Padre Pio anotaura kuna Mwari: kubva mutsamba dzake
Ndinosimudzira inzwi rangu nenzwi guru kwaari uye handingaregi
Nokuda kwouku kuteerera, ndinozvikurudzira ndimene kuti ndikuratidzei zvakaitika mandiri kubvira pazuva rechishanu kusvikira manheru, kusvikira pakupera kwechitanhatu romwedzi wazvino waAugust 1918. Handina kukodzera kukuudzai zvakaitika munguva iyi. yokufira kutenda kukuru. Vakomana vedu vakanga vachireurura manheru echishanu, apo ndakaerekana ndazadzwa nokutya kukuru ndichiona munhu wokudenga anozviratidzira amene pamberi peziso rouchenjeri. Akabata muruvoko rudzi rwechishandiso, chakafanana nesimbi refu kwazvo ine muromo wakapinza, uye zvairatidza kuti moto waibuda mariri. Kuona zvese izvi nekuona hunhu hwakataurwa hukande chishandiso chataurwa mumweya nechisimba chose, chaive chinhu chimwe chete. Handina kana kumbotura befu, ndaiita kunge ndave kufa. Ndakaudza mukomana wacho kuti akanga arega basa, nokuti ndakanga ndisingachazivi uye ndakanga ndisisanzwe simba rokuenderera mberi.
Uku kufira kutenda kwakagara, pasina kukanganisa, kusvika mangwanani ezuva rechinomwe. Zvandakatambura munguva ino inosiririsa handikwanise kutaura. Kunyangwe matumbo andaona kuti aibvaruka uye akatambanudzwa kuseri kwedoor, uye zvese zvakaiswa pamoto. Kubvira pazuva iro zvichienda mberi ndakakuvadzwa rufu. Ndinonzwa mukati memukati memweya wangu ronda rinogara rakavhurika, izvo zvinoita kuti ndisinganetse kubvarura.
Chii chandingakuudza pamusoro pezvaunondibvunza nezvekurovererwa kwangu kwakaitika? Mwari wangu, kuvhiringika uye kunyadziswa kwakadini kwandinonzwa kuti ndiratidze zvamaita muchisikwa chenyu chinosiririsa! Akanga ari mangwanani emusi wa20 waGunyana apfuura, mukwaya, pashure pokuchengetwa kweMisa Tsvene, apo ndakashamiswa navamwe, zvakafanana nokurara kunotapira. Manzwiro ose emukati neekunze, kwete kuti masimba chaiwo emweya akazviwana ari mukunyarara kusingatsananguriki. Pazvinhu izvi zvose maiva nokunyarara kwose kwakandipoteredza uye mukati mangu; pakarepo yakatsiviwa nerunyararo rukuru uye kusiiwa kusvika pakunyimwa kwakakwana kwezvinhu zvose uye chimiro mukuparadzwa kwakafanana. Zvese izvi zvakaitika nekukasira.
Uye zvese izvi pazvaiitika ndakazviona ndiri pamberi pechinhu chisinga nzwisisike, chakafanana neicho chakaonekwa manheru emusi wa5 Nyamavhuvhu, akapatsanura mune izvi chete kuti aive nemaoko nemakumbo uye nerutivi rwakadonha ropa. Kuona kwake kunondityisa; Handina kugona kukuudza zvandainzwa panguva iyoyo. Ndainzwa kunge ndanga ndichifa uye ndingadai ndakafa dai Ishe vasina kupindira kutsigira moyo wangu, wandainzwa kunzwa kusvetuka kubva pachipfuva changu.
Chiratidzo chemunhu wacho chakabva chabuda ndikaona kuti maoko, makumbo nerutivi zvakanga zvakaboorwa uye zvichichururuka ropa. Fungidzira kurwadziwa kwandakaitwa panguva iyoyo uye ndinoramba ndichisangana nazvo anenge mazuva ese. Ronda remoyo rinodeura ropa zvakanyanya, kunyanya kubva China manheru kusvika Mugovera. Baba vangu, ndinofa nekurwadziwa neshungu uye nekuvhiringidzika kwandinonzwa mukati memoyo wangu. Ndinotya kubuda ropa kusvika pakufa kana Ishe akasateerera kugomera kwemoyo wangu wakashata uye akabvisa kuvhiyiwa uku kubva kwandiri. Jesu akanaka kudai achandipa nyasha idzi here?
Zvichabvisa here kubva pandiri nyonganiso iyi yandinowana yezviratidzo zvekunze? Ndichasimudza inzwi rangu kwaari zvakasimba uye handizorega kumubvisa, kuitira kuti ngoni dzake abvise kwandiri kwete iko kurwadzisa, kwete kurwadziwa, nekuti ini ndinoona hazvigoneke uye ndinonzwa ndichida kuremerwa nemarwadzo, asi izvi zviratidzo zvekunze, zvinova nyonganiso uye isingagoni kurondedzerwa uye kusanyadziswa.
Hunhu hwandaishuvira kutaura nezvangu mune yangu imwe yapfuura hausi mumwe kunze kweiyo imwecheteyo yandakataura kwauri nezve mumwe mugodhi, wakaonekwa musi wa5 Nyamavhuvhu. Anotevera kushanda kwake asinganetsi, neshungu dzomweya. Ini ndinonzwa kuchiramba kuchirira mukati, kunge mapopoma emvura, ayo anogara achikanda ropa. Mwari wangu! Chirango chaicho uye kutonga kwako kwakanaka, asi ndishandise. Domine, ini ndichagara ndichiudza iwe nemuporofita wako: Domine, ne hasha dzako nharo dzako ini, neque in kutsamwa kwako corripias me! (Ps. 6, 2; 37, 1). Baba vangu, zvino zvaunoziva mukati medu, uye musarega kuunza shoko renyaradzo kwandiri, mukati mekutambudzika kukuru nekunetseka.