IMedjugorje: "gcina kabini enkosi kwisithsaba sePater esixhenxe, uAve kunye noGloria"

UOriana uthi:
Kude kube ziinyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo, bendihlala eRoma ndabelana ngendlu noNarcisa. Sobabini sakhetha ukuba ngabadlali; iRoma, ukuvavanywa, ukutyunjwa, ukufowunelwa kwaye ngamanye amaxesha umsebenzi othile, umnqweno omkhulu "wokwenza" kodwa nomsindo kunye nenzondo kwabo "banako" ukukunika isandla, kodwa ungakhathali ngabo bonke abantu. , okanye okubi kakhulu, kwaye ngakumbi ngelishwa rhoqo, ikunika ithuba lokusebenza "ngokwendalo" kwikhabhathi yenye into, ayongxaki ukucacisa ukuba yintoni. Phakathi kwako konke oku kudideka kuhlala iminyaka emi-4, kubanda kangakanani, zingaphi iisandwich ezishiyekileyo esiswini, zingaphi iikhilomitha zomhlaba ezingenanto, zingaphi izinto ezidanisayo!

Ngomhla wamashumi amabini anesithandathu ku-Epreli: Mna noNarcisa sigoduka siye kuchitha iintsuku ezimbalwa kunye nosapho lwabo, usuka kwidolophu ekwiphondo laseAlessandria, ndivela eGenoa.
Ngenye imini uNarcisa wathi kum: “Uyazi? Ndiyahamba, ndiya eYugoslavia ”. Ndicinga ngohambo lokuphumla, kwaye ndiphendula: "Kulungile, usikelelekile wena!" "Kodwa hayi! Kodwa hayi! - Utsho ngovuyo -, akukaze uve ngeMedjugorje? "
Kwaye nam: "??? Yintoni ??? "" ... Medjugorje ... apho kubonakala khona iNenekazi lethu! UAna, umhlobo wam ovela eMilan, ufuna ukundisa eMedjugorje kwaye ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye, ulungile, ungandiva? " Mna: "Ukuva wena ndikuva, kuphela ukuba uyandicenga undinika amanani ngaphezulu kwesiqhelo".
Emva kweveki umama wakhe, ecaphuke kakhulu, uthi kum kwifowuni:
“Eli nenekazi lisekhona, uAngelo ubuyile (inkwenkwe kaNarcisa), uAnna, kwaye uhlala apho, uyaphambana! Uyaphambana! " Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa ndisazifumana ndibusvinicarmi ndihlekayo ndicinga ukuba uNarcisa usekho, uyahlanya ngubani owaziyo ukuba bangaphi abanye abantu abaphambeneyo abathi phaya kwabo Madon ...

Epreli 26: Usuku lokugqibela lokuhlala ezilalini. Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kufuneka ndibuyele eRoma ndize ndifike kuloliwe oya eGenoa. NdiseTortona, isikhululo esiphakathi, kukho iimitha ezimbalwa ukufika kololiwe oya eGenoa, iqonga ligcwele; ndibone bani? I-Narcisa! Kukhangeleka ngathi iphume nje emanzini: ikwimeko yokuphazamiseka ngokupheleleyo. Ngovuyo uthi: “Kufuneka ndithethe nawe, unditsalele umnxeba wakufika nje. Ngoku uloliwe kwaye akukho xesha, kodwa ndithembise ngento enye. Ndithembise ukuba uyakuyenza into yam, ndixelele uyakuyenza! Andisaqondi kwanto, yena oqhubeka ephindaphinda "Ndithembise ukuba uyakwenza", abantu abasijongileyo nabacinga ukuba sibalekile kwesinye isibhedlele, iintloni ziyandihlasela. Uyaqhubeka, engakhathazeki kwaye engahoyi ukugigitheka kwabo basingqongileyo.
Sika, intloko yenkunzi ekugqibeleni yathi: "Kulungile, ndiyakuthembisa ndiza kuyenza le nto !!!", ukukhanya kovuyo emehlweni kaNarcisa, otyhala irosari esandleni sam (... "Yiza, apha ngaphambili kubo bonke aba bantu, yintoni umfanekiso! ube sisidenge wena? ") kwaye uthi kum:" Inkolelo; 7 Bawo wethu; 7 Bingelela uMariya; 7 Uzuko yonke imihla kangangenyanga ”.
Ndiphantse ndalikhumbula, ndagxibha: "Yintoni ???" ", kodwa engoyiki kwaye anelisekile:" Uyithembisile ". Impempe yempempe yoololiwe eyahlulahlula kuthi, ndibonakala ngathi ndiyaphuma. UNarcisa undikhathalela ngesandla sakhe esincinci kwaye ukhwaza:
"UMl uza kuxela!"; Ndiye ndanqwala abantu abaza nam bajonge kum bahleke. Owu yam yintoni umzobo!
Ndiyithembisile, kufuneka ndisigcine isithembiso, nokuba sikrazukile phantse ngenkani, emva koko uNarcisa wathi iNenekazi lethu kule nyanga liza kunika umbulelo okhethekileyo kwabo bathandaza kuye.
… Iintsuku ziyahamba, kwaye ukuqeshwa kwam imihla ngemihla kuyaqhubeka ngaphandle kokulibala, ngenene, ngokumangalisayo iba “yinto” endiziva ndifuna ukuyenza ngokungxamisekileyo nangakumbi nokucokiswa. Andiceli, andiziceli, ndithetha nje imithandazo yam ndiyeke.
Mna noNarcisa sibuyela eRoma, kwaye ubomi busityumza kwakhona. Uhlala uthetha nam malunga neMedjugorje, ukuba mininzi imithandazo kwaye awusokoli! " ukuba zonke zilungile, ziyaqonda kwaye ziyathandana!
Iintsuku zihamba ngoku ndiyazi izinto ezininzi ngeMedjugorje, ndizivile izinto endingazange ndazazi nokuba zinokuze zenzeke, kodwa ngaphezulu kwayo yonke iNarcisa, ndiphila utshintsho olothusayo, "uyamangalisa", uya eMass, athandaze , ithi irosari kwaye ihlala irhuqa kwezinye iicawa. Amagqabi kaNarcisa, wemka eRoma kangangeentsuku ezingama-4-5 kwaye ndishiyeke ndedwa endlwini endingayithandiyo, ndinamaxhala angapheliyo omsebenzi, othando .., eyona ntlungu imbi indehlela, ukudakumba akuzange kuchaphazele : ebusuku andisalali, ndiyakhala. Iintsuku ezine ezinde zokuphanziswa ngokupheleleyo: kwaye okokuqala, okwesihlandlo sokuqala ebomini bam, ndizifumana ndicinga nzulu ngokuzibulala.
Ndihlala ndisithi ndibuthanda kakhulu ubomi, ndinabahlobo abaninzi abandithandayo nendibathandayo, umama notata "abathanda" intombi yabo ekuphela kwayo, ndifuna ukunyamalala, ndimke kuyo yonke into nakuwo wonke umntu .. Kwaye xa iinyembezi zisihla ebusweni bam bothukile, ndikhumbula ngesiquphe imithandazo endiyenzileyo yonke imihla enyangeni, kwaye ndiyakhala: “Mama, Mama waseZulwini ndincede nceda, ndincede kuba andisakwazi ukuyithatha, ndincede! Nceda! Ndincede! Ndiyacela!". Ngosuku olulandelayo ukubuya kukaNarcisa: Ndizama ukufihla ngandlela thile ukuhlazeka okukum, kwaye ngelixa ndincokola uyandixelela: "Kodwa uyazi ukuba apha kufutshane neRoma kukho indawo ebizwa ngokuba yi-S. Vittorino?".
Emva kwemini elandelayo, nge-25 kaJuni, ndise S. Vittorino. Apho omnye umntu wasixelela ukuba ukhona uBawo uGino, onokuthi mhlawumbi abe nebala kwaye uhlala "ethethelela" kwanokuphilisa. Ndibethwa ngulo mfanekiso mde nobalaseleyo kaTata uGino. Phezulu, akukho nto yenzekileyo, ukanti, kwezi yure zimbini, ndinoluvo lokuba "into" iqale ukuqhekeka, yaphuka kwaye "ivule" ngaphakathi kwam.
Sihamba sinenjongo eqinileyo yokubuya ngokukhawuleza. Emva kweentsuku ezilishumi, nge-9 kaJulayi, nge-8 kusasa, siwela okwesibini, sizolile kwaye sigcwele "umnqweno wento", isango leNenekazi lethu leFatima.
Okwangoku ndicinga ukuba kulungile kwaye kubalulekile ukuthi izinto ezimbalwa ngam: khange ndivume iminyaka eli-15 kwaye kule minyaka ili-15 ndiziphose kulo naluphi na uhlobo lokuzonwabisa kunye nokuphazamiseka, kangangokuba nge-19 ndadibana iziyobisi kunye neenkampani eziziziyatha; nge-20 (njengoko kunzima ukuthi) ukukhupha isisu; nge 21 ndabaleka ekhaya ndaza ndatshata (ngokufanayo) no "one" owandibetha iminyaka emibini, wandicinezela ngazo zonke iindlela ezinokwenzeka nangendlela onokucinga ngayo; nge-23, ekugqibeleni isigqibo sokuhamba sibuyele ekhaya kwaye, emva kweenyanga ezine zokuphazamiseka kwemithambo-luvo, ukwahlukana ngokwasemthethweni. Ndanyanzelwa ukuba ndibaleke eGenoa ngenxa yokugrogriswa ngumyeni wam wangaphambili. Phantse ekuthinjweni!

Ndicinga ukuba kubalulekile ukuveza uhlobo "lwamava" kunye "nokungcola" endikuphethe ngaphakathi kude kube lusuku oluhle kakhulu ngolwesine we-9 kaJulayi, usuku endazalwa ngalo okwesibini. Ngaphandle kwabo bonke ububi endibenzileyo kwiNkosi noMama wam waseZulwini, Baye bandithanda kakhulu. Xa ndicinga ngayo kufuneka ndilile.

Ngale ntsasa 'ndaziphosa' ngaphakathi kokuvuma, ndicinga ukuba ndihleli apho phantse iiyure ezimbini, bendigcwele ukubila kwaye ndingazi ukuba mandiqale ngaphi okanye ndizokuyithetha njani, izono zam bezininzi kwaye zinzulu! Ukuphuma kwam, ndandingakholelwa ukuba uYesu undixolele nyani yonke into, ayisiyiyo yonke into kodwa ndaziva ngaphakathi kum ukuba ewe, bekunjalo, kwaye kunjalo. Ewe bendinexesha elide lokuzohlwaya, khange ndicinge ukuba: "Kuninzi kakhulu", inene usuku nosuku kuye kwaba mnandi. Ngaloo mini ndafumana uMthendeleko emva kweminyaka engaphezulu kwe-15.
Emva kwexesha ubawo uGino usinike intsikelelo nganye kwaye amehlo am adibana nawakhe. Babuyile ekhaya, kwaye ukusukela ngobo busuku bunye ndaziva ndikhululekile; uxinzelelo, uxinzelelo, usizi lwangaphakathi, ukuphelelwa lithemba, kunye nazo zonke iimeko zam ezimbi zaziphelile.
Ewe umsebenzi uqhubekile kwaye uyaqhubeka nokundinika iingxaki, kodwa ngoku yahlukile. Icocekile ikamva elingaqinisekanga, ukuswela imali kunye nokudana okuthile kwandibhuqa phantsi kwaye kwandenza ndaziva ndonwabe kakhulu, ngoku, ngaphandle kokuba ndingaphumeleli naliphi na ilotto .., ndiyindod 'ezolile, ndizolile, andisacaphuki ndinomsindo kwakhona, kunje ngokungathi ngaphakathi nangaphandle kukho into ethambileyo nethambileyo kum ethambisa yonke into, ethambisa, endenza ndizive kamnandi, ngamafutshane. Ngaphantsi kweenyanga ezisibhozo kudlulile ukusukela nge-9 kaJulayi ngo-1987, kodwa kubonakala kum ngaphezulu. Ngoku ndizama ukuphila ubomi bobuKhristu bokwenyani, ndiyavuma inyanga nenyanga, ndiya eMass, ndithatha uMthendeleko kwaye "ndithetha" rhoqo kuYesu noMama waseZulwini. Ndiyathemba kwaye ndinqwenela ukuba sibande ngakumbi kwaye "siphilile" elukholweni kwaye ukuba uMoya oyiNgcwele ml unceda ukuphucula nokukhula.
Ndisoloko ndicinga ukubuyela kwakulo mhla, xa uNarcisa wathi "ndithembise ukukwenza" kwaye ndathi "ewe"; Ndicinga ngeentloni endandizivelela yena kunye nam, phambi kwabantu ababesijonga bemangele, kwaye endaweni yoko ndicinga ngendlela namhlanje ndifuna "ukumemeza" kwihlabathi "NDIYAWUTHANDA UMAMA WAM WOKUGQIBELA!".
Nali ibali lam, ndicinga ukuba libali elifana namanye amaninzi, afanayo ngokumangalisayo!
Ufuna ukuya eMedjugorje uyokubulela kuMama owandisindisayo; enkosi kuba andifanelanga nto endaweni yoko ndafumana yonke into; Ndiyabulela ngesi sipho, intle kakhulu, ebendingazi nokuba ikhona!

KuYesu kunye noMama waseZulwini waseMedjugorje