Maonekedwe omaliza a tsiku ndi tsiku kwa Mirjana ndi zikopa zosamvetseka (nkhani ya Mirjana yemweyo)

KUONEKEDWA KWA TSIKU NDI TSIKU KU MIRJANA NDI KUSANGALALA KWABWINO

(mu nkhani yochititsa chidwi ya Mirjana yemweyo)

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Pa 23 Disembala 1982 Madonna adandiwonekera mwachizolowezi; zinali, monga nthawi zina, chokumana nacho chokongola chomwe chidadzaza moyo wanga ndi chisangalalo. Koma chakumapeto adandiyang'ana mwachikondi nati: "Pa Khrisimasi ndidzakuwonekera komaliza."

Pamapeto pa mawonekedwewo ndinadabwa. Ndinamva zomwe ananena bwino, koma sindinakhulupirire. Ndikadakhala bwanji wopanda mizimu? Zinkawoneka ngati zosatheka. Ndinapemphera kwambiri kuti izi zisachitike.

Tsiku lotsatira, patsiku la Khrisimasi, Dona Wathu adayesanso kundikonzekera, koma sindinamvetsetse. Ndinakhala usiku wonse ndikupempha Mulungu kuti andipatse nthawi yambiri yocheza naye.

Makolo anga ndi mchimwene wanga adakondwerera Khrisimasi ndi ma carols, mapemphero ndi chakudya, koma ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri kuti sindingakhale nawo. Ndinali komweko, mwa okondedwa anga okondedwa kwambiri, ndinali pafupi kutenga nawo mbali pa Khrisimasi ndi mayi yemweyo amene anabala Yesu zaka zikwi ziwiri zapitazo, ndipo sindinathe kumwetulira.

Nthawi yowonekera ikuyandikira, ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri kuposa kale. Amayi, abambo ndi mchimwene wanga anavala zovala zokongola kwambiri paphwandopo ndipo anagwada pambali panga. Tinapemphera ku rozari kukonzekera kuonekera. Atawonekera, Dona Wathu adamwetulira mokoma ndikundipatsa moni ngati mayi, monga amachitira nthawi zonse. Ndinasangalatsidwa: nkhope yake idatulutsa mtundu wowoneka bwino wagolide womwe anali nawo chaka chatha, ndipo panthawiyi - chisomo chonse ndi kukongola zikutsanulidwa pa ine - sikunali kotheka kukhala wachisoni.

Pambuyo pake mei adandiuza kuti mzukwa womaliza uja udatenga mphindi 45, chinthu chodabwitsa. Dona wathu ndi ine tinakambirana za zinthu zambiri. Tinadutsa miyezi khumi ndi isanu ndi itatu yomwe tidakhala limodzi - zonse zomwe tidayankhula wina ndi mzake ndi zonse zomwe adandiwululira. Anandipatsa chinsinsi chachisanu komanso chomaliza, ndikulongosola kuti ndiyenera kusankha wansembe waudindo wapadera. Masiku khumi tsiku lomwelo lisanawonetsedwe mchinsinsi choyamba ndiyenera kuuza wansembeyu zomwe zichitike. Kenako ine ndi iye tidzayenera kupemphera ndi kusala kudya masiku asanu ndi awiri ndipo, kutatsala masiku atatu kuti mwambowu uchitike, wansembe adzaululira dzikoli. Zinsinsi zonse khumi zidzaululidwa motere.

PA MARCH 18

Dona wathu adandipatsanso mphatso yamtengo wapatali: anandiuza kuti abwera kwa ine kamodzi pachaka, pa Marichi 18, moyo wanga wonse. Marichi 18th ndiye tsiku langa lobadwa, koma Dona Wathu sanasankhe tsiku ili pachifukwa ichi. Kwa inu, tsiku langa lobadwa silimasiyana ndi la munthu wina aliyense. Dziko lapansi lidzamvetsetsa chifukwa chomwe Mary adasankhira Marichi 18 pokha pokha pamene zinsinsizo zikuyamba kuchitika. Pamenepo, tanthauzo la deti lomwelo lidzakhala lomveka. Anatinso ndidzakhala ndi mawonekedwe owonjezera angapo.

Kenako adandipatsa china chake ngati chikopa chokulunga, ndikulongosola kuti zinsinsi zonse khumi zidalembedwapo, ndikuti ndiziwonetsa kwa wansembe amene ndasankha kuti awaulule ikafika nthawiyo. Ndinazitenga mmanja mwake osayang'ana.

"Tsopano uyenera kutembenukira kwa Mulungu mwachikhulupiriro, monga munthu wina aliyense," adatero. “Mirjana, ndakusankha. Ndinakufotokozerani zonse zofunika. Ndakusonyeza zinthu zambiri zoopsa. Tsopano muyenera kupirira zonse molimba mtima. Ganizani za ine ndi misonzi yomwe ndiyenera kutulutsa chifukwa cha izi. Muyenera kukhala olimba mtima nthawi zonse. Munamvetsetsa mauthengawo nthawi yomweyo. Muyeneranso kumvetsetsa kuti ndiyenera kupita. Limba mtima ”.

Adalonjeza kuti azikhala ndi ine nthawi zonse komanso kuti andithandiza pamavuto akulu, koma ululu womwe ndidamva mu mzimu wanga sichimapiririka. Dona wathu adamvetsetsa kuzunzika kwanga ndipo adandifunsa kuti ndipemphere. Ndinawerenga pemphero lomwe ndinkakonda kunena ndikakhala ndekha ndi iye: Salve Regina… […].

CHITSANZO

Anamwetulira ngati mayi momwe angathere, kenako nkuzimiririka. Sindinkaganiza kuti Khrisimasi ikhoza kukhala yachisoni chonchi.

"Koma motani?", Ndinaganiza. "Zingatheke bwanji kuti sindidzawonanso Dona Wathu tsiku lililonse?"

Ndinazindikira kuti ndinali nditagwirabe mpukutu womwe adandipatsa. Popeza ndakhala ndikumuwona Dona Wathu momwe ndimawonera munthu aliyense, zinali zachilengedwe kutenga chinthu m'manja mwake, monga ndikadachitira ndi aliyense. Koma tsopano mzukwa utatha, ndinadabwa kuwona mpukutuwo uli mmanja mwanga. "Izi zachitika bwanji?" Ndinadabwa. "Ndichifukwa chiyani ndili ndi chinthu chochokera Kumwamba mmanja mwanga?" Monga zochitika zina zambiri zomwe zidachitika miyezi khumi ndi isanu ndi itatu yapitayo, ndimangowona ngati chinsinsi cha Mulungu.

Mpukutu wamtundu wa beige udapangidwa ndi zinthu zofananira ndi zikopa - osati pepala kapena nsalu kwenikweni, koma kwinakwake pakati. Ndidakutsegula mosamala ndipo ndidapeza zinsinsi khumizo zolembedwa pamanja zokongola kwambiri. Kunalibe zokongoletsa kapena zifanizo; chinsinsi chilichonse chidalembedwa m'mawu osavuta komanso omveka, pafupifupi ofanana ndi omwe mayi athu adagwiritsa ntchito pomwe adandifotokozera koyamba. Zinsinsi sizinawerengedwe, koma zidalembedwa molongosoka, chimodzichimodzi: zoyambirira zolembedwa pamwamba ndi zomaliza kumunsi. Madeti azomwe zidzachitike mtsogolo adatchulidwa.

(Mirjana Soldo, Mtima Wanga Ugonjetse, mas. 142-144)

Zolemba Franco Sofia