Kuchiritsidwa ndi thonje pakupemphera kwa Mayi Athu

 

Patatha pafupifupi zaka 15 kuchokera pa mwana womaliza ndinakhalanso ndi pakati mu chaka cha 1996. Ndinkangokhalira kusangalala, nditapemphera kwambiri, Dona Wathu anakwaniritsa chikhumbo changa ndipo ndinali wotsimikiza koposa izi chifukwa usiku wina ndinalota: zonsezo Sindinakhalepo ndi maloto osamvetseka m'moyo wanga, koma usiku womwewo mwala Madonna adatsika kuchokera kuguwa lake ndikukhala wowona, adandigwira dzanja ndikuti: Kodi mumawasowa kwambiri amayi anu? (anamwalira mu 1983), ndinayankha kuti inde ndipo nthawi zonse ndi dzanja lanu amandiperekeza, ndimaima ndipo ndimayang'ana msewu wolowera kumidzi ndipo ndimaona amayi anga atatuluka pakhomo ndipo amabwera kudzakumana ndi ine. Tidakumbatirana osalankhula, anali wokongola, wachichepere ndipo tsitsi lake lidali ndi fungo lomwe sindingathe kulongosola, ndikungodziwa kuti m'mawa nditadzuka ndidamva kununkhira. Pambuyo pamisonkhano yabwinoyi ndi amayi, mumandiuzabe: Mudzakhala ndi mwana mu 1996 (pomwe ndinalota maloto anali 1995) kenako adabwereranso kuguwa lake. Ndidakondwera kwambiri ndikufunsa anthu kuti Madonna ndiye chifanizo adavala zonse zoyera ndipo adandiuza kuti ndiye Madona waku Medjugorje.

Nditadzuka ndidadabwitsidwa pang'ono kuwona masomphenya a amayi anga komanso pang'ono chifukwa cha nkhani yomwe ndidalandira kuchokera kwa a Madonna, sindinathe kukhulupilira mawu amenewo oti ndinalinso ndi mwana wina chifukwa ndimafuna kwa zaka zambiri koma madotolo onse Ndidandiuza kuti ndibwino kuti ndichotse chiberekero changa chifukwa chinali chopindika komanso chachikulu komanso kuti ndibwino ndisanayambe chotupa.

Sindinamverepo madotolo chifukwa pochotsa chiberekero sindikadakhala ndi mwayi ndipo ndidapemphera kwa Amayi akumwamba kuti andipatsenso mwayi wina chifukwa zaka zapitazo ndidachotsa mimbayo ndipo ndimadziimba mlandu. Ndinaimbira foni mlongo wanga kuti anene maloto achilendowa ndikuti mwina zonse zinali zabodza, sindingakhalenso ndi ana chifukwa ndinali ndi zaka 40 ndipo ndikadutsa zaka zochepa.

Nthawi inadutsa ndipo sindinaganizenso za malotowa ndipo tsiku lina ndinayesa kuyesa mayeso chifukwa panali pafupifupi miyezi iwiri yomwe ndinalibe matendawa, mukudziwa kuti ndimawopa matenda oyipa ndipo nditakhala ndi yankho sindikukhulupirira kuti palibe aliyense padziko lapansi amene anali wosangalala kuposa inemwini.

Mukudziwa nditalumikiza malotowo chifukwa ndendende mwezi wa Meyi mwezi wa Mayi Wathu, anali atandimvera.

Pambuyo pa miyezi 4 ndidapanga amniocentesis m'malangizo azachipatala, koma ndidalibe chitsimikizo cha izi chifukwa ngati kutacha ndikadatani? Koma Madonna nawonso sanandisiye mu izi ndipo kodi mukudziwa kudabwitsidwa kwakukulu? anali wamkazi pambuyo pa amuna awiri.

Nditamupemphera ndidamuuza Madonnina kuti andilole kuti ndikhale ndi mwana wina mosagonana, koma ngati mukufuna kundipatsa mwana wamkazi ndikusangalala kwambiri. Adandipatsanso mphatsoyi.

Miyezi isanu ndidadwaladwala kwambiri kuchipatala ndimadwala ululu wosakanikirana kuti ngakhale mankhwala sanachoke ndipo adotolo adandiuza kuti ngati sindili bwino azilowererapo osadziwa kuti zitha bwanji ngati fibroid yomwe ndidakula idalingana ndi mutu wamsungwana . Ndidapemphera ndikukhulupirira m'mawu a Mayi Wathu, sakanandipatsa chisangalalo chachikulu chotere ndikuchichotsa kwa ine

Panadutsa sabata limodzi ndipo ndinali nditatopa ndi ululuwu ndipo mwadzidzidzi ndinayamba kumva bwino ndipo pambuyo pa ma ultrasound adotowo adadabwa chifukwa fibroid inali itabwelera yaying'ono ngati kumayambiriro kwa kutenga pakati. Panthawi yopereka gawo la cesarean, adotolo adandifunsa ngati ndikufuna kutseka machubu, koma ndidamuuza chifukwa chake ndikanachita izi sindikufuna mwana wina monga momwe amandiuzira koma ndimaganiza kuti zimangochitika ngati ndili ndi pakati.

Patadutsa miyezi 13, sindinkamvanso bwino chifukwa adotolo sangathe kuchotsa ulusi ndipo ndinali ndi nkhawa koma modabwitsa kuti ndinakhalanso ndi pakati. Mwamuna wanga sanatenge bwino ndipo amafuna kuti ndichotse mimbayo, koma nthawi yomweyo lingaliro langa linali ayi. Nditapemphera kwambiri Kodi Mayi athu anakwaniritsa pempho langa ndipo tsopano zomwe ndimachita ndimakana mwana wina uyu? Sindingathe, uku kudali kuyesa kondiuza kuti ndikupatsa mwana wina ukupanga chiyani tsopano? POPE POPANDA NDIPO NDINAKHALA ndikukumana ndi chikondi duwa ili lomwe linali mwa ine ndikundikhulupirira ngakhale adotolo akundiuza kuti ndiyenera kupuma osatopa, ndinalibe mthunzi wokhumudwitsa kapena kulemera kapena kupweteka. Ndinali wokondwa kukhalanso mayi.

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