Umlando omfushane wosuku: Ukubheja

“Bekuyini inhloso yalokho kubheja? Kuyini ukusetshenziswa kwalowo muntu olahlekelwe yiminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu yempilo yakhe nokuthi ngichithe izigidi ezimbili? Ungafakazela ukuthi isigwebo sentambo singcono noma sibi ukwedlula ukudilikelwa yijele? "

KWAKUNGOBUSUKU obumnyama basekwindla. Ibhange elidala lalihla lenyuka esifundweni futhi lakhumbula ukuthi eminyakeni eyishumi nanhlanu eyedlule, lenze iphathi ngobunye ubusuku bakwindla. Kube khona amadoda amaningi ahlakaniphile futhi kube nezingxoxo ezimnandi. Phakathi kwezinye izinto, bakhulume ngesijeziso sokufa. Iningi lezihambeli, kufaka phakathi izintatheli eziningi nezifundiswa, zingasamukeli isigwebo sentambo. Babecabanga ukuthi leyo ndlela yokujezisa iphelelwe yisikhathi, ayiziphethe kahle futhi ayizifanelekeli izifunda zobuKristu. Ngokubona kwabanye babo, isigwebo sentambo kufanele siguqulwe yonke indawo ngokugqunywa ejele impilo yonke.

“Angivumelani nawe,” kusho umphathi wabo, ongusebhange. “Angikaze ngizame isigwebo sentambo noma ukuboshwa udilikajele, kodwa uma umuntu ekwazi ukwahlulela i-priori, isigwebo sentambo sihambisana nokuziphatha futhi sinobuntu ngaphezu kokuboshwa udilikajele. Ukujeziswa ngokufa kufanele kubulale umuntu ngokushesha, kepha ijele elihlala njalo limbulala kancane. Yimuphi umuntu okhipha isigwebo esingumuntu, okukubulala emizuzwini embalwa noma lowo ohlwitha impilo yakho eminyakeni eminingi? "

“Bobabili baziphethe kabi ngokulinganayo,” kuphawula esinye sezihambeli, “ngoba bobabili banomgomo ofanayo: ukuthatha impilo. Umbuso akuyena uNkulunkulu, awunalo ilungelo lokususa lokho ongeke wakubuyisa uma ufuna. "

Phakathi kwezihambeli bekukhona ummeli osemncane, insizwa eneminyaka engamashumi amabili nanhlanu. Lapho ebuzwa umbono wakhe, wathi:

“Isigwebo sentambo nokuboshwa udilikajele nakho akulungile, kodwa uma bekufanele ngikhethe phakathi kwesigwebo sentambo nokuboshwa udilikajele, nakanjani bengizokhetha lesi sokugcina. Kodwa-ke, ukuphila kungcono kungelutho ”.

Kuqubuka ingxoxo emnandi. Umgcini webhange, owayemncane futhi ethukile kakhulu ngalezo zinsuku, wavele wabanjwa yinjabulo; washaya itafula ngenqindi wamemeza le nsizwa:

"Akulona iqiniso! Ngicabanga ukuthi izigidi ezimbili ubungeke uvalelwe wedwa iminyaka emihlanu. "

"Uma uqinisile," kusho le nsizwa, "ngiyakwamukela ukubheja, kodwa bengingahlali iminyaka emihlanu kepha eyishumi nanhlanu".

"Ishumi nanhlanu? Kwenziwe! " Kumemeza umphathi webhange. "Madoda, ngibheje izigidi ezimbili!"

"Ngiyavuma! Ubheja izigidi zakho kanti mina ngibheje inkululeko yami! " kusho lensizwa.

Futhi lokhu kubheja okungasile futhi okungenangqondo kwenziwa! Umnikazi webhange owonakele nongenamsebenzi, enezigidi ezingaphezu kwezibalo zakhe, wayejabule ngokubheja. Ngesikhathi sokudla wahlekisa ngale nsizwa wathi:

“Cabanga kangcono, nsizwa, isikhathi sisekhona. Kimi izigidi ezimbili ngumbhedo, kepha ulahlekelwa yiminyaka emithathu noma emine yeminyaka emihle kakhulu yempilo yakho. Ngithi abathathu noma abane, ngoba ngeke uhlale.Ungakhohlwa futhi, ndoda engajabule, ukuthi ukuboshwa ngokuzithandela kunzima kakhulu ukukuthwala kunesibopho. Umcabango wokuba nelungelo lokukhululeka nganoma yisiphi isikhathi uzofaka ubuthi kukho konke ukuhlala kwakho ejele. Ngiyaxolisa ngawe. "

Futhi manje umnikazi webhange, ehla enyuka ngapha nangapha, wakhumbula konke lokhu wazibuza yena, “Bekuyini inhloso yalokhu kubheja? Kuyini ukusetshenziswa kwalowo muntu olahlekelwe yiminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu yempilo yakhe nokuthi ngichithe izigidi ezimbili? ukuthi isigwebo sentambo singcono noma sibi ukwedlula ukudilikelwa yijele? Cha, cha. Konke kwakuyimbudane futhi kungumbhedo. Ngokwami ​​kwakuyisifiso somuntu owonakele, futhi yena wayehahela imali… “.

Wabe esekhumbula okwalandela ngalobo busuku. Kwanqunywa ukuthi le nsizwa izosebenzisa iminyaka yokuthunjwa kwayo ngaphansi kweso elibukhali kwenye yezindawo zokulala ezisengadini yasebhange. Kwavunyelwana ukuthi iminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu wayengeke akhululeke anqamule umkhawulo wendawo yokulala, abone abantu, ezwe izwi lomuntu, noma athole izincwadi namaphephandaba. Wavunyelwa ukuba nensimbi yomculo nezincwadi, futhi wavunyelwa nokubhala izincwadi, ukuphuza iwayini nokubhema. Ngaphansi kwemigomo yesivumelwano, okuwukuphela kobudlelwano angaba nabo nezwe langaphandle bekungawindi elenzelwe leyo nto ngokukhethekile. Wayengaba nanoma yini ayifunayo - izincwadi, umculo, iwayini njalonjalo - nganoma yisiphi isamba asifunayo ngokubhala i-oda, kepha wayengakuthola ngewindi kuphela.

Ngonyaka wokuqala wokuboshwa, ngokwamajaji akhe amafushane, kungenzeka ukuthi isiboshwa saba nesizungu nokudangala okukhulu. Imisindo yepiyano yayizwakala ngokuqhubekayo imini nobusuku kusuka ku-loggia yayo. Wenqaba iwayini nogwayi. Iwayini, wabhala, livusa izifiso, nezifiso yizitha ezimbi kakhulu zesiboshwa; Ngaphandle kwalokho, akukho okungadabukisa njengokuphuza iwayini elimnandi futhi ungaboni muntu. Nogwayi wonakalisa umoya wasekamelweni lakhe. Ngonyaka wokuqala izincwadi ayezithumela zazikhanya kakhulu ngohlamvu; amanoveli anesakhiwo sothando esiyinkimbinkimbi, izindaba ezihlaba umxhwele nezimnandi njalonjalo.

Ngonyaka wesibili upiyano lwaluthule ku-loggia futhi isiboshwa sabuza kuphela okwakudala. Ngonyaka wesihlanu umculo wezwakala futhi futhi isiboshwa sacela iwayini. Labo abebembuka ngewindi bathi unyaka wonke akenzanga lutho ngaphandle kokudla nokuphuza alale embhedeni, avame ukuzamula futhi akhulume ngokuthukuthela. Akazange afunde izincwadi. Kwesinye isikhathi ebusuku wayehlala phansi abhale; uchithe amahora ebhala kuthi ekuseni adabule konke akubhalile. Izikhathi ezingaphezu kwesisodwa uzizwile ekhala.

Engxenyeni yesibili yonyaka wesithupha isiboshwa saqala ngentshiseko ukufunda izilimi, ifilosofi nomlando. Wazinikela ngomdlandla kulezi zifundo, kangangoba umnikazi webhange wayenakho okwanele ukumenzela izincwadi ayezi-odile. Ngokuhamba kweminyaka emine, kwathengwa imiqulu engamakhulu ayisithupha ngokwesicelo sakhe. Kwakungalesi sikhathi lapho umnikazi webhange athola le ncwadi elandelayo evela kwesiboshwa sakhe:

“Sthandwa sami sejele, ngikubhalela le migqa ngezilimi eziyisithupha. Babonise abantu abazi izilimi. Bayeke bafunde. Uma bengatholi iphutha ngiyakucela ukuthi udubule ngenhlamvu esivandeni. Lokho kushaywa kuzongikhombisa ukuthi imizamo yami ayilahliwe. Ubuhlakani beminyaka yonke namazwe bukhuluma izilimi ezahlukahlukene, kepha ilangabi elifanayo liyasha kuwo wonke umuntu. O, ukube bengazi ukuthi yini enye injabulo yasemhlabeni umphefumulo wami ozizwa ngayo manje ngokwazi ukuyiqonda! “Sifeziwe isifiso sesiboshwa. Umnikazi webhange wayalela ukuthi kuqhume isibhamu kabili esivandeni.

Kwathi ngemuva konyaka weshumi, isiboshwa sahlala sanyakaza etafuleni sangafunda lutho ngaphandle kweVangeli. Kubonakale kumangaza kumphathi webhange ukuthi indoda eminyakeni emine ebekwazi imiqulu engamakhulu ayisithupha efundile kufanele ichithe cishe unyaka ngencwadi encane, eqondakala kalula. Imfundiso yenkolo nemilando yenkolo yalandela amaVangeli.

Eminyakeni emibili edlule ejele isiboshwa sifunde inqwaba yezincwadi ngendlela engakhethi nhlobo. Wake wahlanganyela nesayensi yemvelo, wabe esebuzwa ngoByron noma uShakespeare. Kwakunamanothi lapho ayecela khona izincwadi zamakhemikhali, incwadi yezokwelapha, inoveli, nokunye okuphathelene nefilosofi noma imfundiso yenkolo ngasikhathi sinye. Ukufunda kwakhe kuphakamisa ukuthi indoda ibibhukuda olwandle phakathi kokuphahlazeka komkhumbi wayo futhi izama ukusindisa impilo yayo ngokubambelela ngentshiseko kwenye induku bese kuba kwenye.

II

Ibhange elidala lakukhumbula konke lokhu lacabanga:

“Kusasa emini uzobuya athole inkululeko. Ngokwesivumelwano sethu, kufanele ngimkhokhele izigidi ezimbili. Uma ngiyikhokha, konke kuphelile ngami: Ngizokonakala ngokuphelele. "

Eminyakeni eyishumi nanhlanu edlule, izigidi zakhe zazingaphezu kwamandla akhe; manje wayesesaba ukuzibuza ukuthi yiziphi izikweletu zakhe ezinkulu noma amafa. Ukugembula okuphelelwe yithemba emakethe yamasheya, ukuqagela okungalawuleki nenjabulo ayengeke akwazi ukuyinqoba ngisho naseminyakeni ekhulayo kwase kuholele ekunciphiseni komcebo wakhe kanti usozigidi oqhoshayo, ongesabi futhi ozethembayo waba ngumgcini webhange isikhundla esiphakathi, ethuthumela ngakho konke ukwenyuka nokwehla kutshalomali lwakhe. "Konakele ukubheja!" kububula ikhehla, libambe ikhanda lidangele “Kungani engafanga lomuntu? Manje uneminyaka engamashumi amane kuphela. Uzothatha isenti lami lokugcina kimi, ashade, ajabulele impilo yakhe, abhejele yena, ambuke ngomona njengomuntu ocelayo bese ezwa isigwebo esifanayo kuye nsuku zonke: “Ngikukweleta injabulo yempilo yami, ake ngikusize! ' Cha, lokho kukhulu kakhulu! Ukuphela kwendlela yokusindiswa ekuqothulweni nasebubini kungukufa kwaleyo ndoda! "

Kushaye ihora lesithathu, umnikazi webhange walalela; wonke umuntu wayelala endlini kanti ngaphandle kwakungekho lutho ngaphandle kokugqwala kwezihlahla ezibandayo. Ezama ukungabangi umsindo, uthathe ukhiye ophuma esisefweni esingangeni emlilweni waya emnyango obekungakavulwa iminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu, wagqoka ibhantshi lakhe waphuma endlini.

Kwakumnyama futhi kubanda engadini. Imvula yayina. Umoya omanzi, owawunqamula wawudabula phakathi nensimu, uhewula futhi unganiki ukuphumula ezihlahleni. Umgcini webhange waqinisa amehlo akhe kepha akabonanga mhlaba noma imifanekiso emhlophe, noma i-loggia, noma izihlahla. Ukuya endaweni lapho kwakukhona khona indawo yokulala, wabiza umqaphi kabili. Ayikho impendulo elandelwayo. Ngokusobala unozinti wayefune indawo yokukhosela ezintweni zezulu futhi manje wayelele ndawana thile ekhishini noma endlini yokugcina izithombo.

"Ukube benginesibindi sokufeza inhloso yami," kucabanga ikhehla, "izinsolo bezizowela konogada kuqala."

Wafuna ebumnyameni izitebhisi nomnyango wangena ekungeneni kweloggia. Wabe esephuthaphutha epaseji encane washaya umentshisi. Kwakungekho mphefumulo lapho. Kwakunombhede ongenazingubo zokulala nesitofu sensimbi esimnyama ekhoneni elilodwa. Izimpawu ezisemnyango oholela emakamelweni eziboshwa zazingaphelele.

Lapho umdlalo uphuma ikhehla, liqhaqhazela ngemizwa, laphuma ngefasitela. Ikhandlela lishiswe kamnandi egumbini lesiboshwa. Wayehleli etafuleni. Ukuphela kwento owawuyibona kwakuwumhlane wakhe, izinwele ekhanda lakhe nasezandleni zakhe. Izincwadi ezivulekile zazilele phezu kwetafula, ezihlalweni ezimbili nakukhaphethi oseduze kwetafula.

Kudlule imizuzu emihlanu isiboshwa asinyakazi nakanye. Iminyaka eyishumi nanhlanu esejele yayimfundise ukuhlala athule. Ibhange lathinta iwindi ngomunwe kanti isiboshwa asizange sinyakaze ngokuphendula. Ngemuva kwalokho umnikazi webhange ngokucophelela waphula izimpawu zasendlini emnyango wafaka ukhiye emgodini okhiye. Isikhiya esigqwalile senza umsindo wokugaya kanti umnyango wawuvuleka. Ibhange belilindele ukuzwa izinyathelo nokukhala ngokumangala zisuka nje, kepha kudlule imizuzu emithathu igumbi lithule kakhulu kunakuqala. Wanquma ukungena.

Etafuleni indoda ehlukile kubantu abavamile yahlala inganyakazi. Wayengamathambo ngesikhumba edonswe phezu kwamathambo akhe, enama-curls amade afana nensikazi nentshebe elukhuni. Ubuso bakhe babuphuzi bunombala okomhlabathi, izihlathi zaziyimbobo, umhlane wakhe umude futhi umncane futhi isandla isandla sakhe esasilele phezu kwekhanda lakhe sasizacile futhi sibucayi kwakwesabeka ukumbheka. Izinwele zakhe zazivele zinemishwe ezinesiliva futhi, lapho embona emncane, ebudaleni, akekho owayengakholelwa ukuthi wayeneminyaka engamashumi amane kuphela. Wayelele. . . . Phambi kwekhanda lakhe elikhothamisiwe kubekwe iphepha phezu kwetafula kunokuthile okubhalwe ngesandla esihle.

"Mpofu!" kucabanga lo bhange, “uyalala futhi kungenzeka ukuthi uphupha izigidi. Futhi nje kufanele ngithathe le ndoda engathi ifile, ngiyiphonse embhedeni, ngiyiminyanise kancane ngomcamelo, futhi uchwepheshe ononembeza omkhulu ngeke athole uphawu lokufa ngesihluku. Kepha ake siqale sifunde ukuthi ubhaleni lapha… “.

Obhange uthathe ikhasi etafuleni wafunda okulandelayo:

“Kusasa phakathi kwamabili ngiphinde ngithole inkululeko nelungelo lokuhlangana namanye amadoda, kodwa ngaphambi kokuthi ngiphume kuleli gumbi ngibone ilanga, ngicabanga ukuthi ngidinga ukusho amazwi ambalwa kuwe. Ngonembeza omsulwa ukukutshela, njengaphambi kukaNkulunkulu, ongibukayo, ukuthi ngiyayidelela inkululeko, impilo nempilo, nakho konke okusencwadini yakho okubizwa ngokuthi izinto ezinhle zomhlaba.

nezintambo zamapayipi abelusi; Ngithinte izimpiko zodeveli abahle abendiza behla bezokhuluma nami ngoNkulunkulu. . . Ezincwadini zakho ngiziphonse emgodini ongenamkhawulo, ngenza izimangaliso, ngabulala, ngashisa amadolobha, ngashumayela izinkolo ezintsha, nganqoba yonke imibuso. . . .

“Izincwadi zakho zinginike ukuhlakanipha. Konke okwenziwe ukucabanga komuntu okungazinzile phakathi namakhulu eminyaka kucindezelwa kube ikhampasi encane ebuchosheni bami. Ngiyazi ukuthi ngihlakaniphe ngaphezu kwenu nonke.

“Futhi ngiyazidelela izincwadi zakho, ngiyadelela ukuhlakanipha nezibusiso zalo mhlaba. Konke akusizi ngalutho, kuyadlula, kuyinkohliso futhi kuyakhohlisa, njengesigaxa. Ungahle uziqhenye, uhlakaniphe futhi ube muhle, kepha ukufa kuzokususa ebusweni bomhlaba kube sengathi awuyilutho ngaphandle kwamagundane ombela phansi phansi, futhi isizukulwane sakho, umlando wakho, izakhi zofuzo zakho ezingafi zizoshisa noma zibanda ndawonye. embulungeni yonke.

“Ulahlekelwe yisizathu sakho wathatha indlela engafanele. Wathengisa ngamanga ngeqiniso, nangobuhle obethusayo. Ungamangala uma, ngenxa yezehlakalo ezingajwayelekile zohlobo oluthile, amaxoxo kanye nezibankwa ngokuzumayo bekhula ezihlahleni zama-apula nezamawolintshi esikhundleni sezithelo. , noma uma ama-rose aqala ukuhogela njengehhashi elijulukayo, khona-ke kuyangimangaza ukuhweba kwakho ngezulu ngomhlaba.

“Ukukubonisa ngezenzo ukuthi ngikudelela kangakanani konke okuphila kukho, ngidela ipharadesi eliyizigidi ezimbili ebengiphupha ngalo manje engilidelelayo. Ukuzincisha ilungelo lemali, ngizohamba lapha kusasele amahora amahlanu ngaphambi kwesikhathi esibekiwe, ngakho-ke wephula isivumelwano ... "

Lapho umnikazi webhange ekufundile lokhu, wabeka leli khasi etafuleni, wamanga ekhanda umfokazi, washiya i-loggia ikhala. Asikho esinye isikhathi, noma ngabe wayelahlekelwe kakhulu emakethe yamasheya, ngabe wayezizwele kangaka. Lapho efika ekhaya walala embhedeni, kodwa izinyembezi nemizwa kwamvimbela ukuba alale amahora amaningi.

Ngakusasa ekuseni abalindi beza begijima ngobuso obuphaphathekile bamtshela ukuthi babone indoda ehlala kuloggia iphuma ngewindi ingena engadini, iya esangweni yanyamalala. Osebenza ebhange ngokushesha wahamba nezisebenzi baya endlini yokulala waqinisekisa ukweqa kwesiboshwa sakhe. Ukugwema ukuvusa izinkulumo ezingadingekile, uthathe uphawu olunikeza izigidi etafuleni kwathi lapho ebuyela ekhaya walukhiya esisefweni esingenamlilo.