KWIMINYAKA engama-20: LANDELAYO KWINDAWO YOKUZONWABISA - Ukusuka kwimane eba ngumpostile
KWIMINYAKA engama-20: LANDELAYO KWINDAWO YOKUZONWABISA - Ukusuka kwimane eba ngumpostile
Olu sapho lincinci luhlala ulonwabo. Nge-11 ka-Agasti inkwenkwe eneminyaka engama-20 yafika ngexesha leVespers: yayithathile ilayisensi engaqhelekanga kumphathi:
Andikwazanga ukuhlala enkampini ngomhla wokuguquka kwam. Ndize emathekweni kunye nawe ”Kwaye ehleka, onwabile njengomntwana, ubalisa ngohambo lwakhe. Ukumamela uGianni uba ngumthandazo. Phambi konyaka ophelileyo ubomi bam yayizi-discos, abafazi - ndatshintsha enye ngokuhlwa-, ukudlala amakhadi nokusela ngaphandle kokuhlawula kuba bendihlala ndiphumelela, kwaye ndigoduka ndinxila. Ungaze ucinge ngoThixo, ungaze uthandaze. Kwaye ihlala ingazifaki kuzo zonke izimemo ezivela oomalume, ezinzulu kakhulu eMedjugorje, ukuze nam ndiye kuzo okanye ndithathe inxaxheba ngokwamaqela abo. Kwaye hayi kuwo onke amatyeli endinike ukuba ndive ngawo.
Kodwa ngenye imini ndihambile ndaya eYugoslavia, apho umnqweno wokuzonwabisa elunxwemeni undiqhubile, ngokuqinisekileyo ayisiyiyo iminqweno kaMedjugorje. Emva kothotho lwezinto ezinqumamise ukuzilibazisa kwam kwendlela kwaye kwandenza ndaziva ndinomdla, ndaye ndanesifiso esikhulu sokubaleka. Kwaye okukhona ndiqhubeka, ndandibaleka ngakumbi, ngaphandle kweengozi zeendlela ngenxa yokugcwala kwabantu: Ndabona iimoto zibhukuqekile, mna ngokwam ndichukumise iingozi ezininzi. Ukuhamba okunikezelwa emntwini kundibambezele iiyure ezimbini. Bendidiniwe kwaye kubamnyama. Emva kweMakarska kwingozi ebangele ukuguquka kwam, njengombane owenza ukuba uSawule awa kwihashe lakhe kwindlela eya eDamasko. Ngequbuliso ndafumana inqwelo yokuma phambi kwam ngasekhohlo, ngelixa iBMW yaseJamani, igqitha kuyo, yahlasela indlela yam; kwaye ngasekunene kwam amantombazana amancinci amabini abaleka asphalt. Kwenziwe ntoni? Okanye ndiziphose kwenye yeemoto okanye ngokuchasene namantombazana okugqibela elwandle (kwakungekho rhabaxa). Khange ndibenalo ixesha lokuqhekeza, kwaye ngesantya esipheleleyo, ndibethe amantombazana. Emva kwe-100 yeemitha ze-zigzag imoto yam ime: bendingenabungozi kwaye ndijikajika nentliziyo yam emqaleni wam ndibona amantombazana abaleka, onwabile, ecaleni kwendlela. Imilenze yam yayiqhaqhazela. Okwalo mzuzu ukuzithemba kwam kwawa. Kwakungekho elinye ixesha lokuzonwabisa. Apho ndaqalisa ukuthandaza. Iminyaka ndingakhange ndikwazi ukuyithetha i-Ave Maria. Ndaqala ukubhenela kuMary ukuya eMedjugorje.
Ingozi ezingakumbi: iimoto ezimbini eziseleni, enye yanditsa nje, itrakhi yandimfamekisa ndakhanyisa izibane zentloko. Wayediniwe. Ngoku kukho umnqweno omkhulu kuphela: ukufika eMedjugorje ndibuzile kodwa akukho mntu ... owaziyo ukuba uphi uMedjugorje, okanye bandenza ndahamba ngendlela engalunganga. Ndaguqukela emapoliseni ndacela uLjubuski "angabarhaneli. Ukusuka apho uye eMedjugorje wolule kufutshane. Ndafika phambi kweCawe ukuba bekusebusuku, kodwa ngovuyo olukhulu entliziyweni yam kwaye ndathi "enkosi". Akukho mntu waziyo ukuba mandingene njani kwindlu kaJelena apho iindwendwe zazindwendwe. Ndilale emotweni. Ngemini elandelayo, nge-12 ka-Agasti ndaye ndathatha iMisa e-Italiyane ngo-11 kwaye kwanyanzelwa kum ukuba ndithabathe umthendeleko. Ukuba bendicinga ngobubi obenziwe kula mantombazana, nakwabo bakholwayo, kubazali, ngekhe kube njalo ukwenza umthendeleko ngaphandle kokuvuma. Emva kweMisa ndakhangela ixesha elide kwiCawa umfundisi othanda ukundimamela; Ekugqibeleni omnye wandamkela kwisristy. Emva kwalonto, ndavuma kabini ngemini, yayilulonwabo olukhulu endaluvayo, kwaye ivumba le-cyclamen lahlala landilandela. Ndithandaze phambi kwesitixo ndabetha ivumba lamafutha. Endleleni ebuyayo ndiye ndaphawula iimpawu ezintathu ezahlukeneyo.
Ukubuya kwam e-Medjugorje kuye kwafuneka ndichebe ngayo yonke into nomntu wonke, ngoko ke ndiye ndaqala ukumamela abo babingeleli endandibahlekisa. Utata wokomoya undincedile, wandinika intetho ende malunga nesono, ndafunda ukuba ubudlelwane bokwenene bamaKristu kunye namantombazana kwakufanele ukuba yintoni. Emva kwe-11 ka-Agasti andikabi sayila rhoqo, okanye ndibukele amaphephandaba okanye iifilimu ezingamanyala. Intliziyo yam yacula. Ndithe xa ndijonga lo mnini usenyukeni ndacinga: Wena Yesu uyiphilisile intliziyo yam. Bendingaqhekeza udonga ngovuyo.
Sele ndinenyanga ezininzi ngoku. Bafi! I-10% inabazali abangaboni ngasonye okanye bayazi ukuba omnye okanye omnye unesithandwa. I-10% ibuyela ekhaya emva kwelayisensi kunye nentombazana ukuba ikhuphe isisu. Bangaphi abakholelwa ukufumana ulonwabo! Kukho abo bathatha inxaxheba kwimikhosi emnyama kwaye bape iminqamlezo ngemihla yokuzalwa nokufa, okanye baye e-bivouac engcwabeni lentombazana ebuhlungu. Zilahla iifotokopi zephepha, apho umntu amenywe ukuba afunge ukunyaniseka kuSathana kwaye akhanyele ubhaptizo olufunyenweyo: uninzi lophawu, emva koko aguquke, kodwa asebenzise iziyobisi kwaye abe nento ngaphakathi ebenza baziva bengendawo: USathana ngumphathiswa wokufa. Amagosa ayagula kwaye awasazi ukuba kufuneka enze ntoni ukuze sigule nathi. Banokubandezeleka okukhulu kwangaphakathi. Igosa lokuqala konke ukunyelisa. Bandidlulisela kwinkonzo embi kakhulu: "Enkosi Lord!", Kodwa ayisiyiyo indlela yokujongana!
Zange khe ndonwabe njengeli xesha. UYesu uyasithanda. Ndizokuya kwiqela elithandazayo ngaphandle kwendawo yokuhlala. Ukujongana neenyanga ezilishumi elinambini zenkonzo yomkhosi ngaphandle kokuthandaza akunakwenzeka. NgoMeyi ndiye ndangena kwingxaki yoxinzelelo: "Kutheni uYesu?" Ndithe. Akukho mntu uqapheleyo. Ngokholo, ndaphuma ndedwa, ndisondela kuyo yonke imihla kwiMisa nokuvuma izono. Ke ... uMaria wandinceda! Enkosi ku-Yesu ndisixhobo sokuguqula abanye abafana, kodwa bambalwa kakhulu. Ndizama ukuthetha ngoYesu kwaye ndincede wonke umntu. Ukuba umntu uthi kum: "Ndingathini na ukuba ndonwabe njengawe" "Yiya uvume" -Impendulo. Kodwa wonke umntu undinika imizekelo yababingeleli abangaqhubi kakuhle. Ewe, ayingabo bonke ababingeleli abalungileyo, kodwa ndithi kubo: “Ukuba isuntswana elinikezelwayo liyawa, uyawela kulo? Akunyanzelekanga ukuba sithethe ngabo, kodwa bathandazeleni. Kodwa umntu kufuneka alumkele ukukhetha umbingeleli oqhuba kakuhle. Ewe ikho into elungileyo kubo bonke abantu abancinci. Kuya kufuneka ulinde kwaye ucele iNkosi ukuba ikunike amagama afanelekileyo ukuba ubachukumise entliziyweni. Namhlanje bendiye ndithandaze nabazali, ukuya kwenza iVia Crucis kunye nabo. Ndonwabile, ndicaphukile. Sendikunye noluhambo lokholo unyaka. Ndiyinqwenelela konke.
Umthombo: Ithathwe kwi-Echo yaseMedjugorje