Mina, usosayensi ongakholelwa kuNkulunkulu, ngikholelwa ezimangalisweni
Lapho ngibhekisisa ngesibonakhulu sami, ngabona iseli elibulala ukuvuvukala futhi nganquma ukuthi isiguli esangihlola igazi lakhe kungenzeka ukuthi safa. Kwakungowe-1986 futhi ngangibheka inqwaba enkulu yamasampula emihlambi “engaboni” ngaphandle kokutshelwa ukuthi kungani.
Ngokuthola lesi sifo esidabukisayo, ngicabange ukuthi kwakuyicala. Mhlawumbe umndeni ososizini ubeka udokotela icala ngokufa okungekho lutho olungenziwa. Umongo wamathambo ukhulume indaba: isiguli senza i-chemotherapy, umdlavuza wangena ekuxolelweni, wabe esephinda futhi, wenza okunye ukwelashwa futhi umdlavuza waqala ukuthethelelwa ngokwesibili.
Kamuva ngathola ukuthi wayesaphila iminyaka eyisikhombisa emva kwezinkinga zakhe. Leli cala bekungelona elokuqulwa kwecala, kodwa kubhekwe yiVatican njengeyisimangaliso esiyisikhumbuzo sokuchithwa kukaMarie-Marguerite d'Youville. Akekho osanta owayengakazalwa eCanada. Kepha iVatican yayivele yenqabe icala njengeyisimangaliso. Ochwepheshe bakhe bathi wayengazange athole ukuxolelwa okokuqala futhi abuyele kabusha; esikhundleni salokho, bathi ukwelashwa kwesibili kuholele ekuxolelweni kokuqala. Lo mehluko ocashile wawubalulekile: sikholwa ukuthi kungenzeka ukwelapha ekuxolelweni kokuqala, kepha hhayi emuva kokuphinda ubuye. Ochwepheshe baseRoma bavumile ukuthi bacabangele kabusha isinqumo sabo uma nje ufakazi "oyimpumputhe" esebuye wahlola isampula futhi ethola engikubonile. Umbiko wami uthunyelwe eRoma.
Bengingakaze ngizwe ngenqubo yokufakwa ohlwini lwezincwadi zeBhayibheli futhi angikwazi ukucabanga ukuthi lesi sinqumo sidinga ukucatshangelwa okuningi kwesayensi. (...) Ngemuva kwesikhashana ngamenyelwa ukuthi ngizofakaza enkantolo yenkolo. Ngikhathazekile ngalokho okungenzeka ukuthi bangibuze khona, ngeza nezindatshana ezivela ezincwadini zezokwelapha ngamathuba okusinda we-leukemia, ngigqamisa izinyathelo eziphambili ezipinki. (...) Isiguli kanye nodokotela nabo bethule ubufakazi enkantolo futhi isiguli sachaza ukuthi ubekhulume kanjani no-d'Youville ngesikhathi sokuphindana.
Ngemuva kwesikhathi esithe xaxa, safunda izindaba ezijabulisayo zokuthi uD'Youville uzongcweliswa uJohn Paul II ngoDisemba 9, 1990. Izindelakazi ezazivule isizathu sokungcweliswa kwazo zangimema ukuba ngihlanganyele emkhosini. Ekuqaleni, ngangingabaza ukungafuni ukubakhuba: Angikakholelwa ukuthi uNkulunkulu ukhona futhi ungumyeni wami ongumJuda. Kepha bakujabulele ukusifaka emkhosini futhi asikwazanga ukudlulisa ilungelo lokufakazela mathupha ukuqashelwa kwengcwele yokuqala yezwe lethu.
Umcimbi ubuseSan Pietro: bekukhona izindelakazi, udokotela kanye nesiguli. Masinyane ngemuva kwalokho, sahlangana noPapa: umzuzu ongalibaleki. ERoma, ababethunyelwe baseCanada banginikeza isipho, incwadi eyashintsha kakhulu impilo yami. Kwakuyikhophi lePositio, bonke ubufakazi besimangaliso se-Ottawa. Bekuqukethe imininingwane yasesibhedlela, imibhalo ebhalwe ngobufakazi. Bekuqukethe nombiko wami. (...) Kungazelelwe, ngabona ngokumangala ukuthi umsebenzi wami wezokwelapha ubekwe ezinqolobaneni zaseVatican. Isazi-mlando kimi sicabange masinyane ukuthi: Ngabe kuzobakhona izimangaliso zokugcotshwa kwangaphambilini? Futhi konke ukuphulukiswa nezifo ezilaphekile? Ngabe isayensi yezokwelapha ibikade icatshangelwa phambilini, njengoba kuye kwenzeka nanamuhla? Babonwe yini futhi odokotela ngaleso sikhathi?
Ngemuva kweminyaka engamashumi amabili nokuhambela kaningi ezinqolobaneni zaseVietnam ngashicilela izincwadi ezimbili eziphathelene nezokwelapha nezenkolo. (...) Ucwaningo luqokomise izindaba ezinhle kakhulu zokuphulukiswa nesibindi. Uveze ukufana okungahambisani phakathi kwezokwelapha nenkolo ngokuya kwezizathu nezinhloso, futhi waveza ukuthi iSonto alibeki isayensi eceleni ukuze libuse kokuyisimangaliso.
Yize ngingeyena okholelwa ekutheni uNkulunkulu ukhona, ngikholelwa ezimangalisweni, amaqiniso amangazayo enzekayo futhi esingakwazi ukuthola incazelo yesayensi. Isiguli sokuqala sisaphila eminyakeni engama-30 ngemuva kokuthintwa yi-acute myeloid leukemia futhi angikwazi ukuchaza ukuthi kungani. Kepha uyakwenza.