Vicka of Medjugorje: I will tell you how we feel before and after the apparition

Janko: I pretty much understand how you behave during the apparitions. But now there is another thing that interests me to know.
Vicka: I know you are interested in many things! What do you want to know now?
Janko: I am interested to know how you feel immediately before meeting the Madonna, just when you are entering the apparition room.
Vicka: I can assure you that even at that moment I feel really good.
Janko: Even after more than a thousand meetings?
Vicka: It is the same. It is something that cannot be described; you should try it.
Janko: Do ​​you feel that way, even if you already know in advance how and what will happen?
Vicka: It's extraordinary! It seems as if the sky opens before the eyes! That smile, that tenderness; that whisper of hers ... It's just wonderful.
Janko: In your opinion, how do others experience all this?
Vicka: It seems to me, more or less, like me.
Janko: I wouldn't say so! When I observe you during the meetings, and it also happened the other evening, I see some faces without any change: it remains cold, without showing itself moved or radiant. I do not know; it may be dependent on temperament. Maria told me that even though she seems more immobile than you, she experiences the encounter in a very intense way. She also says she feels like in heaven at that moment.
Vicka: What do you want, this is also a gift from the Madonna! Who else could give it to us?
Janko: I agree. But how do you feel when the Madonna goes away, how do you point out each time with an exclamation? («Ode», he leaves.)
Vicka: As if something broke from my heart. I can't express it, but it seems to me so.
Janko: Actually I noticed it a few nights ago when you exclaimed that "He's leaving!". You said it with a sigh of sadness.
Vicka: How to do it differently! It would be worse if I had to think I couldn't see her the next day. It would be really painful.
Janko: What can you do! This too will happen one day.
Vicka: It certainly will, but for now I don't think about it. Later Our Lady will help us to overcome this too.
Janko: It will. You heard how she did it with Mirjana after she never appeared to her again.
Vicka: I've heard, but I don't want to talk about this anymore. God will guide us as he knows better than we do.
Janko: Tell me one more thing: how do others feel when the Madonna leaves?
Vicka: I don't know why I never asked anyone.
Janko: Maria told me she feels like you; and also Ivanka. The other two are in any case harder, less sentimental ... [Ivan and Jakov]