Momwe mungapangire kusinkhasinkha kosinkhasinkha

Patsani Mulungu mphindi 20.

Pamene bambo William Meninger adasiya udindo wawo mu dayosisi ya Yakima, Washington, mu 1963, kuti alumikizane ndi a Trappists a St. Joseph Abbey ku Spencer, Massachusetts, adauza amayi ake kuti: "Apa, Amayi. Sindidzachokeranso. "

Sizinali choncho kwenikweni. Tsiku lina mu 1974 Meninger anapukuta buku lakale mulaibulale ya amonke. Bukulo linali Cloud of Unnowing, buku losadziwika la m'zaka za zana la 14 pankhani yosinkhasinkha. Meninger akuti, "Ndinadabwitsidwa ndikuwona kwake."

Adayamba kuphunzitsa njira kwa ansembe kuti abwerere kuzomvera. "Ndiyenera kuvomereza," akutero Meninger, "kuti nditayamba kuiphunzitsa, chifukwa cha maphunziro anga, sindinkaganiza kuti ingaphunzitsidwe kuyika anthu. Ndikati izi tsopano, ndimachita manyazi kwambiri. Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndinali wosazindikira komanso wopusa. Sizinatenge nthawi ndisanayambe kuzindikira kuti izi sizinali za amonke ndi ansembe okha, koma za aliyense. "

Abbot wake, Bambo Thomas Keating, anafalitsa njira zambiri; kudzera mwa iye amadziwika kuti "pemphero lofunikira".

Tsopano ku St. Benedict Monastery ku Snowmass, Colorado, Meninger amatenga miyezi inayi pachaka kuchokera ku moyo wake wopangidwa ndi maulamuliro kuti ayende kudziko lonse lapansi akuphunzitsa za kulingalira monga zafotokozedwera The Cloud of Kusadziwa.

Komanso anali ndi lingaliro lowala la kuphunzitsa amayi ake kamodzi, ali pa kama wake wodwala. Koma iyo ndi nkhani ina.

Kodi zinakhala bwanji kuti mukhale ngati mmonke wa a Trappist mutakhala wansembe wa dayosisi?
Ndakhala wokangalika komanso wopambana monga wansembe wa parishi. Ndidagwirapo ntchito dayosisi ya Yakima ndiosamukira ku Mexico ndi Native American. Ndinali woyang'anira ntchito ya dayosisi, woyang'anira bungwe la Achinyamata Achikatolika, ndipo mwanjira ina ndinkaona kuti sindikuchita bwino. Zinali zovuta, koma ndimazikonda. Sindinakhutire konse, koma ndinkaona kuti ndiyenera kuchita zambiri ndipo sindinadziwe komwe ndingachite.

Pomaliza zidandipeza: Ndikadatha kuchita zoposa popanda kuchita chilichonse, choncho ndidakhala wa Trappist.

Mukudziwa kuti mwapezanso phokoso la Cloud of Kusadziwa mu 70s kenako mumayamba zomwe zimadziwika kuti gulu lakupemphera. Zinachitika bwanji?
Kukonzanso ndi mawu oyenera. Ndidaphunzitsapo nthawi yomwe mapemphero osinkhasinkha samamvedwa. Ndinali ku seminare ya Boston kuyambira 1950 mpaka 1958. Panali amasemina 500. Tidali ndi otitsogolera auzimu atatu, ndipo pazaka zisanu ndi zitatu sindidamvepo kamodzi
mawu oti "kusinkhasinkha mozama". Ndikutanthauza kwenikweni.

Ndakhala m'busa zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi. Kenako ndinalowa m'nyumba ya amonke, ku St. Joseph Abbey ku Spencer, Massachusetts. Monga novice, ndinadziwitsidwa kuti ndinazindikira kusinkhasinkha.

Patatha zaka zitatu, bambo anga abambo, a Thomas Keating, adandiuza kuti ndithawire kwa ansembe amipingo yomwe idayendera nyumba yathu yotsala. Unalidi ngozi yangwiro: Ndinapeza buku la The Cloud of Unnowing mu library yathu. Ndidachotsa fumbi ndikuwerenga. Ndinadabwa kupeza kuti lidalidi buku lamalangizo amomwe mungaganizire posinkhasinkha.

Izi sizomwe ndidaphunzira ku nyumba ya amonke. Ndidaphunzira kudzera mu chikhalidwe chazomwe zimatchedwa lectio, meditatio, oratio, kulingalira: kuwerenga, kusinkhasinkha, kupemphera pamtima kenako kulingalira.

Koma m'bukuli ndinapeza njira yosavuta yophunzitsira. Ndinangodabwitsidwa. Nthawi yomweyo ndinayamba kuphunzitsa izi kwa ansembe omwe amabwerera. Ambiri a iwo anali atapita kumsonkhano womwewo womwe ine ndinapita. Maphunzirowo anali asanasinthe pang'ono: kusazindikira kwamalingaliro kunalipo kuyambira wakale mpaka wam'ng'ono.

Ndidayamba kuwaphunzitsa zomwe ndimazitcha "pemphero lakusinkhasinkha malinga ndi Cloud of Unjuaing", yomwe kenako imadziwika kuti "pemphero lofunafuna". Umu ndi momwe zimayambira.

Kodi mungathe kutiuza pang'ono pang'ono za Mtambo Wosadziwa?
Ndikuganiza kuti ndi luso pa zauzimu. Ndi buku la zana la XNUMX lolemba ku Middle English, chilankhulo cha Chaucer. Izi ndi zomwe zidandilimbikitsira kusankha bukuli kuchokera mulaibulale, osati chifukwa cha zomwe zili, koma chifukwa ndimakonda chilankhulo. Kenako ndidangodabwitsidwa kuti ndidziwe zomwe zidalimo. Kuyambira pamenepo takhala tili ndi matanthauzidwe angapo. Chomwe ndimakonda kwambiri ndikutanthauzira kwa William Johnston.

M'bukuli mwana wamkulu amakhala akulembera novice ndikumulangiza pakusinkhasinkha kosinkhasinkha. Koma mutha kuwona kuti kwenikweni ikutsata omvera ambiri.

Chaputala chachitatu ndi mtima wa bukuli. Chotsalira ndikungoyankhapo pa chaputala 3. Malingaliro awiri oyamba a chaputala ichi akuti, “Izi ndi zomwe muyenera kuchita. Kwezani mtima wanu kwa Ambuye ndikusokonekera kwachikondi, kumafunira zabwino zake osati zabwino. ”Bukuli limazimiririka.

Gawo lina la chaputala 7 likuti ngati mukufuna kutenga chikhumbo chonsechi kwa Mulungu ndikuchifotokozera pamawu amodzi, gwiritsani ntchito liwu losavuta la syllable, monga "Mulungu" kapena "chikondi", ndipo lolani kuti ikhale chiwonetsero cha chikondi chanu. kwa Mulungu mu pemphelo lolingalirali. Ili ndi pemphero loyambira, kuyambira chiyambi mpaka kumapeto.

Kodi mumakonda kuitanitsa pempherolo kapena pempheroli?
Sindikonda "kupemphera kwenikweni" ndipo sindimagwiritsa ntchito kawirikawiri. Ndimalitcha kuti kusinkhasinkha kosinkhasinkha malinga ndi Cloud of Kusadziwa. Simungapewe izi tsopano: limatchedwa pemphero lakale. Ndasiya. Koma zikuwoneka pang'ono.

Kodi mukuganiza kuti anthu omwe sanachitepo mapempherowa ali ndi njala, ngakhale atha osadziwa?
Wanjala chifukwa cha izo. Ambiri achita kale kuwerenga, kusinkhasinkha ngakhalenso oratio, pemphero logwirizana - pemphero lokhala ndi vesi linalake, mphamvu zauzimu zomwe zimachokera pakusinkhasinkha kwanu, komwe kumachokera ku lectio wanu. Koma sanawuzidwepo kuti pali chinthu china chotsatira. Kuyankha kofala komwe ndimapeza ndikamachita sementi yopemphera yokhazikika pa parishi ndi iyi: "Abambo, sitimadziwa, koma timangodikirira."

Onani oratio iyi m'miyambo yambiri yosiyanasiyana. Kumvetsetsa kwanga ndikuti oratio ndi khomo lolilingalira. Simukufuna kukhala khomo. Mukufuna kudutsamo.

Ndakhala ndikudziwa zambiri ndi izi. Mwachitsanzo, m'busa wa Pentekosite adasinthidwa posachedwa kupita ku nyumba yathu ya amonke ku Snowmass, Colado. M'busa wa zaka khumi ndi zisanu ndi ziwiri, munthu woyera mtima weniweni, anali ndi mavuto ndipo sanadziwe chochita. Zomwe adandiuza zinali, "Ndidali kumuuza mkazi wanga kuti sindingathenso kulankhula ndi Mulungu. Ndalankhula ndi Mulungu zaka 17 ndipo ndatsogolera anthu ena."

Nthawi yomweyo ndinazindikira zomwe zikuchitika. Mwamunayo anali atadutsa pakhomo ndipo anali chete poganiza. Sanamvetsetse izi. Panalibe chilichonse mu miyambo yake chomwe chikanamufotokozera. Mpingo wake wonse ukupemphera malilime, kuvina: zonsezi ndi zabwino. Koma akukuletsani kupitilira.

Mzimu Woyera samasamala kwambiri za kuletsa kuja ndipo amatsogolera munthuyu kudzera pakhomo.

Kodi mungayambitse bwanji kuphunzitsa munthu wina za izi posinkhasinkha za kupemphera?
Ili ndi limodzi mwamafunso ngati, "Muli ndi mphindi ziwiri. Ndiuzeni zonse za Mulungu. "

Nthawi zambiri, tsatirani malangizo a Mtambo. Mawu akuti "kusakaniza kokoma kwa chikondi" ndikofunikira, chifukwa uku ndi kumene. Amatsenga achijeremani, azimayi monga Hildegard wa Bingen ndi Mechthild wa Magdeburg, adawatcha "kubera mwankhanza". Koma atafika ku England, zidakhala "chisakanizo chokoma cha chikondi".

Kodi mumakweza bwanji mtima wanu kwa Mulungu ndikusunthira kokoma kwa chikondi? Zimatanthawuza: kuchita zomwe tikufuna kukonda Mulungu.

Chitani izi pokhapokha ngati mungathe: kondani Mulungu kwa iye yekha osati zomwe mumapeza. Anali Woyera Augustine wa ku Hippo yemwe adati - pepani chifukwa cha chilankhulo chauvinis - pali mitundu itatu ya abambo: pali akapolo, pali ogulitsa ndipo pali ana. Kapolo angachite zinazake chifukwa cha mantha. Wina akhoza kubwera kwa Mulungu, mwachitsanzo, chifukwa amawopa gehena.

Wachiwiri ndi wamalonda. Adzabwera kwa Mulungu chifukwa adapanga pangano ndi Mulungu: "Ndidzachita izi ndipo mudzanditengera kumwamba". Ambiri aife ndi amalonda, akutero.

Koma lachitatu ndiloganiza. Uyu ndiye mwana. "Ndizichita chifukwa ndinu oyenera chikondi." Kenako kwezani mtima wanu kwa Mulungu ndi chisomo chokoma cha chikondi, mukuchifunira zabwino zake osati zabwino. Sindikuchita izi chifukwa cha chitonthozo kapena mtendere womwe ndimapeza. Sindikuchita izi chifukwa cha mtendere wapadziko lonse lapansi kapena kuchiritsa khansa ya Aunt Susie. Zonse zomwe ndikuchita ndichakuti Mulungu ndi woyenera kuti azikondedwa.

Kodi ndingathe kuchita bwino? Ayi. Ndikuchita bwino kwambiri. Ndizo zonse zomwe ndiyenera kuchita. Kenako fotokozerani chikondi chimenecho, monga chaputala 7 chimanenera, ndi mawu a pemphero. Mverani mawu a pempherowa ngati njira yosonyezera kuti mumakonda Mulungu. Ndikukupemphani kuti muchite izi kwa mphindi 20. Nachi.

Kodi chofunikira ndi chiyani m'mawu a pemphero?
Cloud of Unnowing inati, "Ngati mungafune, mutha kupangitsa kuti kufuna kubwera ndi mawu apemphero." Ndikuchifuna. Ndikuganiza, ngakhale zili zoyera bwanji, kuti ngati ndikuzifuna, mungafunike [mumaseka]. M'malo mwake, ndangolankhula kwa anthu khumi ndi awiri, mwa zikwizikwi zomwe ndawaphunzitsa, omwe safuna mawu opemphera. Cloud ikuti, "Ichi ndi chitetezo chanu ku malingaliro abodza, chitetezo chanu kuti musasokonezedwe, china chomwe mungagwiritse ntchito kumenya thambo."

Anthu ambiri amafunikira china chake kuti amvetsetse. Zimakuthandizani kuyika malingaliro osokoneza.

Kodi muyenera kupemphereranso pazinthu zina, monga mtendere wapadziko lonse kapena khansa ya Aunt Susie?
Mtambo wa umbuli umalimbikitsa kwambiri izi: kuti uyenera kupemphera. Koma imanenanso kuti panthawi yomwe musinkhesinkhe kwambiri, simutero. Mukungokonda Mulungu chifukwa Mulungu ndiye woyenera kukondedwa. Kodi muyenera kupempherera odwala, akufa ndi zina zambiri? Zachidziwikire.

Kodi mukuganiza kuti kupemphera kosinkhasinkha ndikofunika kwambiri kuposa kupempherera zosowa za ena?
Inde. Mu Chaputala 3 Mtambo umati: "Mtundu uwu wa mapemphero umakondweretsa Mulungu koposa mtundu wina uliwonse, ndipo ndi wabwino kwambiri ku mpingo, kwa mizimu ya purigatoriyo, kwa amishonare kuposa mtundu wina uliwonse wamapemphero." akuti, "Ngakhale simungamvetse chifukwa chake."

Tsopano onani, ndikumvetsa chifukwa chake, motero ndimawauza anthu chifukwa. Mukamapemphera, mukafika pazomwe mungakwanitse kukonda Mulungu popanda chifukwa china, ndiye kuti mumakumbatira Mulungu, yemwe ndi Mulungu wachikondi.

Mukamakumbatira Mulungu, mukukumbatira zonse zomwe Mulungu amakonda. Kodi Mulungu amakonda chiyani? Mulungu amakonda zonse zomwe Mulungu adalenga. Chilichonse. Izi zikutanthauza kuti chikondi cha Mulungu chimafikira pamlingo woposa wa chilengedwe chomwe sitingathe kuchimvetsetsa, ndipo Mulungu amakonda atomu iliyonse yaying'onoyo chifukwa adachipanga.

Simungapange mapemphero osinkhasinkha komanso mwakufuna, motsatira dala kudana kapena kukhululuka kwa munthu m'modzi. Ndi kutsutsana kowonekeratu. Izi sizitanthauza kuti mwakhululukiratu zolakwazo zilizonse. Zikutanthauza, komabe, kuti muli mukuyamba kuchita izi.

Mumachita mofunitsitsa kuti muchite izi chifukwa simungamakonda Mulungu popanda kukonda munthu aliyense amene munakumana naye. Simuyenera kupemphereranso wina aliyense mukamapemphera chifukwa mukumakumbatira kale popanda malire.

Kodi ndizofunika kwambiri kupempherera Aunt Susie kapena ndikofunika kupempherera zonse zomwe Mulungu amakonda - mwanjira ina, chilengedwe?

Anthu ambiri mwina amati, "Sindingakhale phee kwa nthawi yayitali."
Anthu amagwiritsa ntchito mawu a Buddha akuti, "Ndili ndi malingaliro nyani." Ndimazipeza kuchokera kwa anthu omwe adauzidwa kuti adzapempherere pakati koma osati kuchokera kwa aphunzitsi abwino, chifukwa silivuto. Ndimauza anthu kumayambiriro kwa seminare kuti ndikutsimikizirani kuti vutoli lidzathetsedwa ndi malangizo ochepa osavuta.

Chowonadi ndi chakuti palibe kusinkhasinkha koyenera. Ndakhala ndikuchita kwa zaka 55, ndipo kodi ndimatha kuzichita popanda malingaliro a nyani? Ayi, sichoncho. Ndakhala ndikusokoneza malingaliro nthawi zonse. Ndikudziwa momwe ndingachitire nawo. Kusinkhasinkha bwino ndikusinkhasinkha komwe simunasiye. Simuyenera kuchita bwino, chifukwa zenizeni simupambana.

Koma ngati ndimayesetsa kukonda Mulungu kwa mphindi 20 kapena nthawi yonse yomwe ndili, ndimachita bwino kwambiri. Simuyenera kuchita bwino malinga ndi malingaliro anu opambana. Cloud of Kusadziwa imati, "Yesani kukonda Mulungu." Kenako akuti, "chabwino, ngati zikuvuta, fanizira kuti mukufuna kukonda Mulungu." Mwachangu, ndimaphunzitsa.

Ngati malingaliro anu opambana ndi "mtendere" kapena "Ndatayika posowa", palibe imodzi mwa ntchito izi. Njira yokhayo yopambana ndiyakuti: "Kodi ndidaziyesa kapena ndidayeseza?" Ngati ndidachita, ndine wopambana kwathunthu.

Chofunika ndi chiyani mu mphindi 20 mphindi?
Anthu akayamba koyamba, ndimalimbikitsa kuyesa kwa mphindi 5 kapena 10. Palibe chopatulika pafupifupi mphindi 20. Zochepera pamenepo, mutha kukhala nthabwala. Zowonjezera kuposa izi zitha kukhala katundu wambiri. Ikuwoneka ngati sing'anga wokondwa. Ngati anthu ali ndi zovuta zambiri, atopa ndi mavuto awo, Cloud of Unnowing inati: "Tengani. Gonani pamaso pa Mulungu ndi kufuula. "Sinthani liwu lanu la mapemphero kukhala" Chithandizo ". Bwino, izi ndi zomwe muyenera kuchita mukatopa kuyesa.

Kodi pali malo abwino kupemphera? Kodi mungathe kuchita kulikonse?
Nthawi zonse ndimanena kuti mutha kuzichita kulikonse, ndipo nditha kunena kuchokera ku zokumana nazo, chifukwa ndidazichita m'mabasi, pa mabasi a Greyhound, pa ndege, m'mabwalo a ndege. Nthawi zina anthu amati, "Palibe, sukudziwa momwe zinthu zilili. Ndimakhala pakatikati, ma carti ndi phokoso lonse limadutsa. "Malo amenewo ndi abwino monga phokoso la tchalitchi cha monastic. M'malo mwake, ndinganene kuti malo oyipitsitsa kwambiri kuchita izi ndi mpingo wa Trappist. Mabenchi amapangidwa kuti akuvutitse, osapemphera.

Malangizo okhawo operekedwa ndi Cloud of Unnowing ndi awa: "Khala bwino". Chifukwa chake, osakhala omasuka, kapena mawondo anu. Mutha kuphunzitsa mosavuta momwe ungatengere phokoso kuti lisasokoneze. Zimatenga mphindi zisanu.

Mumafikira mophiphiritsa kuti muvomereze mawuwo ndikuwanyamula mkati ngati gawo la pemphero lanu. Simukumenya, mwawona? Ikukhala gawo la inu.

Mwachitsanzo, nthawi ina ku Spencer, kunali kamwana wina wachinyamata yemwe anali ndi zovuta kwambiri. Ndinayang'anira amonke achichepere ndipo ndimaganiza kuti, "Munthu uyu ayenera kutuluka mumakoma."

A Ringling Brothers ndi Barnum & Bailey Circus anali ku Boston panthawiyo. Ndinapita kwa abbot, a Thomas, ndipo ndinati, "Ndikufuna kupita ndi M'bale Luke ku circus." Ndidamuuza chifukwa chake, ndipo abbot wabwino, adati: "Inde, ngati mukuganiza kuti ndizomwe muyenera kuchita".

Mchimwene wanga Luke ndi ine tapita. Tinafikira molawirira. Tinakhala pakati pa mzere ndipo ntchito yonse inali ikupitilirabe. Panali magulu omenyera mkati, ndipo panali njovu za njovu, ndipo panali masamba ena omwe anali kuwomba mabaluni ndipo anthu akugulitsa zipatso. Tinakhala pakati pa mzere ndikusinkhana kwa mphindi 45 popanda mavuto.

Malingana ngati simunasokonezedwe mwathupi, ndikuganiza kuti malo aliwonse ndioyenera. Ngakhale, ndiyenera kuvomereza, ngati ndikupita mumzinda, mzinda waukulu ndipo ndikufuna kusinkhasinkha, ndipita kutchalitchi chapafupi kwambiri. Sindipita kutchalitchi cha Katolika chifukwa kumakhala phokoso ndi zochitika zambiri. Pitani ku mpingo wa ma episcopal. Palibe ndipo ali ndi mabenchi ofewa.

Kodi mungatani ngati mumagona?
Chitani zomwe Cloud of Kusadziwa ikunena: Tithokoze Mulungu chifukwa simunakhale pansi kuti mugone, koma mumafunikira, chifukwa chake Mulungu adakupatsani monga mphatso. Zomwe mumachita ndi, mukadzuka, ngati mphindi 20 zanu sizinathe, mumabwereranso ku pemphero lanu ndipo linali pemphero langwiro.

Ena amati kupemphera kosaganizira kumakhala kwa amonke ndi avirigo ndipo anthu sakhala ndi nthawi yokwanira kuti akhale pansi.
Ndizamanyazi. Ndizowona kuti nyumba zachifumu ndi malo omwe mapemphero osinkhasinkha adasungidwa. Zowona, komabe, zasungidwa ndi anthu osawerengeka omwe sanalembe mabuku pazachiphunzitso chazinsinsi.

Mayi anga ndi amodzi mwa amenewa. Amayi anga anali okonzekera kulingalira zakale asanamve za ine, ngakhale nditaphunzitsira bwanji. Ndipo amakhoza kufa osayankhula ndi wina. Pali anthu ambiri omwe akuchita izi. Sichikhala ndi nyumba zachifumu zokha.

Kodi munazindikira bwanji kuti amayi anu anali okonda kuganiza?
Mfundo yoti atamwalira ali ndi zaka 92, anali atadyera magulu awiri amiyala. Ali ndi zaka 85 ndipo anali kudwala kwambiri, abambowo anandilola kuti ndimuchezere. Ndinaganiza kuti ndiziphunzitsa mayi anga kupemphera. Ndidakhala pafupi ndi kama ndikumugwira dzanja. Ndinalongosola bwino kwambiri kuti inali chiyani. Amandiyang'ana nati, "Wokondedwa, ndakhala ndikuchita kwa zaka zambiri." Sindinadziwe choti ndinene. Koma sanachite chimodzimodzi.

Kodi mukuganiza kuti ndizowona kwa Akatolika ambiri?
Inde.

Kodi mudamvapo za Mulungu?
Ndikulakalaka ndikadasiya. Poyamba ndinali pothaŵira mdera la Karmeli. Avirigo anali kubwera, m'modzi modzi, kudzandiona. Nthawi ina chitseko chinatsegulidwa ndipo mayi wachikulireyu analowa, ndodo, itakutidwa - samatha kuyang'ana. Ndinazindikira kuti anali pafupi 95. Ndinkadikira. Pamene anali kuyenda uku ndi uku mchipindacho, ndinali ndimalingaliro kuti mayiyo akanenera. Ndinali ndisanakhalepo kale. Ndinaganiza, "Mkazi uyu alankhula ndi ine m'malo mwa Mulungu." Ndinkangoyembekezera. Adalowa m'mpando wopweteka.

Adakhala pomwepo kwa miniti. Ndipo iye anayang'ana mmwamba nati, "Atate, zonse ndi chisomo. Chilichonse, chilichonse, chilichonse. "

Tinakhala pamenepo kwa mphindi 10, ndikuyamwa. Ndaziulula kalekale. Izi zinachitika zaka 15 zapitazo. Ichi ndiye chifungulo cha chilichonse.

Ngati mukufuna kuzinena motere, chinthu choyipitsitsa chomwe chidachitika ndi munthu amene anapha mwana wa Mulungu, ndipo chimenecho chinali chisomo chachikulu koposa zonse.