Imbonakalo yokugqibela yemihla ngemihla kaMirjana kunye nesikhumba esingaqondakaliyo (ibali likaMirjana ngokwakhe)

UKUBONAKALA KOKUGQIBELA KWIMIHLA NGEMIHLA EMIRJANA NOPHANDO OLUMANGALISAYO

(Kwibali elinomdla likaMirjana ngokwakhe)

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Ngomhla wama-23 kuDisemba 1982 uMadonna wabonakala kum njengesiqhelo; , njengamanye amaxesha, ngamava amnandi agcwalisa umphefumlo wam ngovuyo. Kodwa ukuya esiphelweni wandijonga ngothantamiso wathi: "NgeKrisimesi ndiza kuvela kuwe okokugqibela."

Ekupheleni kokuvela ndothuka. Ndiyivile into ayithethileyo, kodwa andikholwanga. Ndingaphila njani ngaphandle kweembonakalo? Kwakubonakala kungenakwenzeka. Ndathandaza kakhulu ukuba oku kungazaliseki.

Ngosuku olulandelayo, ngo-Eva weKrisimesi, uMama wethu wayesazama ukundilungiselela, kodwa ndandingaqondi. Ndichithe ubusuku obuninzi ndicela uThixo ukuba andinike ixesha elininzi kunye naye.

Abazali bam kunye nomninawa wam babhiyozela iKrisimesi ngeengoma, imithandazo kunye nokutya, kodwa ndandinexhala kakhulu ukuba ndingazibandakanya neqela. Ndilapho, phakathi kwezinto endizithandayo, ndandisele ndiza kuthatha inxaxheba kwiKrisimesi kunye nalaa mfazi wazala uYesu kwiminyaka engamawaka amabini eyadlulayo, kwaye ndandingakwazi nokuncuma.

Ngexesha lokusondela kokuvela, ndandinexhala ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Umama, utata nomntakwethu banxibe ezona mpahla zintle zetheko kwaye baguqa ecaleni kwam. Sathandaza irosari ukulungiselela ukubonakala. Xa wayevela, uMama wethu wancuma kamnandi wandibulisa ngendlela kamama, njengoko wayehlala esenza. Ndandinomtsalane: ubuso bakhe babukhazimla ngombala ofanayo wegolide owawunonyaka ophelileyo, kwaye ngalo mzuzu-ngalo lonke ubabalo nobuhle obathululelwa kum-kwakungekho lula ukuba lusizi.

Emva kwexesha le mei yandixelela ukuba okokugqibela ukubonakala kwahlala imizuzu engama-45, eyayingaqhelekanga. Mna noMama wethu sathetha ngezinto ezininzi. Sihambe zonke iinyanga ezilishumi elinesibhozo esizichithe kunye-yonke into ebesiyithethile omnye nomnye kunye noko andityhilele kona. Undinike imfihlo yeshumi neyokugqibela, echaza ukuba kufanelekile ukuba ndikhethe umbingeleli ngendima ekhethekileyo. Kwiintsuku ezilishumi ngaphambi komhla wesiganeko obonwe kwimfihlo yokuqala kuya kufuneka ndinxibelelane nalo mfundisi ngento eza kwenzeka. Ke yena kunye nam kuya kufuneka sithandaze kwaye sizile ukutya kangangeentsuku ezisixhenxe kwaye, kwiintsuku ezintathu phambi komsitho, umbingeleli uyakukutyhila oko emhlabeni. Zonke iimfihlo ezilishumi ziya kutyhilwa ngale ndlela.

NGOMATSHI 18

UMama wethu uphinde wandinika isipho esixabisekileyo: wandixelela ukuba uyakuvela kum kanye ngonyaka, nge-18 ka-Matshi, ubomi bam bonke. Ngomhla wamashumi amabini anesibhozo ku-Matshi ngumhla wokuzalwa kwam, kodwa uMama wethu akazange awukhethe lo mhla ngenxa yesi sizathu. Okwakho, usuku lwam lokuzalwa aluhlukanga komnye umntu. Umhlaba uya kusiqonda isizathu sokuba uMariya akhethe uMatshi 18 kuphela xa izibakala eziqulathwe kwiimfihlo ziqala ukwenzeka. Ngelo xesha, intsingiselo yaloo mhla iya kucaca. Uye wathi ndiza kuba nembonakalo eyongezelelweyo.

Emva koko wandinika into efana nesikhumba esongiweyo, echaza ukuba zonke iimfihlo ezilishumi zazibhalwe kuyo, kwaye kufuneka ndiyibonise umbingeleli endikhethileyo ukuba azityhile xa kufika ixesha. Ndiyithathe esandleni sakhe ndingayijonganga.

"Ngoku kuya kufuneka ubuyele kuThixo ngokholo, njengaye nawuphi na umntu," utshilo. “Mirjana, ndikhethe wena. Ndikuxelele zonke izinto ezibalulekileyo. Ndikubonise izinto ezininzi ezoyikekayo. Ngoku kufuneka unyamezele yonke into ngenkalipho. Cinga ngam kunye neenyembezi ekufuneka ndizenze ngenxa yale. Kufuneka uhlale unesibindi. Uyayiqonda kwangoko imiyalezo. Kuya kufuneka uqonde ukuba kufuneka ndihambile. Yibalikroti ".

Uthembisile ukuba uyakuhlala enam kwaye uzakundinceda kwezona meko zinzima, kodwa intlungu endandiyiva emphefumlweni wam yayingaphantse inyamezeleke. Umama wethu wayekuqonda ukubandezeleka kwam kwaye wandicela ukuba ndithandaze. Ndacengceleza umthandazo endihlala ndiwenza xa ndindedwa naye: i-Salve Regina… […].

UMQULU

Wancuma njengomama ngangokunokwenzeka, emva koko wanyamalala. Andizange ndicinge ukuba iKrisimesi inokuba lusizi kangaka.

"Kodwa njani?", Ndicinge. "Ingenzeka njani into yokuba ndingaze ndiphinde ndimbone uMama wethu yonke imihla?"

Ndaqonda ukuba ndisaphethe umqulu ebendinike wona. Ukusoloko ndimbona uMama wethu njengokuba ndibona nawuphi na umntu, kwakungokwemvelo ukuthatha into esandleni sakhe, njengoko bendiya kwenza nakubani na. Kodwa ngoku ukubonwa kuphelile, ndothuswa kukubona loo msongo usesezandleni zam. Ndizibuze: "Yenzeka njani lento?" "Kutheni ndibambe into evela ezulwini ngesandla?" Njengazo zonke ezinye iziganeko ezenzeke kwiinyanga ezilishumi elinesibhozo ezidlulileyo, bendinokuyithatha njengemfihlo kaThixo.

Isongo esine-beige senziwe ngesixhobo esifana nesikhumba- hayi iphepha okanye ilaphu lokwenene, kodwa ndaweni ithile phakathi. Ndayityhila ngononophelo kwaye ndafumanisa iimfihlelo ezilishumi ezibhalwe ngesandla esihle. Kwakungekho mihlobiso okanye imizekeliso; Yonke imfihlo ibibhalwe ngamagama alula nacacileyo, phantse afana nalawo asetyenziswa nguMama wethu xa endicacisela okokuqala. Iimfihlo zazingabaliwe, kodwa zidweliswe ngokulandelelana, enye emva kwenye: eyokuqala ibhalwe phezulu kwaye eyokugqibela emazantsi. Imihla yeziganeko ezizayo ichaziwe.

(UMirjana Soldo, Intliziyo yam iya koyisa, iphe. 142-144)

Umbhalo okhutshelweyo uFranco Sofia