Medjugorje "mwachiritsa lilime langa mwatsegulanso maso anga"

WACHIRITSA CHINENERO ANGA UNDISUKULA MASO

Ndinali ndi zaka 20, ndinkakhala m’malo achikhristu koma opanda Khristu mu mtima mwanga. Chifukwa chodziona kuti ndine wosafunika chifukwa cha chibwibwi, ndinayang’ana m’mabuku ofotokoza za maganizo, kudzigodomalitsa, ndi zamizimu. Kenako, nditatengedwa ndi chikhumbo chofuna kukulitsa luso lazamatsenga lomwe lingandipangitse kugonjetsa dziko langa, ndidakumana ndi "mafilosofi" akum'maŵa omasula! Palibe amene anandiuza kuti Iye yekha “achiritsa nthenda zako zonse, napulumutsa moyo wako kudzenje, nakhutitsa masiku ako ndi zinthu zabwino” pamene “ukonzanso ubwana wako ngati chiwombankhanga” ( Salmo 103 ).

Nthawi zonse ndikuyang'ana kuchita bwino, ndimakhulupirira kuti ndikupeza chidziwitso changa m'dera la LFT lolimbikitsidwa ndi mafilosofi a Tantric. Pa izi ndinasiya zonse, ngakhale sitolo ya masamba. Ndinkakhulupirira mphunzitsi wawo (mphunzitsi) Shree Anandamurti, mkaidi wa ku India, amene anali woti adzakhale mtsogoleri wa nthaŵi za mapeto. Chotero kuŵerenga kosalekeza kwa malemba a Tao wa Bhagwan ndi ena kwa zaka ziŵiri kunasinthiratu mutu wanga ndi kutaya chikhulupiriro cha Chikatolika ndipo, pambuyo pake, kuyandikira kwa mabuku a Ra’nso chikhulupiriro cha kukhalapo kwa Mulungu. moyo pambuyo pa imfa.

Ndinkawagwirira ntchito nthawi zonse, ndikugwira ntchito m’sitolo yazakudya zonse. Tinkakhala ndi nyumba za asisitere za Akatolika m’malo opumako kaŵiri pachaka! Ndinali ndi zowawa za imfa, zowawa chifukwa cha kutha kwa moyo, ndinasiya zokonda zanga ndi kamera yanga kuti ndidziwononge ndekha: Ndinkafuna kukhala mmonke wa Zen, filosofi ina yakum'mawa pafupi ndi Buddhism.

Koma Amayi adandiyang'anira ndikundipangitsa kukumana ndi gulu lachikoka kenako… buku la Medjugorje: Ndinkafuna kudziwonetsa ndekha ndi amayi anga kuti zonsezi zinali zabodza. Chifukwa chake ndidakakamizika kupita ku Medjugorje kuti ndikatsimikizire, komanso chidwi chosadziwika bwino. Unali Khrisimasi '84. Pamaso pa chifaniziro chonyansa m'chipinda chopemphereramo ndidayamba kudwala pagulu la anthu: Sindinafune kukhala kapena kugwada. Ndinakana mpaka kupwetekedwa mtima ndikudandaula kuti: "Ngati ndiwe, ndikhululukireni ndikuthandizeni. ine". Zoipazo zinali pafupi kuzimiririka. Panthawi ya misa m’Chitaliyana ndinamva chikhumbo chachikulu cholandira Mgonero ngakhale kuti ndinkamva ngati nsomba yotuluka m’madzi. Misa itangotha, ndinayang’ana wolapa, ndinadzimva kuti ndamasulidwa ndipo pa nthawi ya Khirisimasi ndinalandira Yesu.

Tsiku lotsatira ndinamva mawu: "Sindiwe woyenera koma ndikukufuna iwe." Ndinayamba kulandira Ukaristia tsiku lililonse. Nditabwerera kwathu ndinatsimikiza mtima kusiya mafilosofi, kuti ndisamawononge ndalama zambiri pa lottery ndi mabwalo a mpira: 10.000 okha kuposa. Ndinasowa kamodzi ndipo ndinaona kuti sizingatheke. Icho chinali chisankho chatsopano komanso champhamvu. Ukalisitiya wa tsiku ndi tsiku wokhawo ukanandithandiza kusintha malingaliro anga, pambuyo pophunzitsidwa mafilosofi amenewo: chisomo chaumulungu chinagonjetsa malingaliro onse. Tsopano ndabwerera ku shopu yanga, ndikumapita ku gulu la mapemphero kutali ndi kwathu kawiri pa sabata. Palibe umboni wa chilema chakale. ndili mumtendere. Pemphero limadzaza tsiku langa. Ndimapemphera ndikuvutikira amuna. Ndikungoyembekezera kugwedezeka kuchokera kwa Yehova za tsogolo langa koma ndilibenso chikhumbo china. Kotero Claudio, wa ku X., anandiuza kuti - monga mwa nthawi zonse timafuna kudziwika ndi Mulungu yekha.

Villanova 25 October l987