Ini, musayendisiti asingatendi kuti kuna Mwari, ndinotenda muzvishamiso
Ndichitarisa mucroscope yangu, ndakaona sero rinouraya chirwere uye ndakasarudza kuti murwere wandakanga ndichiedzwa ropa rake anofanira kunge akafa. Yakanga iri 1986 uye ini ndakanga ndichiongorora runda hombe rwe "mapofu" mapfupa emongo wemafupa pasina kuudzwa chikonzero.
Tichifunga nezvekuongororwa kwakaipa uku, ndakafungidzira kuti yaive mhosva. Zvichida mhuri inoshungurudza yaive yekumhan'arira chiremba kuti afe nekuti hapana chaigona kunyatsoitwa. Mongo yemapfupa akataura imwe nyaya: murwere akaita chemotherapy, cancer ikapinda kuregererwa, akabva adzokera zvakare, akaita kumwe kurapwa uye cancer ikatadza kuregererwa kechipiri.
Ndakazoziva kuti achiri mupenyu makore manomwe mushure mematambudziko ake. Mhosva iyi yakanga isiri yekutongwa, asi yakaonekwa neVictoria sechiratidzo mudhizari yekuvandudzwa kweMarie-Marguerite d'Youville. Hakuna mutsvene akange asati azvarwa muCanada. Asi Vatikani vakatoramba mhosva iyi sechishamiso. Nyanzvi dzake dzakataura kuti iye haana kutanga aregererwa uye kutangazve; pachinzvimbo, ivo vakati kurapwa kwechipiri kwakatungamira kuregererwa kwekutanga. Uyu musiyano wakashata waive wakakosha: isu tinotenda kuti zvinokwanisika kuporesa mukuregererwa kwekutanga, asi kwete mushure mekutangazve. Nyanzvi dzeRome dzakabvuma kuongorora zvekare chisarudzo chavo kana chapupu "chakapofumara" chikaongororazve muenzaniso uye vawana zvandaona. Ripoti rangu ratumirwa kuRoma.
Ini ndakanga ndisati ndambonzwa nezvekugadzwa kweconization uye ini handina kukwanisa kufungidzira kuti sarudzo yacho yaida kufunga kwakawanda kwesainzi. (...) Mushure mechinguva ndakashevedzwa kuti ndipupure mudare rezvitendero. Ndichinetseka nezvavanogona kunge vandibvunza, ndakauya nezvimwe zvinyorwa kubva mune zvekurapa mabhuku nezvangu nezve mukana wekupona leukemia, ndichiratidza nhanho huru dzepinki. (...) Murwere uye vanachiremba vakapupurirawo mudare uye murwere akatsanangura mabatiro aakaita d'Youville panguva yekudzokorora.
Mushure menguva yakawanda, takadzidza nhau dzinonakidza dzekuti d'Youville vaizotsveneswa naJohn Paul II musi waDecember 9, 1990. Manesi aive akavhura chikonzero chekutsveneswa akandikoka kuti ndiitewo mhemberero. Pakutanga, ndakazeza kusada kuvagumbura: ndiri munhu asingatendi kuti kuna Mwari uye murume wangu wechiJuda. Asi ivo vakafara kutisanganisira isu mumhemberero uye hatina kukwanisa kupfuudza nerombo rekuzvipupurira pachako kuzivikanwa kwemutsvene wekutanga wenyika yedu.
Mhemberero iyi yaive muSan Pietro: kwaive natete, chiremba pamwe nemurwere. Nokukurumidza mushure, takasangana nePapa: nguva isingakanganwiki. KuRome, vekuCanada vanyowani vakandipa chipo, iro bhuku rakachinja hupenyu hwangu zvakanyanya. Iyo yaive kopi yePositio, humbowo hwese hwechishamiso cheOttawa. Yaive iine data yechipatara, zvinyorwa zvechipupuri. Yaivawo neyangu report. (...) Kamwe kamwe, ndakaziva nekushamisika kuti rangu rekurapa rakanga raiswa munzvimbo dzekuVictoria. Munyori wenhoroondo mandiri akabva angofunga kuti: kuchavewo nemanenji ezviratidzo zvekare? Zvakare kuporeswa zvese nezvirwere zvakarapwa? Sayenzi yezvekurapa yakambofungidzirwa here munguva yakapfuura, sezvazvave kuita nhasi? Ko ivo vana chiremba vanga vaonei uye vakati chii?
Mushure memakore makumi maviri uye rwendo rwakawanda kuenda kuVictoria zvinyorwa ndakaburitsa mabhuku maviri pamusoro pekurapa uye nechitendero. (...) Iyo tsvakurudzo yakaratidza nyaya dzinoshamisa dzekuporesa uye ushingi. Zvakaratidza zvimwe kusanzwanana pakati pekurapa nechitendero maererano nekufunga uye zvinangwa, uye kwakaratidza kuti Chechi haina kuisa saiti parutivi kuti itonge pane izvo zvinoshamisa.
Kunyangwe ndichiri munhu asingatende kuti kuna Mwari, ndinotenda muzvishamiso, zvinoshamisa zvinitika zvinoitika uye zvatisingakwanise kuwana chero tsananguro yesainzi. Iye murwere wekutanga achiri mupenyu makore makumi matatu mushure mekurwara neacute myeloid leukemia uye ini ndotadza kutsanangura chikonzero nei. Asi anodaro.