Kuchiritsa kosadziwika kwa Silvia Busi ku Medjugorje

Dzina langa ndi Silvia, ndili ndi zaka 21 ndipo ndimachokera ku Padua. Pa 4 Okutobala 2004 ndili ndi zaka 16 ndidadzipeza, m'masiku ochepa, osatha kuyendanso ndikukakamizidwa kukhala pa njinga ya olumala. Zotsatira zonse zamayeso azachipatala zinali zosavomerezeka, koma palibe amene adadziwa kuti ndiyambanso kuyenda liti komanso ngati ndiyambiranso. Ndine mwana yekhayo, ndinali ndi moyo wabwinobwino, palibe amene amayembekezereka kukumana ndi zovuta komanso zopweteka ngati izi. Makolo anga akhala akupemphera ndikupempha thandizo kwa Dona Wathu kuti asatisiye tokha pamayesero owawawa. Komabe, m'miyezi yotsatira, ndinakulira, ndinachepa thupi ndipo ndinayamba khunyu ngati khunyu. Cha Januware amayi anga adalumikizana ndi wansembe yemwe amatsata gulu la mapemphero lodzipereka kwambiri kwa Amayi Athu, ndipo Lachisanu lililonse tonse atatu timapita ku Rosary, Mass ndi Adoration. Usiku wina kutangotsala Isitala, msonkhano utatha, mayi wina adadza kwa ine ndikundipatsa Madona mmanja mwanga, akundiuza kuti adalitsika pakuwonekera ku Medjugorje, adangokhala ndi imodzi, koma panthawiyo adakhulupirira kuti ndimamufuna koposa iye. Ndinaitenga ndipo nditangofika kunyumba ndinayiyika pakhosi panga. Tchuthi chitatha ndidayimbira foni wamkulu wa pasukulu yanga ndipo ndidalandira mapulogalamu a kalasi yomwe ndidapitako, sukulu yachitatu yasayansi yasekondale ndipo m'mwezi wa Epulo ndi Meyi ndidaphunzira. M'mwezi wa May, padakali pano, makolo anga anayamba kunditenga tsiku lililonse kupita ku Korona ndi ku Misa Yoyera. Poyamba ndinkaona kuti ndi udindo wanga, koma kenako ndinayamba kufunanso kupita chifukwa ndili komweko ndikupemphera ndimapeza chitonthozo m'mavuto omwe amadza chifukwa cholephera kuchita zinthu ngati anzanga ena.

Mu theka loyambirira la Juni ndidalemba mayeso kusukulu, ndidawakhoza ndipo Lolemba 20 Juni pomwe physiatrist adandiuza kuti akuyenera kutsagana ndi amayi ake ku Medjugorje, ndidamfunsa mwanzeru ngati anganditengere! Adayankha kuti afunsa ndipo patatha masiku atatu ndinali kale m'basi yopita ku Medjugorje ndi bambo anga! Ndinafika m'mawa wa Lachisanu 24 Juni 2005; masana tinatsatira ntchito zonse ndipo tinakumana ndi Ivan wamasomphenya, yemweyo yemwe pambuyo pake adawonekera pa Phiri la Podbrodo. Madzulo nditafunsidwa ngati ndikufunanso kupita kuphirilo, ndidakana, ndikulongosola kuti njinga ya olumala silingakwere phiri ndipo sindimafuna kusokoneza amwendamnjira ena. Adandiuza kuti kulibe zovuta ndipo azisinthana, motero tidasiya chikuku pansi paphiripo ndipo adandinyamula kuti andiperekeze pamwamba. Unali wodzaza ndi anthu, koma tinakwanitsa kupyola.

Atafika pafupi ndi chifanizo cha Madonna, adandikhazika pansi ndipo ndidayamba kupemphera. Ndimakumbukira kuti sindinadzipempherere ndekha, sindinapemphe chisomo kuti ndizitha kuyenda chifukwa zimawoneka zosatheka kwa ine. Ndinapempherera ena, kwa anthu omwe anali kumva kuwawa panthawiyo. Ndikukumbukira kuti maola awiri apempherowo adapita; pemphero lomwe ndidachita ndi mtima wanga wonse. Atangotsala pang'ono kuwonekera, mtsogoleri wanga wagulu yemwe adakhala pafupi ndi ine adandiuza kuti ndikufunseni chilichonse chomwe ndikufuna kuchokera kwa Amayi Athu, Adzatsika Kumwamba kudziko lapansi, adzakhala pamenepo, pamaso pathu ndipo amamvera aliyense mofanana. Kenako ndinapempha mphamvu kuti ndivomere njinga ya olumala, ndinali ndi zaka 17 ndipo tsogolo la olumala lakhala likuchita mantha kwambiri. Pamaso pa 22.00 panali mphindi khumi zakukhala chete, ndipo m'mene ndimapemphera ndidakopeka ndi kagawo kamagetsi komwe ndidawona kumanzere kwanga. Kunali kuwala kokongola, kopumula, kofewa; mosiyana ndi mawaliso ndi tochi zomwe zimayatsa nthawi zonse. Panali anthu ena ambiri ozungulira ine, koma munthawiyo kunali mdima wonse, kunali kuwala kokha, komwe kunkandipangitsa mantha ndipo kangapo konse ndimayang'ana kutali, koma ndikutuluka pakona langa sikungapeweke mwawona. Pambuyo pa kuwonekera kwa wamasomphenya Ivan, kuwalako kunazimiririka. Pambuyo pomasulira uthenga wa Amayi Athu mu Chitaliyana, anthu awiri ochokera mgulu langa adanditenga kuti andigwetse ndipo ndidagwa chagada, ngati kuti ndakomoka. Ndinagwa ndikumenya mutu wanga, khosi ndi nsana pamiyala ija ndipo sindinapeze ngakhale pang'ono. Ndikukumbukira zinali ngati ndinali pa matiresi wofewa, wotakasuka, osati pamiyala yolimba ija. Ndinamva liwu lokoma kwambiri lomwe linandikhazika mtima pansi, kundikhazika mtima pansi ngati ndikundikumbatira. Nthawi yomweyo adayamba kundiponyera madzi ndikundiuza kuti anthu ayima ndipo madotolo ena omwe amayesa kumva kupuma kwanga ndikupuma, koma palibe, palibe chisonyezo chamoyo. Pambuyo pa mphindi zisanu - khumi ndidatsegula maso anga, ndidawona abambo anga akulira, koma kwa nthawi yoyamba m'miyezi 9 ndidamva miyendo yanga ndikulira misozi ndidati ndikunjenjemera: "Ndachiritsidwa, ndiyenda!" Ndidadzuka ngati kuti ndichinthu chachilengedwe kwambiri; nthawi yomweyo adandithandiza kutsika paphiripo chifukwa ndidakwiya kwambiri ndipo adaopa kuti andipweteka, koma nditafika pamapazi a Podbrodo atandiyandikira njinga ya olumala, ndidakana ndipo kuyambira pomwepo ndidayamba kuyenda. Pa 5.00 m'mawa mwake ndimakwera Krizevac ndekha ndi miyendo yanga.

Masiku oyamba omwe ndimayenda miyendo yanga idafooka ndikuchepetsedwa ndi ziwalo, koma sindinachite mantha kugwa chifukwa ndimamva kuthandizidwa ndi mawaya osawoneka kumbuyo kwanga. Sindinapite ku Medjugorje ndi njinga ya olumala poganiza kuti nditha kubwerera ndi miyendo yanga. Inali nthawi yoyamba kupita kumeneko, inali yokongola osati kungoti ndalandira Chisomo, komanso chifukwa chamtendere, bata, bata ndi chisangalalo chachikulu chomwe mumapumira pamenepo. Poyamba sindinapereke maumboni chifukwa ndinali wamanyazi kwambiri kuposa pano ndipo ndimakhala ndi khunyu kangapo masana, kotero kuti mu Seputembara 2005 sindinathe kubwerera ku sekondale yachinayi. Kumapeto kwa Okutobala 2006, Abambo Ljubo adabwera kudzachita pemphero ku Piossasco (TO) ndipo adandipempha kuti ndipite kukachitira umboni. Ndinazengereza pang'ono, koma pamapeto pake ndinapita; Ndinachitira umboni ndipo ndinapemphera Korona Woyera. Ndisanachoke bambo Ljubo adandidalitsa ndikupempherera kwa ine kwakanthawi; m'masiku ochepa mavuto onse adasowa kwathunthu. Moyo wanga wasintha tsopano osati chifukwa choti ndachiritsidwa mthupi. Kwa ine Chisomo chachikulu chinali kuzindikira Chikhulupiriro ndikudziwa momwe Yesu ndi Dona Wathu amakondera aliyense wa ife. Ndikutembenuka kuli ngati kuti Mulungu wayatsa moto mkati mwanga womwe uyenera kudyetsedwa nthawi zonse ndi pemphero ndi Ukalistia. Mphepo ina itha kutiwombera koma ngati yayatsidwa bwino, motowo sudzazima ndipo ndikuthokoza Mulungu chifukwa cha mphatso yayikuluyi! Tsopano m'banja langa timakumana ndi vuto lililonse ndi mphamvu ya Korona yomwe tonse atatu timapemphera limodzi tsiku lililonse. Kunyumba ndife okhazikika, osangalala chifukwa tikudziwa kuti zonse zili mogwirizana ndi chifuniro cha Mulungu, yemwe timamukhulupirira kwathunthu ndipo tili okondwa kwambiri kuti Iye ndi Amayi Athu atitsogolera. Ndiumboni uwu ndikufuna kuthokoza ndi kutamanda Dona Wathu ndi Yesu komanso chifukwa cha kutembenuka kwauzimu komwe kunachitika mu banja langa komanso chifukwa chamtendere ndi chisangalalo zomwe Amatipatsa. Ndikukhulupirira ndi mtima wonse kuti aliyense wa inu amva chikondi cha Dona Wathu ndi cha Yesu chifukwa kwa ine ndicho chinthu chokongola komanso chofunikira kwambiri m'moyo.