Kutenda nemunamato zvakamubatsira kukurira kuora mwoyo

Isita Svondo, karenda rakaziviswa pamadziro ekicheni yangu. Ndozvakaitawo mabhasikiti evana nemazai avo ane mavara neon marmashow. Uye zvipfeko zvedu zvitsva zvechechi.

Jamie, ane makore gumi nematatu, uye Katie, makore gumi nematanhatu, aive nemapfekero ehembe diki senge yangu, naThomas, wemakore matatu, nekudada vakapfeka miniature tie. Isita yakanga yakatenderedza.

Saka sei Isita yanga isiri mukati mangu futi?

"Tarisa!" murume wangu Rick akadaro patakabuda munzira. “Pear miti iri kutumbuka! Kekutanga kubvira patakadzvara! "

Ini handitombo rangarira taive nemapare miti. Chii chiri kunetsa pandiri, Ishe? Izvo zvaive zvaitika nekukasira, iyi grey, yerima uye isina tariro kunzwa.

Muchechi, kushevedzera kwe "Happy Easter!" akatibhomba. "Isita inofadza!" Ndakaita chigamba, ndichiteedzera kunyemwerera kunopenya kweshamwari dzangu. Isa chiso chinofara. Ndeupi Mukristu Anosuwa paIsita?

Ndakazviudza kuti zvaive zvenguva pfupi chete. Asi Kubvumbi naMay vakapfuura neiyo imwechete chiveve chiveve. Ndakakanganwa kudya, ndakanga ndichirasikirwa, ndaisakwanisa kurara. Amai vangu vaida kuti ndione chiremba wangu, asi chii chandingavaudza: "Ndinonzwa shungu asi hapana chikonzero chekuzviita"?

Zvakare, maKristu aisafanirwa kufara munaShe here? Makore angu ese makumi matatu nematatu ndakanga ndaenda kumachechi maviri svondo yega yega, Chipiri manheru kusvika kunze, Chitatu manheru Vasikana-vari-kuita pandakanga ndiri mudiki, mazuva ano musangano weMunamato naRick.

Chii chaizofungwa nevanhu vese dai vaiziva kuti ndiri kusangana nerima iri mukati, kuti ndiri kutadza Mwari seizvi?

Zvimwe ndangoda shanduko yemamiriro. MunaJune, patakaenda kuzororo, zvinhu zvingadai zvakazochinja neimwe nzira.

Pakufambisa kuenda kuGulf Coast yeFlorida, ndakaedza kujoina zvirongwa zveRick nemwana zvine hushamwari pane zvese zvavaida kuita kana vasvika kumahombekombe, asi pakupedzisira ndakanzwa sock inoshamisa mune yakaoma .

Munzvimbo yedu yecustomer yecostinium ini ndakateedzera mafambiro, ndakapfekerwa pamhenderekedzo yegungwa, ndikatamba uye manheru, mhuri yangu payakarara, ini ndakabuda panze kunochema.

Kubuda pamasuo egirazi anotsvedza kupinda murima rine munyu, ndakateerera kurira kwemafungu. Sei zvisina kundidzikamisa sezvazvinoita nguva dzose? Ndine marara matsva mumaoko angu, changamire, saka ndinofanira kunge ndiri muFlorida. Sei ndisinganzwe chero chinhu?

Ndakasvika kumba ndichishungurudzika kupfuura patakabva. Ndakamira ndichizvitarisa mumagirazi, ndisingade kutarisana nemukadzi anodhonzwa nemaziso anoshaiwa anonamira ipapo.

Nguva yese yezhizha ndakazvimanikidza kuenda nevana kudziva remunharaunda medu, ndichifunga kuti: Zvimwe kana ndikazvibata sevamwe amai, ndinogona kunzwa saamai zvakare. Shamwari dzangu dzichikurukura, ini ndakapfeka magirazi angu ezuva ndikanyepedzera kunge ndakabatwa nemagazini.

Ndakafunga kuti ndakatoseka Rick, kusvikira humwe husiku akati, “Hauchachemedzeri, Julie. Pane chakaipa? "

Aihwa! Ndiro dambudziko. Zvese zvaive zvakanaka, kunze kwangu. "Ndangoti ndaneta," ndakamuudza.

"Ngatinamatirei izvi," akadaro.

Ndakanamata! Ndakanamata ndikanamata uye hapana chinoitika. Rick anofanira kunge ainetseka zvakanyanya kupfuura zvaakarega kuenda, nekuti kekutanga muhupenyu hwedu hwekuroora, akataura kuti tigwadame uye tinamate pamwe chete pamwe chete. Ndakadzokorora zvese shure kwake, semhiko dzemuchato.

"Ishe ndiye mufudzi wangu, handidi."

"Ishe ndiye mufudzi wangu, handidi."

Yakave tsika yemanheru, vachinamata pamwe nguva yekurara isati yarara. "Ndinokutendai, Ishe," Rick aigona kuvhara, "nekupa Julie rugare rwenyu rwakakwana." Ndainzwa kudzikamawo, chero bedzi ainamata. Ipapo aibatwa nehope, uye kana ndisingachagona kunyepa zvakare, ndaibvisa zvivharo uye kukochekera ndakananga kuawa.

00:10. 02:30. 04:15. Chave chimwe chinhu kuvanza. Ko ndaigoudza sei murume wangu kuti minamato yake yanga isiri kushanda? Ndingarega sei Rick pasi sekusiya kwandakaita Mwari?

Muna Gumiguru, amai vangu vakatanga kupinda mukati "kungoti mhoroi" kakati wandei pasvondo. Haana kubvunza mibvunzo, asi kuyedza kwake kujekesa kundifadza kwakandiudza kuti kunyangwe kunyemwerera kwangu kwekumanikidzwa kwaive kumunyengera.

Mukutanga kwaNovember akasimbirira kuenda neni kunotenga. KuMall mai vangu vakafamba kusvika padhirezi. “Tarisa, Julie, iri ndiro vara nyowani rekudonha! Masitadhi. Munoona iwo majini? Uye bhachi rinowirirana? " Nditsanangurire sekunge iwe waive mwana wechikoro.

Akatora hembe dzangu ndokundipushira mu dressing room. Nemusana wangu kugirazi, ndakaisa pajean, hukuru hushoma pane hwakajairwa, uye ndakasimbisa bhandi kune yekupedzisira notch.

“Julie, zvinotora nguva yakareba sei? Zvino ndogona kupinda here?

"Okay," ndakadaro ndichibva ndasiya basa.

“Ah Julie, iro vara rakanakisa nebvudzi rako dzvuku! Ndiri kukutsvagira hembe. "Ko wadii kuipfeka tozomira tiine ice cream munzira yekumba." Yippee. Aizi kirimu.

Kudzoka muOldsmobile yake, ndakaramba kubuda zvekare. "Enda unotora ice cream uibudise." Ndakanga ndakachengeteka mumotokari pane vanhu vaigona kunditarisira kuti nditaure uye ndinofara.

Amai vadzoka nekwangu kudiwa kwehudiki, chokoreti yemukaka ine kirimu chaiyo yakarohwa. Ndakayamwa nesimba uye nekukurumidza kuburikidza nesadza kuti ndiedze uye kurangarira iwo manzwiro aidedera. Zvanga zvisina kunaka. Sei pasisina chinonakidza muhupenyu zvekare?

Amai vakatanga kuuya mazuva ese. Ndakamuvenga paakasvika, uye ndakavenga zvakanyanya paakaenda. Rimwe zuva mangwanani akauya nekamera yake ndokunditevera achitenderera imba achitora mifananidzo. "Ndiri kuda kukuratidza kunaka kwako."

Vanamai vanogara vachifunga kuti vanasikana vakanaka. Ini ndiri wekunyepedzera uye ndakundikana uye zvinofanirwa kuratidza. Nekudaro, ndichimuona trot kumashure kwangu, nekudzvanya kure, zvainakidza zvekuti ndaifanira kuseka. Zvaiita sekunzwa rwiyo rwakanganwika. Akapedza roll ndokukurumidza kuenda kunogadzira awa.

Kudzoka, akaisa mifananidzo kunge ruoko rwokukunda rwemakadhi. Anofanira kunge akavaita kuti vabate kumusoro. Ini ndinotarisa zvakadaro ... zvakajairika.

Ndakatora pfuti yangu yandaifarira, iya yandaiva nayo tichiseka, ndokuitakura kwese kwese zuva, saka ndakaiisa mufiriji. Ini ndaida kudzora kuseka ikoko, kutenda kuti zvaireva kufara zvakare, kuva ini. Asi seminamato yaRick yekurara, erevheta haina kuramba.

Amai pavakadzoka zuva rakatevera, ndakanga ndakagara pakicheni ndichichema. Akamira paside pangu. "Julie, I think yave nguva yekuona chiremba."

Zvidimbu zvekupedzisira zvekuzviremekedza kwangu zvadonha. Kuchaira nhamba yachiremba kwaiita senge kwekupedzisira kukundwa. Iye akabva andipa musangano.

Ndakagara pachigaro cheganda cheganda chakajairika muimba yake yekumirira, ndichishuvira kuve mumwe wevamwe varwere. Mukadzi ane vana vashanu vasina kugadzikana, murume mukuru akatarisa panze nepahwindo, pwere riri benzi.

Ndeupi mukadzi mukuru anoda amai vake kuti vaende naye kwachiremba? Uye Dr Kelly angazotii kana akaona kuti hapana chakaipa neni? Ndakamuona achimaka diagram rangu re "Mental Case / Weirdo".

"Julie, dzoka," mukoti akadana. Anofanira kuzivawo here?

"Chii chiri kunetsa, Julie?" Dr Kelly vakabvunza zvine mutsindo.

Kureurura mamiriro angu kune mumwe munhu ndicho chimwe chezvinhu zvakaomesesa zvandati ndamboita. “Ini - handichanzwi seni. Ndinofungidzira kuti handina kumbonzwa seni mukati memwedzi mipfumbamwe zvino uye handigoni kurega kuchema. "

Nenzira yekongiri, chiremba wangu akaramba achibvunza mibvunzo. Aive nezviratidzo zvakangoerekana zvauya here? machechi.

"Warasika here?"

"Unorara zvishoma kana kuti wakawandisa?"

"Warasikirwa nekunakidzwa nezvinhu zvawafarira?"

"Uri kunetsekana nekufungisisa here?"

Hongu Hongu Ehe! Kune mall.

"Julie," akadaro chiremba, "uri mukuora mwoyo. Kushungurudzika kunogona kuve nezvikonzero zvakawanda, asi kana zvikauya nekukasira zvinogona kuve chimiro chemuviri nekuda kwekudzikira kwesero re serotonin muuropi. Ichi hachisi chimiro chinokundikana kana chiratidzo chekushaya simba. Vakasimba uye vane simba venhabvu vanotamburawo nekushushikana. "

Iye haasi kunditonga! Vatambi venhabvu. Zvitaure zvakare ... chimiro chemuviri ...

"Asi, Dr. Kelly, dai ndaive nekutenda kwakaringana, Mwari haangarape kushushikana here?"

“Ndiri zvakare murume wekutenda, Julie. Dzimwe nguva Mwari vanoshandisa vanachiremba kubatsira kuporesa. Rangarira Jamie paakatyoka ruoko? Wakamutora kuenda kun'anga.

"Kushungurudzika chirwere", akaenderera mberi, "kazhinji kuchirapwa nemishonga." Akabvarura mushonga waive padhaya rake.

“With ichi, wako serotonin pamwero ichawedzera zvishoma nezvishoma. Mukuita kudaro, ndinotenda iwe unotanga kunzwa kunge wako wekare hunhu. Iwe unozofanirwa kugara mumushonga kweinenge mwedzi mitanhatu. Ndichakuona zvakare vhiki ina. "

Ndakasiya office yake ndichifamba pamusoro pemhepo. Asi vhiki nemishonga haina kuchinja chero chinhu. Tariro akatsvedza kunge bhiza rinotiza.

Zvino mamwe mangwanani muvhiki yechipiri, ndakamuka ndikaziva kuti ndakanga ndarara husiku hwese. Sezvinoita mufirimu rinononoka kufamba, furemu nechimiro, dzimwe shanduko dzakateedzerwa, nguva dzekufara dzakatsemuka one one kupinda grey.

Mumwe Mugovera, ingangoita mwedzi miviri ndashanyira chiremba, ini naRick takaenda nevana kuMcDonald's. Takafamba tichipinda pamusuwo ndikangoerekana ndarangarira manakiro eFrench fries. Izvi ndizvo zvinoita chikafu kunge chiri kupenga nezve! Ndakamira mumutsetse semwana asingashiviriri.

"Ndinogona kutora odha yako?" Akadaro mukomana uya aive kune rimwe divi rekamba.

"Yup!" Ndakapindura ndichikara. "Ndichava nenhamba yakawanda yemafuta uye chokoreti yakakura yemukaka uye, o, hongu, ketchup yakawanda!"

Ndakabata tray ndokutevera mhuri yangu kusvika pamira. Inonaka, ine munyu, inopisa machipisi! Kuwedzera yakawanda pepper, ndakadhonza chip yega yega mbatatisi mune hari hombe ye ketchup. Iyo saltity yakaita kuti ndide zvangu smoothie. Ndakayamwa chinwiwa chaitonhora zvakanyanya uye nekukurumidza zvekuti huro yangu yaibvunda.

Ndatenda, changamire, nechangu chokoreti mukaka. Ndakabata ruoko rwaRick pasi petafura ndokuzevezera "I love you".

Imwe mwedzi miviri yakapfuura, mazuva akanaka akauya kakawanda uye kakawanda. Zvino yaive Svondo yePasika zvakare - o, asi kwete senge chero Isita yandakamboziva!

Pataibuda munzira yekufamba tichienda kuchechi, ndakaona kuti maparera aive kubwinya kwetambo chena. Panzvimbo pekusviba grey, pakanga paine yero daffodils, pingi dogwoods - hupenyu hutsva kwese, tariro nyowani.

Uye kunyanya mandiri. Dr. Kelly aive akarasika. "Uchava hunhu hwako hwekare zvakare," akavimbisa. Asi ichi chaive chitsva kwandiri! Uyu wega waisafanira kuve wemuenzaniso wechiKristu uyo ​​aisambopotsa svondo yekuchechi uye aingoratidza divi rake rakanaka.

Izvi zvaive zvisina kusimba, kushayiwa uye kushungurudzika uye aiziva kuti zvaive zvakanaka, zvese zvakanaka nevanhu uye zvese zvakana Mwari.Pandakangobvuma kuti ndaizvikuvadza, ndawana vabatsiri vake vandikomba. Rick. Amai. Dr. Kelly. Shamwari dzangu kuchechi ndaifunga kuti zvingadai zvisina kufadza.

Yaiva apo pandakafunga kuti ndakanga ndarega Mwari pasi kuti ndainge ndamuwana zvechokwadi, pandakawira kure kure sekumhara kwandakaita mumaoko ake. Dzimwe nguva, pataipinda munzira tichienda kuchechi, ndakaona kuti nzira ine mbiri kwazvo yatinofara muna Ishe ndeyekumuita kuti anzwe kurwadziwa kwedu kwakadzama.