Ingelosi ihlabe inhliziyo kaSanta Teresa d'Avila
USanta Teresa wase-Avila, owasungula i-oda yenkolo yamaDalalced Carmelites, wabeka isikhathi esiningi namandla emthandazweni futhi waba nodumo ngokuhlangenwe nakho okungaqondakaliyo ayenakho ngoNkulunkulu nezingelosi zakhe. Isiphetho sokuhlangana kwezingelosi kukaSanta Teresa senzeka ngo-1559 eSpain, ngenkathi sithandaza. Kwabonakala ingelosi eyayihlaba inhliziyo yakhe ngomkhonto womlilo othumela uthando lukaNkulunkulu olumsulwa nogqozi emphefumlweni wakhe, wakhumbula uSanta Teresa, emthumela ekujabuleni.
Kuvela enye yamaSeraphim noma amaCherubim Angels
Kumbhalo wakhe we-autobiography, uVita (oshicilelwe ngonyaka we-1565, iminyaka eyisithupha ngemuva komcimbi), uTeresa ukhumbule ukubonakala kwengilosi evutha amalangabi, kusukela komunye wama-oda asondele kakhulu kuNkulunkulu: amaserafi noma amakherubi. UTeresa wabhala:
“Ngibonile ingelosi ibonakala inesimo somzimba eduze nohlangothi lwami lwesobunxele. Ubuso bakhe babubaswe umlilo kangangokuba wabonakala engomunye wamamaki aphezulu ezingelosi, esikubiza ngokuthi amaserafi noma amakherubi. Amagama abo, izingelosi azilokothi zingitshele, kodwa ngazi kahle ukuthi ezulwini kunomehluko omkhulu phakathi kwezinhlobo ezahlukene zezingelosi, yize ngingenakuchaza. "
Umkhonto ovuthayo uhlaba inhliziyo yakhe
Ngemuva kwalokho ingelosi yenza okuthile okushaqisayo: yahlaba inhliziyo kaTeresa ngenkemba evuthayo. Kodwa leso senzo esibonakalayo esinobudlova empeleni kwakuyisenzo sothando, uTeresa wakhumbula:
“Ezandleni zakhe, ngabona umkhonto wegolide, onompimbo wensimbi ekugcineni obekubonakala sengathi uyasha. Wayicwilisela enhliziyweni yami kaningana, kuze kufike emathunjini ami. Ngesikhathi eyikhipha, kwakubukeka sengathi iyabaheha, futhi ishiye yonke into ngomlilo uthando ngoNkulunkulu. "
Ubuhlungu obukhulu noshukela ndawonye
Ngaso leso sikhathi, kubhala uTeresa, wezwa ubuhlungu obukhulu kanye nokujabha okumnandi kulandela lokho okwenziwe yingelosi:
“Ubuhlungu babunamandla kangangokuba bangenza ngabubula kaninginingi, kepha ubumnandi bezinhlungu babumangalisa ngendlela yokuthi ngangingafisi ukubuqeda. Umphefumulo wami aweneliswa yilutho ngaphandle kukaNkulunkulu. Kwakungenakubuhlungu emzimbeni, kodwa ngokomoya, noma ngabe umzimba wami wawuzizwa [[]] lobu buhlungu buhlala izinsuku eziningi futhi ngaleyo nkathi angifuni ukubona noma ukukhuluma nomuntu , kodwa ukuthanda ubuhlungu bami kuphela, okunginike injabulo enkulu kakhulu kunalokho okwadalwa yikhona okunganginika khona. "
Uthando phakathi kukaNkulunkulu nomoya womuntu
Uthando olumsulwa ingelosi elufaka enhliziyweni kaTeresa lwavula ingqondo yakhe ukuthola umbono ojulile wothando loMdali ngezidalwa zabantu azidalile.
UTeresa wabhala:
"Ububuthakathaka kodwa bunamandla lobu buhlobo obenzeka phakathi kukaNkulunkulu nomphefumulo ukuthi uma umuntu ecabanga ukuthi ngiqamba amanga, ngithandazela ukuthi uNkulunkulu, ngobuhle bakhe, amnikeze isipiliyoni."
Umphumela wesipiliyoni sakhe
Ukuhlangenwe nakho kukaTeresa nengelosi kwaba nomthelela omkhulu empilweni yakhe yonke. Zonke izinsuku wayezinikela ekuzinikele ngokupheleleni ekusebenzeni kukaJesu Kristu, owayekholelwa ekubonakaliseni uthando lukaNkulunkulu ngezenzo. Wayevame ukukhuluma futhi abhale ngendlela ukuhlupheka okwenziwa nguJesu okuhlenge ngayo umhlaba owile nokuthi ubuhlungu uNkulunkulu avumela abantu ukuba babhekane nabo bungafinyelela kanjani ezinhlosweni ezinhle ezimpilweni zabo. Isiqubulo sikaTeresa saba: "Nkosi, ake ngihlupheke noma ngivumele ngife".
UTeresa waphila kuze kube iminyaka eyi-1582-23 ngemuva kokuhlangana okumangalisayo nengelozi. Ngaleso sikhathi, washintsha ezinye zezindela (ezinemithetho eqinile yokuhlonishwa) futhi wasungula ezinye zezindela ezintsha ngokuya ngamazinga wobungcwele obuqinile. Ekhumbula ukuthi kwakunjani ukuzizwa ezinikele ngokuphelele kuNkulunkulu ngemuva kokuba ingelosi ibambe umkhonto enhliziyweni yakhe, uTeresa wazama ukunika uNkulunkulu okungcono kakhulu futhi wagqugquzela abanye ukuba benze okufanayo.