Chifukwa ndikufuna kukhala sisisitere wodzipereka

Ndine novice motsutsana ndi izi: mwezi uno ndikulowa m'nyumba ya amonke ya Trappist. Sichinthu chomwe Akatolika amva kawiri kawiri, ngakhale ntchito ku madera olemera sizinachepetse kwambiri monga madera akutukuka. Ndikuganiza kuti ndalemba pano, ndisanafike pa chipinda chotsekerachi, chifukwa munthu akafika akamapempha chilolezo, akuyembekeza kuti sadzachoka. Ndipo chifukwa chake ndikufuna kupereka moni padziko lapansi.

Osandimvetsa. Sikuti ndikuthawa mdziko lapansi chifukwa ndimadana ndi dziko komanso zonse zili momwemo. M'malo mwake, dziko lidakhala zabwino kwambiri kwa ine. Ndinakulira bwino, ndinali mwana wosangalala komanso wosasangalatsa, ndipo nthawi inanso ndikadakhala katswiri wowona.

Pa sukulu yasekondale ndidalemba fomu yofunsira ku Harvard, Yale, Princeton ndi mayunivesite anayi apamwamba mdzikolo ndipo ndimayembekezera kuti ndidzalowa nawo onse. Ndazichita. Ndinapita ku Yale. Ndawerengedwa pakati pa abwino kwambiri. China chake sichinasowe.

Ichi chinali chikhulupiriro. Ndinakhala mkhristu chilimwe chaka changa chomaliza kusukulu yasekondale, koma sizinakwanitse chaka changa chomaliza ku koleji komwe ndinakafika ku tchalitchi cha Katolika. Ndinatsimikiziridwa kuti ndi Mroma Katolika pa tsiku langa lobadwa la 21, lomwe lidayambika Lamlungu lachinayi la Isitala, 1978.

Ndikuwona chikhumbo changa kukhala chosinkhasinkha, chomwe chakhala chikukulirapo mzaka ziwiri zapitazi, ndikupitiliza kuitana komweko: kukhala wotsatira wa Yesu, kukhala Mulungu yekhayo.Kumulola iye kuti achite ndi ine momwe angafunire. Ndi Ambuye yemweyo amene akuitana.

Tsopano, bwanji ndidangochita izi: kodi ndidakhazikitsa ziyeso zanga zakupambana m'dziko lapansi lomwe ndikusiyani? Ndikuganiza kuti chifukwa chomwechomwe Woyera Woyera adadzitukumira mu kalata yake yopita kwa Afilipi:

Sindinawunikenso zinthu zomwe ndimaziona kuti ndizabwino monga kutaya mwa chiyembekezo cha Khristu. Ndazindikira zonse monga kutayika mwa chidziwitso chapamwamba cha Ambuye wanga Yesu Khristu. Chifukwa cha iye ndataya zonse; Ndinaganizira zotayirazi kuti Kristu akhale chuma changa ndipo inenso ndikhale mwa iye. " (3: 7-9)

Iwo amene akuganiza kuti aliyense amene ali ndi luntha loyenera sangakonde kulowa nyumba ya amonke ayenera kulingaliranso. Sikuti ndikufuna kuthawa kudziko lapansi momwe ndikufuna kuthamangira kwina. Ndidakhulupirira, ndi Paulo, kuti Yesu Khristu yekha ndiye wofunikira. Palibenso china chomwe chili ndi kanthu.

Ndipo kotero, nditayambiranso, ndinapempha kuti ndikalandilidwe ku bungwe lina. Ndidachita ndikukhulupirira kuti palibe china chomwe ndikadachita. Ndikuwona zenizeni pankhani ya kufa ndi kuuka kwa akufa, kuchimwa ndi kukhululukidwa - ndipo kwa ine moyo wamakhalidwe abwino ukukhala bwino motere.

Ndiyenera kudziwa, kukonda ndikutumikira Mulungu. Umphawi, chiyero ndi kumvera ndi zisankho zabwino, osati malonjezo osavuta omwe amapezeka chifukwa chokhala sisitere. Ndikwabwino kukhala ndi moyo wosalira zambiri, kugwirizanitsa ndi osauka monga Yesu adachitira .. Ndikwabwino kukonda Mulungu kwambiri kotero kuti ngakhale kusakhalako ndikokonda pamaso pa munthu wina. Ndikofunika kuphunzira kusiya kufuna kwanu, mwina pazomwe amamatira kwambiri, monga momwe Yesu anachitira m'mundamu.

Zonsezi zimapangitsa moyo wachuma kuwoneka wachipembedzo komanso wachikondi. Palibe chilichonse zachikondi chodzuka m'mawa m'mawa kuti mukhale maso. Ndidachita sabata imodzi kubwereranso ndipo ndimadzifunsa kuti nditha bwanji kuzichita zaka 3 zotsatira.

Palibe chilichonse chokonda kupereka nyama: Ndimakonda pizza wa pizza ndi nyama yankhumba. Palibe chilichonse chachikondi chokana kulembera anzanga ndikudziwa kuti banja langa ndi lovomerezeka, koma masiku asanu pachaka ndi ine.

Koma yonseyi ndi gawo limodzi la moyo wokhala pawekha komanso wopanda phokoso, pemphero ndi kuvomereza, ndipo ndikufuna. Ndipo kodi moyo womwewo ndi wosiyana kwambiri ndi zomwe anthu mu "dziko lenileni" amakumana nazo?

Makolo amadzuka ndi 3 am kuti akatenthe botolo kapena kusamalira ana odwala. Omwe alibe ntchito sangakwanitse kugula nyama. Iwo omwe mikhalidwe yawo (yoti asafe) amawasungitsa kutali ndi mabanja ndi abwenzi amadziwa kuti kupatukana kumakhala kovuta. Onse popanda mwayi wowoneka achipembedzo komanso achipembedzo.

Mwina Mulungu amangokulira zomwe munthu akuchita m'mitundu yosiyanasiyana.

Ndipo ndiye mfundo yanga. Izi sizikufuna kuti ndikhale kupepesa chabe kwa mawu anga (akuwoneka ngati opangidwa). Mosiyana ndi Thomas Merton kapena St. Paul kapena otembenuka ena otchuka, sindinakhale ndi vuto lalikulu, sindinachititse khungu kutembenuka mtima, sindinasinthe kwambiri moyo kapena chikhalidwe.

Tsiku lomwe ndinamzindikira Yesu ngati Ambuye ndinali nditakhala pathanthwe pafupi ndi dziwe. Monga chisonyezo kuti Mulungu wamvera ntchito yanga yakukhulupirira Mwana wake, ndimayembekezera mabingu ndi mphezi pamadzi. Panalibe. Pakhala mabingu ochepa komanso mphezi m'moyo wanga.

Kale ndinali mwana wabwino. Kodi ziyenera kukhala zodabwitsa kwambiri kuti ndimafunafuna zabwino kwambiri, Mulungu yemweyo? Akhristu nthawi zambiri amangomvera kutembenukira kwakukuru, kopitilira muyeso kochokera ku oyera mtima. Izi zimapangitsa kuchotsa bizinesi yakukhala wabwino, kutsatira Yesu kwa wamba.

Koma Mulungu amagwira ntchito molingana ndi wamba. Vangeli imayitanira okhulupilira ku moyo wokatembenuka mosalekeza (monga akunenera a Trappists, kukambirana kwamakhalidwe). Kutembenuka kwa wamba. Kutembenuka kukhala wamba. Kutembenuka ngakhale komanso chifukwa cha wamba. Moyo wachikhulupiriro uyenera kukhala m'mitima ya munthu, kulikonse komwe kuli munthu.

Tsiku lililonse ndi mwayi kuwona Mulungu kachiwiri, kuwona Mulungu mwa anthu ena komanso munthawi ya anthu (ndipo nthawi zina osakhudzana) ndi zomwe anthu amapezeka.

Kukhala Mkristu koyamba kumatanthauza kukhala munthu. Monga Woyera Irenaeus adati, "Gloria Dei vivens homo", ulemerero wa Mulungu ndi munthu wamoyo. Akhristu sayenera kuthera nthawi yayitali kuti adziwe ngati ali ndi "mawu", ngati kuti ndi mtundu kapena chinthu chobisalira kumbuyo khutu lakumanzere. Akhristu onse ali ndi ntchito: kukhala munthu wathunthu, kukhala ndi moyo.

Sangalalani ndi moyo, khalani anthu, khalani ndi chikhulupiriro ndipo izi zidzaulula Mulungu ndi ulemerero wa Mulungu, omwe amonke kapena masisitere amayesera kuchita.

Tsiku langa lolowera ndi Meyi 31, phwando la Alendo, madyerero obwera ndi Yesu kwa ena. Pali chododometsa pamenepa, kuti paphwando loti ndipitire ena ndiyenera kulowamo, zikuwonekeratu kuti ena akutali. Koma chodabwitsa ndichakuti ndikalowa chikwama cha zovala ndimakhala pafupi ndi ena chifukwa chinsinsi cha mphamvu ya pemphero. Mwanjira inayake pemphero langa ndi pemphero la alongo anga a Trappist lidzabweretsa Yesu kwa ena.

Zowaganizira, pambuyo pa zonse, zimasiya dziko lapansi ndikungopemphereranso zabwino. Ndikupempha mapemphero anu ndipo ndikukulonjezani langa.