the warmth of a father who loves me and forgives my bad. I want to hear your voice whispering my name. I want your caress, your kiss. As I walked through the streets of this world I listened to your voice saying "where are you" the same words you said to Adam after eating the fruit and having given birth to creation. You shouted at me from the bottom of my heart "where are you". Father I am in an abyss, I am poured out into evil. Father look up to me and welcome me into your glorious kingdom. You are my Everything. You are all that is enough for me. You are the only thing I need. All the rest is nothing and nothing in front of your glorious and holy name. I had nothing but I had you and now that I have everything and I have lost you I feel in an abyss of nothing, in the abyss of nothing. Holy Father let me feel your warmth, your love. I entrust you with the people I love. Love them too as you loved me. Now your forgiveness comes to me. I feel invaded by infinite love. I know your grace is with me and you love me. Thanks for your forgiveness. I can say and testify that even if I haven't seen you I have known you. Before I knew you by hearsay now I know you because you revealed yourself. My God and my everything.