ZITHUNZI: Ku Medjugorje adaponyedwa pahatchi yake ... adawona AMBUYE wake

ZITHUNZI: Ku Medjugorje adaponyedwa pahatchi yake ... adawona AMBUYE wake

Zaka 22: nkhope yokoma kwambiri, tsopano onse akumwetulira, amabisa nkhani yomvetsa chisoni kwambiri. Kuchokera pakulongosola kopanda pake kumene amandipatsa za “moyo wa ziwanda” akufuna kuonetsa ukulu wa chifundo chimene Mulungu wamchitira, monga chitsanzo kwa onse oleza mtima amene akudikira ochimwa (1 Tim 1).

“Adzakuuzani mwachidule mmene Mulungu anandigwetsera pahatchi yanga panjira yopita ku Damasiko ndi kusintha moyo wanga. Sindinali msungwana wangwiro, wokumana ndi uchimo nthawi zonse. Osaphunzitsidwa kwenikweni ndi abambo anga, opitirira khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi, mosasamala kanthu, ndinadzipereka kwa mnzawo. Ndiye pa 17 kuchotsa mimba. Ndili ndi zaka 18, ndinachoka kunyumba n’kupita kukagwira ntchito ku Milan mu mafashoni. Ndipo kumeneko, pokhala msungwana wokongola, ndinalowa m'gulu la anthu olemera, ndinakumana ndi mabwalo ena ndipo, ndikufunitsitsa kukhala munthu pa TV ndi nyuzipepala, ndinayamba kukhala pakati pa anthu olemera kwambiri ku Italy. Koma kusowa kwa ntchito kumayambitsa mpikisano, ndipo kufunikira kwa ndalama kunandipangitsa kuti ndipemphe ndalama kwa abambo anga. Yankhani kokha: "Ngati mukufuna kumva bwino muyenera kubwerera ndi ine!".

Ine ndinati: Ayi! Maganizo opotoka anakula mwa ine, odzazidwa ndi kuipa kokha. Kufunika kwa ndalama kunandipangitsa kukhala ndi maloto oti ndikumane ndi mabiliyoni - atsikana ambiri anali ndi mmodzi - kukhala mbuye wake ndikukwaniritsa zikhumbo zanga zonse kuti ndikhale wodziimira payekha kwa abambo ake: ichi chikanakhala chisangalalo changa.

Mnzanga anandithandiza kulowa nawo gulu la mabiliyoni ambiri ku Europe. Ndinayamba kuchita uhule ndi munthu, poyamba sweet kenako ndinatsimikiza kundidyera masuku pamutu, ngakhale panjira. Ndinayamba ndi kunena kuti: pamene - ndapeza ndalama, zidzasiya. Koma pamene ndinkapeza ndalama zambiri, m’pamenenso ndinkawononga ndalama zambiri komanso ndinkafunika kukhala ndi anthu apamwamba. Ndinkasilira, amanditengera apa ndi apo, koma osakondwa kwambiri chifukwa ndinali wamanyazi, ndimafuna chikondi: m'malo mongokhala malo akuda, akuda, ndipo ndidadziponyera mu cocaine ndi mowa mpaka nditakwanitsa zaka 19 ..

Ndinakhala usiku ndi amuna olemera kwambiri, ochulukirachulukira kuchita uhule, ndinadzuka 1 kapena 2 masana, ndikuwonongedwa. Nditadzazidwa ndi mapilisi ogona, ndinapitirizabe kumwa, osapeza chikondi, ndimangokhalira nkhanza. + Choncho ndinawononga anthu onse komanso atsikana amene anabwera nane limodzi.

Choncho mpaka zaka 19 ndi theka, moyo wa chikwicho unali wachisoni chabe. Apa ndipamene ndinakumana ndi bilionea, yemwe ndinali naye miyezi iwiri yapitayo. Zotsatira zake, ndinasiya kuchita uhule, komabe ndinakhala usiku wonse ndi amuna olemera kwambiri padziko lonse lapansi. Ngakhale kuti mwamunayo, ndinali pachibwenzi ndi awiri kapena atatu, amene anandibwezera mphatso, miyala yamtengo wapatali, zovala. Ndipo nthawi iliyonse yomwe inachitika kwa ine, chiwonongeko chathunthu chinachitika mwa ine, m'maganizo ndi m'thupi, mpaka pamene ndinayenera kuvala chigoba ndipo, ndikudziwika ndi gawo limenelo, ndinatha kudzigonjetsa ndekha, kumwa kwambiri.

M'chaka chatha ndinali ndi 4 woona .., okonda, koma mmodzi pambuyo pa mzake atha, ndipo ndinagwa chisoni, kukhumudwa, kuvutika mpaka ndinayesera kudzipha kangapo. Ndinaganiza kuti: Mulungu wandiwawa pondichotsa mu uhule. Tsopano ndinali kufunafuna invoice wachifundo kuti ndisinthe munthu wanga, yemwe anali wopenga pang'ono; koma sindinasiye kupita kwa olosera, masewera a makadi, ndi zina, kuti ndidziwe zomwe moyo unandikonzera, chifukwa pansi pamtima ndimalakalakabe kukumana ndi mwamuna woyera kuti ndikwatirane ndikukhala ndi ana 5 kapena 6 ndikukhala kumudzi. kumidzi. Ndinali ndi mtsikana pafupi nane yemwe ngakhale ndinali mu nsapato zanga, adandichitira zabwino zopanda malire, koma ndidamuchitira zoyipa, ndinali chilombo.

Zonse kwa zaka zitatu moyo wanga unali wauchiwanda.

Ine ndekha kunalibenso. Ndinkakonda kugonana, ndalama komanso ndinkakhala pakati pa zigawenga komanso mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ndinali ndi chirichonse, ndipo kuposa chirichonse chomwe mtsikana angathe kulota. Zokhumba zanga zonse zinakwaniritsidwa, komabe moyo wanga unali wopanda pake komanso wakufa. Ndinkawoneka ngati wamwayi, koma ndinali wosimidwa kwambiri. M'maso mwa ena ndinali wanzeru komanso wopambana: kwenikweni zonse zinali zopeka. Ndinali wokhumudwa komanso wosasangalala. Motero dziko limawononga olambira ake.

21 zaka. Kwa chaka tsopano ndayamba kumva kuyitana kwa Medjugorje: panali Amayi omwe amandiyimbira foni. Decisive inali kanema wapa TV yomwe idawonedwa miyezi 6 yapitayo, zomwe zidandisangalatsa kwambiri. Ndinadzifunsa kuti: Nanenso tsiku lindifikira liti? Ndidapeza mapemphero 3 kapena 4 a Medjugorje m'buku logulidwa pamalo ogulitsira nkhani, ndipo ndidamva kufunika kowabwerezabwereza, ngakhale nditabwerako 2 kapena 3 koloko m'mawa. Ndiye miyezi 4 yapitayo ndinakangana ndi mwamuna wanga, kenako ndi wina, kenako ndi mnzanga wapamtima: Ndinawatumiza iwo onse ku dziko. Anali Winawake amene anandichotsa pang'onopang'ono kuchokera m'mbuyomo: Ndinamva kuti chinachake mkati mwanga chikusintha.

Mu Meyi ndinalankhula pafoni ndi mlongo wina wopenga, yemwe ndidamupempherera Rita Woyera ndipo, atapita ku Medjugorje, adachira. Adaumirira kuti: pitani ku Medjugorje, koma mkati mwanga mawu akubwereza: sinakwane nthawi yanu. Ndidatsimikizira wokondedwa mu nsapato zanga kuti apite ku Medjugorje: poyamba adaseka pamaso panga, koma atapita, adabwerera akuwoneka ngati mngelo: adapemphera, kulira, kukonda Mulungu ndikusiya zosangalatsa zonse. . Ndinaona kuti nanenso nthawi yafika. Ndinasalanso kudya kamodzi pamlungu. Koma ndi zopinga zingati mpaka mphindi yomaliza sindikupeza malo pa ndege, ndimakhala ndikukayikira pambuyo pake: momwe ndingasinthire zizolowezi zanga? Madzulo ndisananyamuke, ndinapita kokacheza ndi anzanga ndikuchita, ndikukhulupirira, machimo aakulu otsiriza. Pomaliza ndimachoka ndipo ku Split ndikukumana ndi gulu la achinyamata odabwitsa. Kufika ku Medjugorje usiku. Ndimakhala komweko kwa masiku atatu osadya, osagona, chifukwa palibe chomwe chimandisangalatsanso pazinthu izi.

M'mawa wa Julayi 25.
Sindikukumbukira kuti ndi liti kwenikweni, ndinayamba kulowa mu chisangalalo chamalingaliro ndi mtima: Ndinali pafupi ndi Mulungu.Mphindi 20 izi Mulungu adandipatsa chisomo kuti ndimve chikondi chake (amasunthidwa pochikumbukira) ndikundipangitsa kuwona. ndi kumva njira yake. Zomwe ndinamva panthawiyo sindinamvenso, koma zinali zokwanira kuti nditseke ndi moyo wanga wakale ndikukhala wosauka kwenikweni. Ndinapereka zonse: golidi ndi ndalama ndipo ndinatsala opanda kanthu. Kuvala bwino, kuvala zodzoladzola, kukhala wokongola, kusangalala, abwenzi, dziko m'mawu omwe ndinaganiza kuti ndiabwino: chirichonse chinatuluka mwadzidzidzi m'moyo wanga. Ilo linalibenso.

Mu mphindi 20 izi ndidamva kuti moyo wanga uyenera kukhala mwa Khristu kwa Mulungu ndi Mayi Wathu. Adanditenga mmanja mwa bambo Jozo yemwe adandivomera ndikundipangitsa kumva kukoma kwake kuti Yesu ndi amene adandikhululukira. Patapita sabata ndinabwereranso ku Medjugorje kuti ndikakhaleko kwakanthawi. Sindikunena zachisomo zomwe ndidalandira m'masiku amenewo, koposa zonse chikondi chachikulu cha pemphero, chomwe chidakhala kukumana kwenikweni ndi Yesu ndi Amayi ake, komanso kufuna kudzipatulira kwathunthu kudabadwa mwa ine pang'onopang'ono.

Kumbuyo ku Milan, ndi Yesu amene tsopano amandilondolera kumene iye akufuna, m'madera ndi m'magulu a mapemphero. Nthawi zambiri ndimamva Yesu ndi chikondi chake mpaka kudwala. Popanda pemphero sindikanathanso kukhala ndi moyo ngakhale ola limodzi. Chikondi changa pa Yesu chimakula tsiku ndi tsiku. Sindiganizira za m’tsogolo, koma ndimapempha mosalekeza kuti ndidzipereke kwa iye.” Mdyerekezi sasiya kundiyesa mwamphamvu kwambiri: osati kundipangitsa kuti ndibwerere ku moyo wanga wakale, koma kufuna, ndi zinthu zazing’ono. koma ndi zazikulu, zonditalikitsa ku ntchito yanga. Nthawi zina ndimakhala maola awiri kapena atatu akukayikira ndi zowawa: kukwatiwa ndi kukhala ndi ana? Koma nditatha kupemphera ndimamva chikondi chachikulu ndipo ndimadziuza ndekha kuti "palibe, ana kapena mwamuna angandipatse chikondi chofanana".

X., September 24, 1987

Source: Echo of Medjugorje nr. 45