Amanye amava amancinci angaziwayo ngobukho beeNgelosi eziGcinwayo

Umama uAngelica, waseNyakatho Melika, owazalwa ngonyaka ka-1923, umseki wecandelo lokuDibana kukaYesu ngo-Eucharist, waseka ikhonkco likamabonwakude wokuqala kunye nelona cwecwe likhulu ehlabathini, waseka indlu yokushicilela yamaKatolika kunye nonomathotholo omkhulu wabucala.

Usixelela ukuba, ngengelosi yakhe egadileyo, uThixo wabusindisa njani ubomi bakhe: Andisoze ndiyilibale ingozi eyenzeke xa ndandineminyaka elishumi elinanye. Ndandihlala eCanton, eOhio, kwaye nelanga sele litshonile ilanga ndaya kwindawo enkulu ukuze ndibonise ezinye izithuba zikamama ... Njengoko ndandihamba ndisitrola esitratweni, ngequbuliso ndeva abanye abantu bekhwaza, ndaguqula intloko yam ndabona izibane zentloko. basondele kum. Ndenziwe ngamehlo okomzuzwana, emva koko ndeva izandla ezimbini zindibambile, endincedisa ukutsiba esangweni lokupaka.

Loo moto idlulise isibane esibomvu kwaye iqhubeke ngesantya esipheleleyo. Ngokuthe ngcembe ndaqala ukuqonda ukuba kwenzeke ntoni. Kwafika abantu abaninzi, bezibuza ukuba ndigxume njani esangweni. Khandiyazi. Ndafika ekhaya umama ebengemile ndingcangcazela. Wayeve ukuba ndisemngciphekweni kwaye bendiguqe ngamadolo ukuba ndithandaze kuThixo ukuba asindise ubomi bam. Kwakucacile ukuba yayiyile nto kanye yayiyaliwe nguThixo ukuba ingelosi yam yenziwe. Andisokuze ndiyilibale imvakalelo engaqhelekanga yokuphakanyiswa, ukuphakanyiswa ngokoqobo, zimbini izandla ezandincedayo ukuba ndibambe uthango ... Ukususela ngoko ndiye ndalugcina ulwalamano olusenyongweni nenge ngelosi yam. Ndimbiza ngokuba nguFidelis, gama elo ngesiLatini lithetha iFedele, kwaye ndingatsho ukuba uhlala (65).

Ingelosi ngumhlobo wethu ongenakuhlawuleka ... Ukuba ungumfundi, mcele ukuba akuncede ugxile kwiimviwo zakho ezilandelayo.

Ukuba ungummeli wentengiso, bacele uncedo ngaphambi kokuba undwendwele abathengi bakho abalandelayo.

Ukuba ungutata, cela ingelosi ebagcinayo ukuba ibakhusele kubomi babo bemihla ngemihla ...

Ukuba ngamanye amaxesha uziva unesithukuthezi, khumbula umhlobo akunikwe nguThixo. uhlala enawe. Awusoze wedwa.

Ukuba wenzekile ufuna umhlobo okuqondayo kwaye akwamkele njengoko unjalo, ukuba ubufuna ukuba nomntu osecaleni kwakho ongakhathali kukungakwazi kwakho okanye izono zakho, ukuba ufuna umntu ozokuthandazela nangayiphi na imeko, lo ngu ingelosi yakho. Unengelungelo lokugada ... Unezigidi zeengelosi ezikuthandazelayo, kwaye ingelosi egada ikukhathalele ngokukodwa, ungaze woyike (66).

Umfundisi endimaziyo ubuye wandixelela ukuba ndinembalelwano nenkolo ebonakalayo. Ngenye imini wabhala kule leta kule leta, eyayiza kuyithumela ngegumbi leerosi ngengelosi yayo. Uye waphendula wathi: Ndiyifumene le leta, ebendibhalele kuyo ukuba uza kundithumelela isipha seentyatyambo ngengelosi yakho. Kwiintsuku ezimbini kamva, ngorhatya lwepati enkulu, ndisekhitshini xa babendithuma ukuba ndibize. I-superiora yeza kudibana nam ngentyatyambo yeentyatyambo entle. Zazikhula zintsha, ngokungathi zikhethwe ngelo xesha, kwaye phakathi kwazo, kukho iindlebe zokudla okuziinkozo, ezinye zivuthile, ezinye azikho, ngendlela endandihlala ndithanda ngayo. Kwakukho iiroses ezimashumi mathathu anambini ezintle kakhulu. Umama wayengazi ukuba ngubani obathumileyo, kodwa intuitively wayecinga ukuba bangabam. Nditsho naloo dade use reception wayengazi ukuba ubathume ngabani ngoba bebeshiywe lathe ngetikiti. Ndixelele udade ukuba mabaye nabo kwigumbi likaYesu. Khange ifundwe kakuhle kwaye ndicinga ukuba yeyokwesemina, endiye ndacebisa ukuba abe ngumbingeleli olungileyo; ngaphezulu, utyikityo lwalungekho semthethweni.

Kodwa ebusuku ndafunda ngokuzola ngakumbi kwaye ndathi, "Ngudade wethu uMaria" kwaye phantsi kwayo yayisisayine. Isiginitsha esifanayo savela kwileta yakho kwaye sasifana. Umama wabathelekisa nabo wathi bafana. Ndiye ndaziqinisekisa ke ukuba nguwe owandithumela iirosi ngengelosi yakho. Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kamva ndabuza ingelosi yam eyayizise iirose yaza yathi kum: "Ingelosi kaBawo".

Iingelosi ngokungathandabuzekiyo zingelosi ezithembekileyo. Yiyo le nto kulisiko lam ukuthumela imibuliso, iintyatyambo kunye neentsikelelo ngengelosi yam, kuba ndiyazi ukuba uyasebenza kwaye wenza kakuhle kwizabelo.

Utata uGiovanni Salerno, umthunywa wevangeli omkhulu kwii-Andes ezikumazantsi ePeru kunye nomsunguli weBandla leSithathu leSizwe leNtshukumo yeNtlupheko, uzinikezele kakhulu kwingelosi yokugada kwaye ke uthetha nabantwana bakhe bokomoya: Inkedama okanye abantwana abalahliweyo zange bangcatshwe Iingelosi zazo ezingabalondolozi, ezona zidlelane zethu zilungileyo. Masingakhathali ekufundiseni abantwana ukuba kubalulekile kwaye kuhle ukwenza ubuhlobo kunye nengelosi yabo ebagcinayo ... Ngalo lonke ixesha samkela umntwana olihlwempu nowalahliweyo ekhayeni lethu, kufuneka simamkele ngokubulela ingelosi egada simzise kuthi. Ingakanani ingelosi yakhe emele ukuba yayilwa ukuze imzise kuthi! (67)

Inkolo yandibhalela le leta yile leta ilandelayo: Oko ndandisengumntwana bendihlala kufutshane nomhlobo wam omncinci: ingelosi. Ndihlala ndimthemba kwaye ndingathetha naye nangaliphi na ixesha nangayo nantoni na. Unesikhumba esikhanyayo, nebomvu ngokuthambileyo, Amehlo aluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka, ubuso obuhle, intetho evuya kunye nochwayitileyo, ononcumo oluvuselelayo. Ngamanye amaxesha kunzulu, kodwa kungaze kubande okanye kungabi buhlobo. Ineenwele ezi-blonde. Xa ethetha nam, unobuthathaka kakhulu kwaye unesidima. Amaphiko ayo acocekile, makhulu kwaye aneentsiba ezinencasa kunye nefibhi. Xa ndandimncinci, kwakubonakala ngathi unyaka umdala kunam. Ngoku ujongeka njengomfana oneminyaka eli-1819 ubudala, omde iisentimitha ubude kunam. Kodwa kwenzeka ukuba ndimbone mde kakhulu ngamaphiko akhethiweyo.

Uhlala ephendula imibuzo yam okanye andixelele ukuba ndilinde impendulo. Ngamanye amaxesha uye andibetha, nto leyo ilingana nokuphendula "ewe" kule nto ndiyibuze yona. Unxibe ingubo ende eluhlaza phantsi kweenyawo zakhe. Imikhono ibanzi. Indwangu ibonakala ilungile kwaye ithambile. Xa ehamba akabonakali ngathi uchukumisa umhlaba, kwaye wenza oko ngaphandle kokuvelisa ingxolo engathathi ntweni.

Ngomhla weKrisimesi saya kumthendeleko kwindlu yoonongendi, siphethe umfanekiso wosana onguYesu kwaye siphethe amakhandlela ezandleni. Emva koko ndabona iingelosi zoodade ezihamba nazo zikhanyise amakhandlela ezandleni. Ingelosi yam yayisecaleni kwam kwaye yayijonga kum ngesisa. Ndachukumiseka kakhulu kwaye ndandingakwazi ukuzibamba iinyembezi. Zonke iingelosi zazine-halo emile okomqala ezijikeleze iintloko zazo.

Unqulo olubhekele phaya lubhalelwe mna lusuka ePoland: Ndifumene umangaliso ngelosi yam. Bendihlala ndithanda ukupeyinta, kwaye, njengendani, ndine studio sam esincinci sokupeyinta ngaphakathi kwikonisthi. Ngomhla we-9 kaMatshi ngo-2004, nge-2 pm, ngelixa ndpeyinta, ndakhanyisa ikhandlela elincinci. Ndilibele ukuyicima ndahamba ndisiya ecakwam bendinomthendeleko weSakramente eNgcwele, esiba nayo yonke imihla ukusukela kusasa de kube ngokuhlwa. Andizange ndibuyele esifundweni kude kube nge-9,30: 7 kusasa. Ndamangaliswa kukubona ikhandlela lisakhanyisiwe, elaliphakathi kwezinto ezininzi zokupeyinta ioyile. Ndithe xa ndithatha ikhandlela ubude buziimilimitha ezi-5 nobubanzi obu-1,5. Ndicinga ukuba yayingummangaliso ngokwenene. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba yayiyingelosi yam yokugada ukundikhusela nokuphepha umlilo, kuba ndihlala ndincoma kuye ngaphambi kokuqala umsebenzi.

Omnye umphathi wandibhalela wathi: Ngolunye usuku ndicele umhlobo wam oluhlobo kwaye wenza njalo. Ndineeparots ezimbini kwaye umsebenzi wam kukuzihlamba. Kodwa babaleka kwaye banyamalala yonke intsasa. Ngenye imva kwemini babuyela esidlekeni. Aba dade bathi lo ngummangaliso. Khange ndiwuqonde ubabalo olwenziwe kum yingelosi yam.

Ngoku masibone isiqendu esasixelelwa ngumbingeleli wase-Itali Ngosuku oluhle lwentwasahlobo, wazisa isidlo kumntu ogulayo ngebhayisekile. Wayeyazi kakuhle indlela, kodwa ngequbuliso uziva elahlekile. Kwaye uyazibuza: Ndiphi? Kwenzeka ntoni kum? Ndingalahleka njani kwindlela endiyazi kakuhle? Ndiyajika ukuze ndiqiniseke ukuba ayilophupha nje kwaye ndibona indlu yelizwe. Kuphume umfazi endijonge ngamehlo othusayo. Ukundibona uqala ukukhwaza ngovuyo: Umbingeleli! Enkosi ingelosi egada, kuba indivile kwaye ndiyithumele kum! Uza kum athi: “Yiza utata, umyeni wam uyafa kwaye akayeki ukucela ukuba ngumfundisi. Ndandinqwenela ngoba andizokwazi ukumshiya yedwa kwaye andazi ukuba mandiye phi na ukuze ndikhangele umbingeleli. Ndinqwenele kakhulu ukuba abe nomfundisi, owayesoloko emala. Ndixelele ingelosi yam ukuba iqhubeke nomsebenzi wokumfuna. Kwaye kwaoko wabonakala, ngokungathi imvula ivela ezulwini. Enkosi, bawo, enkosi ”.

Emva koko ndaye ndabona ukuba ingelosi yam ivumile nayo ukuba indikhokele apho ubulungiseleli bam babungxamisekileyo. Kodwa enye into eyandothusayo yayindilindile: xa kuvulwa i-portaviatico yokunikezela umthendeleko ndothuka, ndothuka, ukuba kukho imikhosi emibini, ngelixa bendiqinisekile ukuba ndibeke enye kuphela. Ndiqokelela ndinamathele ecaleni kwebhedi yendoda eswelekayo, ophakamayo ezulwini kwimizuzwana embalwa kamva. Emva koko ndiqhubeke nohambo lwam ukuya kwindlu yesigulana endifuna ukuyindwendwela. Ngezi ntsuku zilandelayo ndeva ubukho bengelosi yam ecaleni kwam, eyayibetha yaza yandithuka ngobubele, yaphinda yathi kum: “Ungandilibali. Ndihlala ndinawe "(68).

UTata uGioacchino Hernando Calvo, umbingeleli waseCrerea endimaziyo ngokobuqu, wayephila ngesiqendu esingaqhelekanga ngengelosi yakhe. WayeseLima xa wayenengxaki yentliziyo kwaye waya e-Barcelona ukuyahlinzwa. Wayephantsi kwommese xa intliziyo yakhe yayeka ukubetha kwaye wayethathwa njengofileyo ngekliniki. Ogqirha bamgquma ke bamthumela kwi morgue. Umntakwabo waya apho, nomfundisi waseClaretian, wabona ukuba uyashukuma. Wabiza ngoko nangoko ogqirha ababuyisele kwigumbi lokuhlinzwa wasindisa ubomi bakhe. Kodwa uthi kumaxesha apho wayethathwa njengeklinikhi ufile, waziva ephuma emzimbeni wakhe wabona ingelosi yakhe imjonga ngothando olukhulu kwaye yamxelela ukuba alikafiki ixesha lakhe kwaye kufuneka abuyele ebomini ukuze asasaze iindaba Ukuzinikela kwiingelosi ezigcinayo. Yayingumsebenzi okhethekileyo awayewunikwe nguThixo. Ngapha koko, waseka umbutho wabahlobo beeNgelosi, okhoyo kwi-intanethi kwaye osasaza yonke indawo ukubaluleka kokuzinikela kwiingelosi ezigcinayo.

UPopu John Paul II wabhala: Ndizinikezele ngokukhethekileyo kwingelosi yokugada. Njengomntwana, mhlawumbi njengabantwana abaninzi, ndawuphinda lo mthandazo kaninzi: "Ingelosi kaThixo, endiyigcinayo, ndikhanyisele, ndikhusele, ndikhusele kwaye undilawule". Ingelosi endigada ndiyayazi into endiyenzayo. Ukuthembela kwam kuye, kubukho bakhe bokukhusela, ukukhula kum ngokuqhubekayo. I-St Michael, iSt. Gabriel, iSt. Raphael ziingelosi ezinkulu ezihlala ndihamba xa ndithandaza. Ndikhumbula nencoko entle kaSanta uThomas ngaphezulu kwezingelosi, imimoya emsulwa (69).