Chishamiso muLourdes: maziso akawanikwa

"Ndave ndichidzokera kuno kwemakore maviri ikozvino, ndine tariro imwe chete, nekukundikana kumwe chete. Zvombo zviviri zvandinozviratidza pamberi penyu, ndichishevedzera kwaari kurwadziwa kweundonda hwangu: “Meso angu, maziso angu asina kusimba akafa… sei musingadi kundidzorera iwo? Vamwe, vasingarapiki seni, vakagamuchira nyasha idzi kubva kwamuri; chipo chehumambo uye chakanaka, chinoita sechinhu chikuru kune avo vakarasikirwa nacho ... chiedza! ".

«Kurwara, kutambudzwa nehuipi hunorwadza zvakanyanya, ndingafara kuva navo uye ndaizotsungirira muedzo wakaoma, kana ndaigona kuona ... Asi ona! Kubva muhusiku hwakadzama hwandakavigwa nemhosva yakashata, iyo yaakaraira, bofu zvakare, asi ine hutsinye bofu, kutsemuka mukati meuropi hwangu! Yakauraya vamwe vazhinji, ichi chiduku chine utsinye, chisina hanya! Kuurawa, asi panguva imwe cheteyo ndasunungurwa kubva mukutambudzwa kwerima, uko kwandinotamburira, ndiri ndoga, ndisingabatsiri, ndisina simba somwana, ndakasiiwa kumasangano ose anoyamura, anonzwa tsitsi pandiri pavanosangana neni: “Murombo, ibofu!” . Ah, kana Mukadzi Wedu aida kundiporesa, kana pakati; ndaida kundipa zvipo zvemwaranzi wechiedza! Kuvhura kupenya kwakajeka mumimvuri kuti ndione zvishoma, zvishoma, zvehupenyu hwakandipoteredza! Makore maviri ekunamata! Vazhinji vakanamata zvishoma pane ini uye vakawana!

Akanyemwerera, nyemwerero yakachenuruka, uko shungu dzakadzama dzakafukidza runyararo rwairatidza, ushingi hwake hwaida kuratidza munhu wese, hushingi hwake semurwi asina kuziva humbwende. Achifungidzira kubva mukunyarara kwangu kuti ndaitya kuora mwoyo kana kumukira pedyo naye, akawedzera: “Handinyunyuti; Ndine chivimbo chakanyanya! Kunzwa kana kusanzwa, ndichagara ndichitenda musimba rake nekunaka kwake; aiwa handina kuora moyo ndangoneta. Waiziva here kuti zvakaipa sei kunzwa vanhu vaunoona vachigara vakakupoteredza, uye kufunga kuti: "Iwe uchagara usiri murombo nemeso akagomara, asingambofi akawana mufaro wekuyemura runako rwakakupoteredza!" Naizvozvo, kwamakore maviri, panguva yokuenda kwangu, ndave ndichiti kwandiri ndimene: “Neiko kudzokera ikoko zvakare, kana usingadi uye kana uchishurikidzirwa nokusingaperi kusvikira kuusiku hwakakwana? … ”Ndinozviudza kudaro, asi gore rega rega ndinodzoka ndine tariro yekuti inguva ino… Kwete! Haadi; anoona zviri nani nenzira iyi uye ndinonzwisisa kuti anorebesa bvunzo; asi ndinomuudza, zvakafanana, nezwi rakaderera: "Uye zvakadaro, kana Waida ..."

Akanga akatarisa, handizivi kuti ndeipi isingazivikanwi, maziso ake akajeka, achiri akanaka nhasi; nokuti upofu hunowanzowedzerwa nekuseka kunorwadza kwaanoita, maziso asingaoni, achiri mupenyu, akasimba muchimiro, uye anofambisa, sekunge ari kuedza kuedza kupinza chifukidzo chisina kubvarura, icho, chisingachinjiki, chinovanza chiedza kubva kwavari. Akanyemwerera uye nyemwerero ikawedzera apo, kuenda kuGrotto, nziyo dzakarira, dzakakura zvekuti dzakaratidza boka guru. Akateerera kwemaminetsi mashoma, ose akaunganidzwa; rufaro rukuru rwakapenya pachiso chake uye akarunzwa zvakanaka, zvekuti kutarisa kwake, kwakazaruka pamumvuri wose, kwakaratidzika panguva iyoyo kutevera kufamba kwemhomho, avo vakadzokorora nemufaro munamato wake.

Kunyepedzera, mweya; akaona nyengedzo yaidiwa, akavhenekera zvake kuburikidza nendangariro; akaverenga nemifungo yake nhamba yevafambi, vakamira, pedyo nenzvimbo iyo Mhandara yakanga yavhenekera mumvuri wakakora wezuva renyika nechiedza choumwari.

Zvinyoronyoro, akagunun’una: “Wakanaka! Kunaka kwakadini! ". Asi kamwe-kamwe nziyo dzakapera, pamwe chete navo un'anga; runyararo, rwakamuwira, rwakanga rwavhiringidza runako rwekunyaradzwa kweshungu; akazevezera, mukugomera kwaiva kupfikura: "Ndarota chiedza!" ".

Chokwadi chakadzoka kuzoremedza mweya wake wakanga wapererwa. "Ndinoda kubva, ndinotambura zvakanyanya! ".

"Hongu, ikozvino tichadzoka, asi ngatiite munamato wekupedzisira".

Akasvika pamaoko ake nokurega uye, akapfava somwana, akadzokorora mashoko angu, umo akaedza kusuma kupiwa kworupo kwokusiya basa kwakakwirira: «Mai wedu weLourdes, ndinzwirei tsitsi pakutambudzika kwangu; Munoziva zvakandinakira, asi munongozivawo kuti kutambudzika kwemweya kwakaipisisa, uye ndinotambura mumweya. Ndinozviisa pasi pekuda kwenyu, asi handina hugamba hwekugamuchira nemufaro kuomarara kwahwo kuri pachena; kana usingade kundiporesa, ndoda ndisiye basa! Kana usingakwanise kudzosa maziso angu kwandiri, namata kuti ndive nehushingi hwese uye nerubatsiro rwehumwari runodikanwa kutsungirira dambudziko rakaipisisa, ndisingakundikane. Ndinokubayirai chibayiro ichi nomoyo wangu wose; asi kana Muchida kuti ive yakakwana chete, bvisai kwandiri ichi chishuwo chinopfuurira, chinonditambudza, kuona zuva uye kunakidzwa nechiedza, chandaida zvikuru uye chandisingabatanidzwi nokusingaperi ».

Sezvatakapfuura pamberi peGrotto, akada kumbomira kwechinguvana: «Munogona kunditendeudzira ndakananga kuchifananidzo, chakangotarisana nemi, sokunge maizochiona? ".

Ndakaita chishuwo chake chekusimbirira: "Ndiani anoziva - ndakafunga - kuti Mukadzi Wedu haamukurudzire nechiitiko ichi kukwezva tsitsi dzake uye kusarudza chishamiso! ".

Chaive chinhu chaibaya moyo, maziso akagomara, akatarisa kuna Mashura, uye kuti aigara achivimba nehurwere achikumbira rubatsiro izvo aisada kupererwa nazvo.

Zvakare akadzokera kuchipatara sezvo akanga abuda; asi apo, mazuva masere gare gare, ndakamukwazisa, ndisati ndaparadzana, ndakaziva kubva mukunyemwerera kwake kuti mufaro mutsva wakanga watora mwoyo wake uye wakanga wagaramo nokusingaperi. Akanga agamuchira nyasha dzakakumbirwa nemoyo wose kuti agamuchire chibayiro uye arambe chido chikuru chekuona chiedza zvakare? Mukadzi Wedu akanga amubvumira here, mukutsinhana kuzviisa pasi kwakakwana, simba iroro rinozvidza uipi rinofarikanywa nemweya iyo Mwari anotaura nayo zvinonzwika kupfuura zvishuvo zvomunhu?

“Ndinonzwa kuti ndichafara, akandiudza zvakavanzika zvake, akabata maoko angu mumaoko ake nokuraswa kukuru. Mufaro uyu, zvichida achaseka shoko, ndakauwana paakandiisa pamberi pechifananidzo: meso emapofu anoona zvinhu zvinokupukunyuka, uye anoziva kuverenga mapeji erima, apo maziso ako aizosiyanisa chete. mimvuri ».

Kutya kwaaiti chokwadi uye kwaiita sehope dzamwari chete. Ndakaedza kumudzikamisa: «Mudikani shamwari, ndisingade kutonga vavariro dzaMukadzi Wedu, rega ndikuyambire nezve njodzi yekudzidudzira maererano nenjere dzedu. Ndakasangana nevamwe vanhu vairwara avo, vaine chokwadi chekuti vaive nekufemerwa kwakavanzika kubva kuMukadzi Wedu, vachichinjana kunyengera kwavo kuti vanyeverwe kubva kudenga, vakarasikirwa nekusiya basa kwavo uye vakasiya vakaora mwoyo ». Ndakanga ndataura mashoko aidikanwa aya nenzwi roushamwari, rinenge nounyoro, ndichida kuderedza, nounyoro hworudo, chokwadi chakakasharara. Bofu rangu harina kushamisika kana kusuwa; kudzikama kwechokwadi kwairatidza kunyemwerera kwechiso chake, apa ndakaona pasina kana chekusimudzwa. Kushamisika kwangu kwakawedzera zvakanyanya paakandiudza chinhu chinoshamisa ichi:

"Ukuwo ndinotanga kunzwikwa." "Sei? Unofunga maziso ake here? ... ». Panguva ino akaseka: "Zvimwe ...".

Asi chiso chake chakaramba chakaoma, uye iye pachake aiita seakatsunga kupedzisa kunyarara, zvekuti ndakafunga kuti zvakanaka kuti ndisarambe. Ndakangoti kwaari, as a greeting...

“Kana paine nhau, ndinoti ndine kodzero yekuziviswa! ".

“Uye kutanga; richava basa rangu; akanga akanaka uye ane hukama zvokuti aitondidzivirira panhema. Panguva ino, zvakadaro, ndinokuvimbisa kuti tariro yangu yakakura uye zvakare ... zvine musoro kuti nditye kuwira kunorwadza muchokwadi ».

Takaparadzana. "Mukomana murombo - akagunun'una mukoti kwandiri, achiteverwa nemusikana - ushingi hwake hwakakodzera kuti Mhandara Mutsvene amubatsire". "Munomuziva here madam?" ".

" Ndinotenda! Mwanakomana weshamwari yangu inodiwa; zita rakanaka, asi rombo rakanaka; akanga ari injiniya pakatanga hondo; Saka zvino… ".

Ndichiri kufadzwa nemashoko anoshamisa! nguva pfupi yapfuura, ndichidavira kuti mukoti akanga agamuchira zvakavanzika zvake, ndakadzokorora kwaari kutaura kwandakanga ndanzwa panguva iyoyo: «Anodzoka azere netariro; uye, maererano naye, zvakatozadzikiswa zvishoma ... asi maziso ake achiri kure zvachose! ".

Zvakanyanya kujeka, musikana, uyo ane chiso chakanaka chakaratidza manzwiro akadzama aiita kuti zvimiro zvake zvivepo, akatarisa bofu ndokutendeukira kwaari, asi achipindura mubvunzo wangu: "Ndine chokwadi chekuti akataura chokwadi."

Paive ipapo here zviratidzo zvekuporesa izvo zvakavanzika izvo murwere, kuti adzivise chikanganiso, aichengeta godo? Handina kumbozvishingisa, nekuda kwekuremekedza nzvimbo yakachengetwa vakadzi vaviri vakazvivharira.

Apo, maminetsi mashomanana gare gare, ndakaona musikana achitungamirira, neshiviriro yaamai, nhanho dzisina chokwadi dzemurwere wangu, ndakagutsikana kuti hapana chiedza, kunyange chiduku, chakanga chauya kuzovhenekera usiku hwake.

Bva nguva pfupi murume airwara nomukadzi wake muduku zvikuru vasati vandivimbisa kuti vakanga vachikarira chishamiso! Ndakapedzisira ndava kudavira kuti vose vari vaviri, mumwe nokuda kwechishuvo chakanyanyisa, mumwe nokuda kworunako, vakanyengedza mumwe nomumwe asina tariro mutariro imwe cheteyo yechisimbwa. Ndakafamba ndisisade kunzwisisa.

... Mwedzi miviri gare gare, apo, mukuyerera kunogara kuchivandudzwa kwevafambi, ndakanga ndakanganwa shamwari yangu zvishoma, iyi tsamba yakasvika kwandiri, murunyoro rusingazivikanwi rwechikadzi:

"Vanodiwa changamire, ndine mufaro wekuzivisa muchato wangu unotevera kuna Miss Giorgina R., mukoti wangu wekuLourdes, waakaona padivi pangu chirimo chapfuura uye anondipa ruoko rwake kuti ndimunyorere. Pandakamuudza kuti ndave kuda kuona maziso angu, aive ake andaida kutaura, ane chiedza chinopenya chichavhenekera hupenyu hwangu kubva zvino zvichienda mberi; Ndichaona kuburikidza naye kuti ndiye muperekedzi wangu uye kuti achatove nani munguva pfupi.

"Saka, nenzira yakatosiyana nezvaaigona kufunga, Mukadzi wedu anondiita izvo zvakatorwa nehondo uye zvakatowanda. Zvino ndinokumbira Mhandara kuti indisiye sezvandiri, nokuti mufaro uyu unodzima marwadzo ose kwandiri; imwe, iyo yekuona uye kwete chete kuburikidza nemeso anodiwa emumwe wangu, zvino yaizove isina basa.

«Ndibatsirei kuti nditende Amai nokuda kwekunyaradza kwose, avo, vachititeerera nenzira yavo pachavo, vanotipa mufaro chete unokosha, nokuti unobva kumusoro. Nehushamwari hwakawanda. ”…

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