Umlingisikazi oguqulwe eMedjugorje: usindisa ukubonga ku-pater eyisikhombisa, ave kanye no-gloria

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U-Oriana uthi:

Kuze kube yizinyanga ezimbili ezedlule, bengihlala eRoma ngihlala noNarcisa. Sobabili sakhetha ukuba ngabalingisi; khona-ke iRoma, bese kuba ama-auditions, bese kuba ama-aphoyintimenti, izingcingo futhi ngezikhathi ezithile umsebenzi othile, isifiso esikhulu "sokwenza" kodwa futhi nokucasuka okukhulu nokucasuka kulabo "abangakwazi" ukukunikeza isandla, kodwa bengenandaba nawo wonke umuntu. , noma okubi kakhulu, futhi kaningi ngeshwa, kukunikeza ithuba lokusebenza "ngokwemvelo" ukuze uthole enye into, akudingekile ukucacisa ukuthi yini. Phakathi kwakho konke lokhu kudideka kwahlala iminyaka engu-4, yeka ukubanda, mangaki amasemishi asele esiswini, mangaki amakhilomitha angenalutho angenalutho, zingaki ukudumazeka!

Ephreli 87: Mina noNarcisa sibuyela ekhaya siyohlala izinsuku ezimbalwa namalungu emindeni yabo, uvela edolobheni esifundazweni sase-Alessandria, ngivela eGenoa.

Ngolunye usuku uNarcisa wathi kimi: “Uyazi? Ngiyahamba, ngiya eYugoslavia ”. Ngicabanga ngohambo lokuphumula, futhi ngiphendula: "Wenze kahle, ubusisiwe!" "Kodwa cha! Kepha cha! - uthi ngenjabulo -, awukaze uzwe yini ngeMedjugorje? "

Nami: "??? Yini ??? "" ... Medjugorje ... lapho ivela khona iNkosikazi yethu! U-Ana, umngani wami waseMilan, ufuna ukungiyisa eMedjugorje ngakho-ke ngithathe isinqumo sokuhamba, ngilungile, ungangizwa? " Futhi mina: "Ukuzwa wena ngiyakuzwa, ukuthi ungihlikiza kuphela ukuthi unikeza izinombolo ukwedlula okujwayelekile".

Ngemuva kwesonto umama wakhe, ecasukile kakhulu, uthi kimi ocingweni:

"Lowo mfazi usekhona, u-Angelo ubuyile (isoka likaNarcisa), u-Anna, futhi usehlale lapho, uyahlanya! uyahlanya! " Ngemuva kwezinsuku ezimbalwa ngisazithola ngihleka ukuhleka, ngokubona nje ukuthi uNarcisa usekhona, uyahlanya nokuthi ngubani owaziyo ukuthi bangaki abanye abantu abahlanya abathi uMadona ukhona ...

Ephreli 26: usuku lokugcina lokuhlala emaphandleni. Ezinsukwini ezimbalwa kufanele ngibuyele eRome futhi ngigibele isitimela esiya eGenoa. NgiseTortona, esiteshini esimaphakathi, kunamamitha ambalwa ukufika kwesitimela esiya eGenoa, isiteji siminyene; kanti ngibona bani? Narcisa! Kimi kubukeka sengathi isanda kuphuma echibini: isesimweni sokuphazamiseka ngokuphelele. Ukhuluma ngenjabulo: “Kufanele ngikhulume nawe, ungishayele ucingo ngokushesha nje lapho ufika. Manje usunesitimela futhi asikho isikhathi, kodwa ngithembise into eyodwa. Ngithembise ukuthi uzoyenza into yami, ungitshele ukuthi uzoyenza!“. Angisaqondi lutho yena olokhu ephindaphinda ethi "Promise me you will", abantu abasibhekile bacabange ukuthi seqe kwesinye isibhedlela ihlazo liyangihlasela. Uyacindezela, akadikibali futhi akanandaba nokugigitheka kwalabo abasizungezile.

Sika, ikhanda lenkunzi ekugcineni libabaze: "Kulungile, ngiyakwethembisa ngizokwenza le nto !!!", ukukhanya kwenjabulo emehlweni kaNarcisa, ohlohla irosari esandleni sami (... "Woza, lapha phambi kwabo bonke laba bantu, yeka umfanekiso! usuyisiphukuphuku na? ") futhi uthi kimi: "The Creed; 7 Baba wethu; 7 Dumisani uMariya; 7 Dumisani usuku nosuku ngenyanga”.

Ngicishe ngaphuthelwa, ngagxeka: "Yini ????", kepha ngesibindi futhi waneliseka: "Uyithembisile". Ikhwela lesitimela lisihlukanisa, kubukeka sengathi ngiphuma phambili. UNarcisa unginakekela ngesandla sakhe esincane nokumemeza:

"Ml uzokutshela!"; Ngivume ngekhanda abantu abaqhamuka nami bangibuke bagigitheke. Oh my what's figure! Ngathembisa, kufanele nje ngigcine isethembiso, noma ngidatshulwe cishe ngenkani, wabe uNarcisa ethi uNkosikazi Wethu kule nyanga uzonikeza umusa okhethekile kulabo abamthandazelayo.

… Izinsuku ziyahamba, futhi isikhathi sami sansuku zonke siyaqhubeka ngaphandle kokukhohlwa, ngempela, ngokuxakayo kuba “into” engizizwa ngifuna ukuyenza ngokuphuthuma nangokuphuthuma okwengeziwe. Angiceli, angizibuzi, ngimane ngithandaze ngime.

Mina noNarcisa sibuyela eRoma, futhi ukuphila kuyasicindezela futhi. Ulokhu ukhuluma nami ngeMedjugorje, ukuthi miningi imithandazo futhi awuzabalazi! ukuthi bonke balungile, bayaqondana futhi bayathandana! "

Izinsuku ziyahamba futhi manje sengazi izinto eziningi ngeMedjugorje, ngizwile izinto engangingazi nokuthi zingenzeka, kodwa ngaphezu kwakho konke uNarcisa, ngizwa ushintsho lwakhe olushaqisayo, "uyamangaza", uya eMiseni, athandaze, ngisho nerosari futhi ivame ukudonsa ebandleni elithile. U-Narcisa uhamba, usuka eRoma izinsuku ezingu-4-5 futhi ngihlala ngedwa endlini engingayithandi, nginezinkathazo ezingapheli zomsebenzi, zothando .., usizi olumnyama luwela phezu kwami, ukucindezeleka akuzange kuthinte: ebusuku angisalali, ngiyakhala. Izinsuku ezine ezinde zencithakalo enkulu: futhi ngokokuqala ngqá, okokuqala ngqa ekuphileni kwami, ngizithola ngicabanga ngokungathi sína ngokuzibulala.

Bengihlala ngithi ngiyithanda kakhulu impilo, nginabangane abaningi abangithandayo nengibathandayo, umama nobaba "abathanda" indodakazi yabo okuwukuphela kwayo, ngifuna ukunyamalala, ngibaleke kukho konke nawo wonke umuntu .. Futhi njengoba izinyembezi zigeleza ebusweni bami obushaqekile, ngokungazelelwe ngikhumbula imithandazo engangiyenza nsuku zonke phakathi nenyanga, futhi ngiyakhala: “Mama, Mama waseZulwini ngisize, ngicela ungisize ngoba angisenakukwazi ukubekezela, siza. mina! ngisize! Ngisize! Ngiyacela!". Ngosuku olulandelayo uNarcisa uyabuya: Ngizama ukufihla ngandlela-thile ukuwohloka okukimi, futhi lapho ngixoxa uyangitshela: "Kodwa uyazi ukuthi lapha eduze neRoma kukhona indawo ebizwa ngokuthi S. Vittorino?".

Ngakusasa ntambama, ngo-June 25, ngiseS. Vittorino. Lapho othile wabe esesitshela ukuthi kukhona ubaba uGino, okungenzeka ukuthi unesigcwagcwa futhi ovame “ukuncenga” ngisho ukuze aphulukise. Ngihlabeke umxhwele ngomfanekiso kaBaba uGino omude futhi omangalisayo. Ngokusobala, akukho okwenzekile, nokho phakathi nalawo mahora amabili, nginomuzwa wokuthi "okuthile" sekuqalile ukuqhekeka, ukuphuka kanye "nokuvuleka" ngaphakathi kimi.

Sihamba ngenhloso eqinile yokubuya ngokushesha ngangokunokwenzeka. Cishe ngemva kwezinsuku eziyishumi, ngo-July 9, ngo-8 ekuseni, siwela okwesibili, sizolile futhi sigcwele "isifiso sokuthile", isango le-Our Lady of Fatima. Kuleli qophelo ngicabanga ukuthi kulungile futhi kubalulekile ukusho izinto ezimbalwa ngami: Sekuphele iminyaka engu-15 ngingazivumi futhi kule minyaka engu-15 ngiziphonse kunoma yiluphi uhlobo lwe-adventure nokuphazamiseka, kangangokuthi lapho ngineminyaka engu-19 ngahlangana. izidakamizwa nezinkampani eziyiziwula; at 20 (njengoba kunzima ukusho) ukukhipha isisu; ngineminyaka engu-21 ngabaleka ekhaya futhi ngashada (ngokufanayo) no "oyedwa" owangishaya iminyaka emibili, wangicindezela ngazo zonke izindlela ezingenzeka nezingacatshangwa; eneminyaka engu-23, ekugcineni isinqumo sokuhamba nokubuyela ekhaya futhi, ngemva kwezinyanga ezine zokuphazamiseka kwemizwa, ukuhlukaniswa okungokomthetho. Bese ngiphoqeleka ukuba ngibaleke eGenoa ngenxa yezinsongo ezingapheli zomyeni wami wangaphambili. Cishe udingisiwe!

Ngicabanga ukuthi kubalulekile ukuveza uhlobo lwe "nakho" kanye "nokungcola" engikuphethe ngaphakathi kuze kufike lolo suku oluhle kakhulu lwangoLwesine 9 kuJulayi, usuku engazalwa ngalo okwesibili. Naphezu kwakho konke okubi engikwenzele iNkosi noMama wami waseZulwini, Bangithande kakhulu. Uma ngicabanga ngakho kufanele ngikhale.

Ngalokho ekuseni 'ngaziphosela' ngaphakathi endlini yokuvuma izono, ngicabanga ukuthi ngahlala lapho cishe amahora amabili, ngigcwele umjuluko ngingazi nokuthi ngiqale ngaphi noma ngithini, izono zami zaziningi futhi zibucayi! Lapho ngiphuma, angizange ngikholwe ukuthi uJesu wayengithethelele ngempela konke, hhayi ngempela yonke into futhi nokho ngezwa ngaphakathi kimi ukuthi yebo, kwakunjalo, kwakumangalisa ngokumangalisayo. Impela ngaba nokuzisola kwami ​​​​okude, angikaze ngicabange ukuthi: "Kuningi kakhulu", impela usuku nosuku kuye kwaba mnandi. Ngalolo suku ngathola iSidlo ngemva kweminyaka engaphezu kwengu-15. Kamuva ubaba uGino wasinika isibusiso ngasinye futhi amehlo ami ahlangana newakhe. Babuyile ekhaya, futhi kusukela ngalobo busuku ngazizwa ngikhululekile; usizi, ukudangala, ukuphelelwa yithemba kwangaphakathi, ukuphelelwa ithemba kanye nazo zonke izimo zami ezimbi zazingasekho, zahwamuka.

Vele umsebenzi uqhubekile futhi uyaqhubeka nokunginika izinkinga, kepha manje sehlukile. Ukususa Ikusasa elingenasiqiniseko, ukuntuleka kwemali nokudumazeka okuthile kungibangele phansi futhi kwangiphatha kabi, manje, yize ngingazange ngiphumelele ilotho lottery .., ngikhululekile, ngizolile, angisacasuki futhi ngithukuthele, kunjengokungathi ngaphakathi nangaphakathi kwakukhona into ethambile nethambile kimi ethambisa yonke into, ethambisa, engenza ngizwe kahle, ngamafuphi. Zingaphansi kwezinyanga eziyisishiyagalombili ezidlulile kusukela ngomhlaka 9 kuJulayi 1987, nokho kubonakala kimi ngokwengeziwe. Manje ngizama ukuphila impilo yobuKristu eyiqiniso, ngiyavuma njalo ngenyanga, ngiya eMiseni, ngithatha iSidlo futhi “ngikhuluma” kaningi kuJesu nakumaMama waseZulwini. Ngiyethemba futhi ngifisa ukuba ngokwengeziwe ngiphile "ngokuphila" okholweni nokuthi uMoya Oyingcwele ml usiza ukukhulisa nokukhula.

Ngivame ukucabanga emuva ngalolo suku, lapho uNarcisa athi "ngithembise ukukwenza" bese ngithi "yebo"; Ngicabanga ihlazo ebenginalo ngaye nakimi, phambi kwabantu abasibuke bemangele, futhi esikhundleni salokho ngicabanga ukuthi namuhla ngithanda kanjani "ukumemeza" emhlabeni "NGIYAWUTHANDA UMAMA WAMI OTHILE!".

Nansi indaba yami, ngicabanga ukuthi iyindaba efana nezinye eziningi, ezifana ngokumangalisayo! Ngingathanda ukuya eMedjugorje ukuze ngibonge kuMama ongisindisile; ngiyabonga ngoba bengingangifanele lutho futhi esikhundleni salokho ngathola konke; ngiyabonga ngalesi sipho, esihle kunazo zonke, engangingazi nokuthi sikhona!

KuJesu nakunina waseZulwini waseMedjugorje!