Chozizwitsa ku Lourdes: maso omwe apezekanso

«Ndakhala ndikubwerera kuno zaka ziwiri tsopano, ndili ndi chiyembekezo chomwecho, ndikulephera komweko. Zida ziwiri zomwe ndapereka pamaso panu, ndikufuula kukhumudwa kwanga: "Maso anga, maso anga opepuka ... bwanji simukufuna kuti mubweze kwa ine? Ena, osachiritsika ngati ine, alandila chisomo chopanda chiyembekezo ichi kuchokera kwa inu; mphatso yabwino ndi yokongola, zomwe zikuwoneka ngati zopambana kwambiri kwa onse omwe adazitaya ... kuwala! ".

"Odwala, ozunzidwa ndimavuto owawa kwambiri, ndikadakhala okondwa kukhala nawo ndipo ndikanakhoza kuyesedwa kovuta, ndikadatha kuwona ... Koma onani! Tulukani mu usiku wakuya pomwe wozindikiridwa ndi manda adandiyika, yemwe adawongolera, wakhungu, koma wakhungu woipa, wozungulira mkati mwa ubongo wanga! Adapha anthu ambiri, chaching'ono, chosazindikira ichi! Wophedwa, koma pamodzi womasulidwa ku chizunzo chamdima, komwe ndimalimbana, ndekha, wopanda nkhawa, ndiri mwana ngati wosiyidwa, ndikumasiyidwa ku zachifundo zonse, amene amandimvera chisoni akakumana ndi ine: "Mnyamata wosauka, ndi wakhungu!". Ah, ngati Dona Wathu akufuna kundichiritsa, osachepera; amafuna kundipatsa dzanja la kuwala! Kutseguka mumithunzi kumamaliza kunyezimira kwa kuwala kuti nditha kuwona pang'ono, pang'ono, moyo womwe umandizungulira! Zaka ziwiri zomwe ndimapemphera! Ambiri anapemphera mochepera kuposa momwe ine ndimapezera!

Anamwetulira, kumwetulira kopweteketsa, pomwe kuwawidwa kwakuzama kudavundukula kuwonekera, komwe kulimba mtima kwake kunkafuna kuwonetsa aliyense, kulimba mtima kwake ngati msilikari yemwe samadziwa wamantha. Pozindikira kuti ndakhala chete kuti ndikuopa kuti angamukhumudwitse kapena kumuwonjezera, adanenanso: Sindidandaula; Ndili ndi chidaliro kwambiri! Kutopa kapena ayi, ndidzakhulupirira mphamvu zake zonse ndi zabwino zake; ayi, sindinataye mtima, ndangokhala wotopa. Mungadziwe zowopsa kumva anthu okuzungulirani, ndikuganiza kuti: "Mudzakhala osavomerezeka ndi maso otseguka, amene simudzasangalale ndi kusangalatsa kukongola komwe kukuzungulirani!" Chifukwa chake, kwa zaka ziwiri, nditachoka, ndidadziuza mumtima mwanga kuti: “Bwanji mupitenso, ngati simukufuna ndipo ngati mudzatsutsidwa usiku wonse? ... "Ndimadziuza ndekha, koma kenako chaka chilichonse ndimabweranso ndi chiyembekezo choti zikhala nthawi ino ... Ayi! Sakufuna; awona kuti ndibwino motere ndipo ndikumvetsetsa kuti akupitiliza mlandu; koma ndimamuuzanso ndimawu ochepa kuti: "Ndipo, mukafunanso ..."

Sindinadziwe chodabwitsa chomwe chimawoneka, maso ake owoneka bwino, okongola; chifukwa khungu nthawi zambiri limakwiyitsidwa ndi kuwawidwa mtima komwe kumawoneka, maso akhungu, amoyo, owoneka bwino, ndi mafoni, ngati kuti akuyesera zolimba kubaya chophimba chosasweka, chomwe, mosasamala, chimabisala kuwalako. Anamwetulira komanso kumwetulira komweko komweko. Anamvetsera kwa mphindi zochepa, onse atasonkhana; chisangalalo chachikulu chinawala pankhope pake ndipo anali kumva bwino kwambiri kotero kuti maso ake, otseguka pamthunzi wathunthu, zinawoneka panthawiyi kutsatira mayendedwe a unyinjiwo, womwe mokondwa anapemphera.

Chinyengo, mzimu; adaona chithunzithunzi chowoneka bwino chomwe chimamutsitsa kukumbukira; poganiza kuti adawerengera chiwerengero cha amwendamnjira, atayimirira pafupi ndi malo omwe Namwaliyo adaunikira mthunzi wakuda wa tsiku lapansi ndi kuwala kwaumulungu.

Mokoma mtima anadandaula kuti: "Zokongola! Ndi zokongola bwanji! ». Koma mwadzidzidzi, nyimbozo zinaleka ndipo chithumwa chawo chinali; chete komwe kudamgwera kudasokoneza chithunzithunzi champhamvu cholimbikitsa; adanong'oneza, m'kuusa komwe kunali kotsika: "Ndidalota ndikuwala. ».

Zowonadi zidabweranso kudzayesa moyo wake wokhumudwa. «Ndikufuna kuchokapo, ndikuvutika kwambiri! ».

"Inde, tsopano tibwerera, koma tinena pemphero lomaliza."

Adafika ndikuchotsa ntchito ndipo, ali wakhanda ngati mwana, adabwereza mawu anga, pomwe adayesera kuyambitsa kupatsa mwayi kwa kusiya ntchito yayikulu: «Mayi athu a Lourdes, ndichitireni chisoni masautso anga; Mukudziwa zomwe zimandithandiza, koma mumadziwanso kuti kuvutika kwa mzimu kumakhala kovuta kwambiri kuposa zonse, ndipo ndimavutika mu mzimu. Ndimagonjera ku zofuna zanu, koma sindine ngwazi yovomereza mosangalala kuwuma kwake; ngati simufuna kundichiritsa, ndipatseni kusiya ntchito! Ngati simungathe kundipanga ine maso, pempherani kuti ndikhale ndi kulimbika konse ndi thandizo la Mulungu lofunikira kuti ndipirire mayesero owawa, osalephera. Ndimapereka inu ndi mtima wanga wonse; koma ngati Inu mungafune zitha zonse, chotsani kwa ine chikhumbo chopitiliracho, chomwe chimandivuta, kuti ndione dzuwa ndikusangalala ndi kuwunika, komwe ndimakukonda kwambiri ndipo komwe sindimakhala kwina konse ".

Pamene tidadutsa Grotto adafuna kuti ayime kwakanthawi: "Kodi munganditembenukire kuchifanizochi, moyang'anizana ndi inu, ngati kuti mukuchiwona? ».

Ndidayendera limodzi ndi chikhumbo chake chokakamira: «Ndani akudziwa - ndimaganiza - kuti Dona wathu sakulimbikitsani izi kuti zikope mtima wake ndikusankha chozizwitsa! ».

Zinali china chosunthira, maso opepuka, okhazikika pa Miraculous, komanso chofooka chilichonse champhamvu chomwe chimapempha thandizo chomwe sankafuna kukhumudwa ngakhale pang'ono.

Apanso adapita kuchipatala m'mene adachoka; koma, patatha masiku asanu ndi atatu, ndinamupatsa moni, asanalekane, ndinazindikira kuchokera kumwetulira kwake kuti chisangalalo chatsopano chamgwira mtima ndipo anali atakhala pamenepo kwamuyaya. Kodi analandila chisomo chopempha ndi mtima wonse kuti avomereze nsembeyo ndi kusiya kukhudzika kopitilira muyeso wa kuunikiranso? Kodi Dona Wathu adamupatsa iye, posinthanitsa ndi kugonjera kwathunthu, mphamvu yomwe imanyoza zoyipa imasangalatsidwa ndi mizimu yomwe Mulungu amalankhula kwambiri kuposa zikhumbo za anthu?

«Ndikuwona kuti ndikondwa, adandiuza zakukhosi kwanga, ndikusunga manja ndikumusiya. Chisangalalo ichi, mwina adzaseka mawuwo, ndidachipeza pomwe adandiyika patsogolo pa chifanizo: maso akhungu amawona zinthu zomwe zimathawa, ndipo amatha kuwerenga masamba akuda, pomwe maso anu amatha kusiyanitsa mithunzi ».

Kuwopa pang'ono zomwe adazitcha zowonadi komanso zomwe zimangowoneka ngati maloto achipembedzo okha. Ndidayesa kumukhazika mtima pansi: «Wokondedwa, osafuna kuweruza zolinga za Dona Wanga, ndiroleni ndikuchenjezeni za kuopsa kokuwatanthauzira molingana ndi malingaliro athu onyenga. Ndidakumana ndi anthu odwala omwe, omwe adatsimikiza kuti ali ndi chinsinsi chochokera kwa a Madonna, ndikulakwitsa kuti awachenjeze kuchokera kumwamba, adasiya kuchita nawo ntchito ndipo adasiya kukhumudwa ». Ndinalankhula mawu ofunikira motere, mwachikondi, pochepetsa, mwachikondi chokoma, chowonadi chaphokoso. Wakhungu wanga sanadabwe kapena kukopa; motsimikiza kudekha kudawonekera kudzera kumaso ake akumwetulira, pomwe sindimawona chilichonse chokweza. Ndinadabwa kwambiri nditandiuza izi:

"Komabe, ndikuyamba kumvedwa." "Monga? Kodi ukukhulupirira maso ako? ... » Nthawiyi adaseka: "Mwina ..."

Koma nkhope yake idakhalabe yolimba, ndipo iyenso adawoneka wolimba mtima kwambiri, kotero ndidakhulupirira kuti osalimbikira. Ndati, monga moni ...

«Ngati pali nkhani, ndikufuna ufulu kuti anthu amve! ».

«Ndipo choyamba; ikakhala ntchito kwa ine; anali wokoma mtima komanso wowonda kwambiri mpaka ananditchinjiriza pazinyengo. Panthawiyi, komabe, ndikukutsimikizirani kuti chiyembekezo changa ndichachikulu ndipo ndiyenso ... zomveka kuti nditha kuwopa kugwa kowawa ».

Tinathetsa banja. "Mnyamata wosauka - namwino adang'ung'uza pambali panga, ndikutsatiridwa ndi msungwana - kulimba mtima kwake kumakhala koyenera kuti Namwali Woyera ayenera kuti amuthandize". 'Kodi mumamudziwa, ma'am? ».

" Ndimakhulupirira! Ndiye mwana wamwamuna wa bwenzi langa wokondedwa; dzina labwino, koma mwayi pang'ono; anali injiniya pomwe nkhondo idayamba; ndipo tsopano ... ".

Ndimakhudzidwabe ndi mawu achilendo! kale, ndikukhulupirira kuti namwino adalandira zachinsinsi zake, ndidabwereza zomwe ndidamvetsera panthawiyo: «Amabweranso ndi chiyembekezo; ndipo, kuti timve iye, zakwaniritsidwa kale ... komabe maso ake adakali kutali! ».

Mwachidziwikire, msungwanayo, yemwe nkhope yake yabwino idawonetsa mawonekedwe omwe amawonetsa mawonekedwe ake, adayang'ana munthu wakhunguyo natembenukira kwa iye, koma kuyankha funso langa: "Ndikudziwa kuti wanena zowona".

Chifukwa chake, panali zizindikiro zilizonse zochiritsa zomwe wodwalayo, pofuna kupewa cholakwa, adasunga chinsinsi chake? Sindinalimbikire kunena, polemekeza malo omwe azimayi awiriwo adadzitsekera.

Pamene, mphindi zochepa pambuyo pake, ndinazindikira msungwana yemwe amatsogolera, ndi chipiriro cha amayi, njira zosatsimikizika za wodwala wanga, ndinatsimikiza kuti palibe kuunika, ngakhale pang'ono pang'ono, komwe kunabwera kudzawalitsa usiku wake.

Posakhalitsa wodwalayo ndi mtsikana wake anali atanditsimikizira kuti akuyembekeza chozizwitsachi! Ndidatsiriza ndikukhulupirira kuti onse awiri, m'modzi wolakalaka kwambiri, winayo chifukwa cha zabwino, ali wopanda chiyembekezo m'chiyembekezo chimodzi. Ndidayenda osayesa kumvetsetsa.

... miyezi iwiri pambuyo pake, pamene, pakuyenda kosinthika kopita kwapaulendo, nditaiwala mnzanga, kalatayi idabwera kwa ine, ndi cholembedwa chachikazi chosadziwika:

«Wokondedwa bwana, ndili ndi mwayi wolengeza za ukwati wanga wotsatira kwa a Miss Giorgina R., namwino wanga waku Lourdes, yemwe adandiona pafupi ndi chilimwe pafupi ndi ine ndipo wandibweretsera dzanja kuti andilembere. Nditamuuza kuti ndatsala pang'ono kupeza maso anga, anali ake omwe ndimafuna kunena, omwe kuwunikira kwake kumawunikira moyo wanga kuyambira pano; Ndiona kudzera mwa inu kuti ndiwongolera wanga komanso kuti akhala bwino posachedwa.

«Chifukwa chake, mwanjira yosiyana kwambiri ndi zomwe adatha kuganiza, Dona Wathu amandipanga zomwe nkhondo idanditenga komanso zowonjezereka. Tsopano ndikupempha Namwali kuti andisiye monga momwe ndiriri, chifukwa chisangalalochi chimathetsa zowawa zonse kwa ine; enawo, kuti azingowona koma kudzera m'maso okondedwa a bwenzi langa, zikhala zopanda ntchito.

«Ndithandizeni kuthokoza Amayi chifukwa chotitonthoza, zomwe zimatikwaniritsa mwa njira yake, zimatipatsa chisangalalo chokhacho chomwe chiri chofunikira, chifukwa chimachokera kumwamba. Ndiubwenzi wambiri ... »

Kodi sindikukukondani kufowoka kwanu, chifukwa cha chisangalalo choposedwa mtima, kuyesedwa kopambana kwa zabwino zozizwitsa za Mariya?

Source: buku: Mabelu a Lourdes