Indlela yokuziqhelanisa nokucamngca

Nika uThixo imizuzu engama-20.

Xa utata uWilliam Meninger washiya isikhundla sakhe kwiDayosisi yaseYakima, eWashington, ngo-1963, esiya kujoyina iiTrappists eSt. Joseph's Abbey eSpencer, eMassachusetts, waxelela umama wakhe, “Nanku Mama. Andiyi kuphinda ndiphume kwakhona. "

Ayisiyiyo ngqo indlela eya ngayo. Ngenye imini ngo-1974 uMeninger wasusa uthuli lwencwadi endala kwilayibrari yeemonki, incwadi eyayiza kumbeka kwindlela entsha. Incwadi yayiLifu lokuNgazi, incwadi engaziwayo yenkulungwane ye-14 yokucamngca. UMeninger uthi: "Ndimangalisiwe yindlela eyenzeka ngayo".

Waqala ukufundisa indlela eya kubabingeleli ababuyela kwi-abbey. UMeninger uthi: “Ndimele ndivume ukuba xa ndandiqala ukuyifundisa, ngenxa yoqeqesho lwam, ndandingacingi ukuba ingafundiswa kumarhamente. Xa ndithetha lento ngoku, ndineentloni. Andiyikholelwa into yokuba ndingazi nto kwaye ndisisidenge. Akuzange kuthathe xesha lide ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale ukuqonda ukuba ayisiyiyo yeemonki kunye nabefundisi kuphela, kodwa eyomntu wonke.

U-abbot wakhe, u-Father Thomas Keating, wayisasaza le ndlela; ngaye kwaziwa ngokuba "ngumthandazo ophakathi".

Ngoku eSt. Benedict's Monastery e-Snowmass, eColorado, uMeninger uthatha iinyanga ezine ngonyaka kubomi bakhe bokuzonwabisa ukuhamba ilizwe efundisa umthandazo ocingisisiweyo njengoko kubonisiwe kwilifu lokungazi.

Kwakhona wayenombono oqaqambileyo wokufundisa umama wakhe kanye ngeli xesha wayelele ebhedini yokugula. Kodwa lelinye ibali.

Kwenzeka njani ukuba ukuba ube yimonki Trappist emva kokuba ngumfundisi wedayikhos?
Bendisebenza kakhulu kwaye ndiphumelele njengomfundisi webandla. Ndakhe ndasebenza kwidayosisi yaseYakima nabantu baseMexico nabemi Bomthonyama baseMelika. Ndandingumphathi wezandla kwidayosisi, ndinoxanduva lombutho wolutsha lwamaKatolika, kwaye ngandlel 'ithile ndaziva ngathi andenzi ngokwaneleyo. Kwakunzima, kodwa ndandiyithanda. Bendingonelisekanga kwaphela, kodwa bendiziva ukuba kufuneka ndenze okungakumbi kwaye ndingazi ukuba ndingayenza phi.

Ekugqibeleni yenzeka kum: ngendingenza ngaphezulu kokungenzi nto, ndiye ndaba yiTrappist.

Uyabizwa ngokufumanisa kwakhona iLifu lokungazi kwii-70s kwaye emva koko uqalise oko kwaziwa kamva njengentshukumo yomthandazo ophambili. Ingaba yenzeke njani?
Ukufunyanwa kwakhona ligama elifanelekileyo. Ndaziqeqesha ngexesha apho ukucamngca ngomthandazo kwakungavakali. Ndandikwisikolo sabefundisi eBoston ukususela ngo-1950 ukuya ku-1958. Sasinabalawuli bokomoya bexesha elizeleyo abathathu, kwaye kwiminyaka esibhozo andizange ndive nakanye
amagama "ukucamngca ngokucamngca". Ndiyithetha ngokoqobo.

Ndaba ngumfundisi iminyaka emithandathu. Emva koko ndangena kwikhaya leemonki, iSt. Joseph's Abbey eSpencer, eMassachusetts. Njengomqali, ndaziswa kumava okucamngca.

Kwiminyaka emithathu kamva, u-abbot wam, u-Father Thomas Keating, wandixelela ukuba ndiphinde ndibuyele kubafundisi ababetyelele indlu yethu ebalekayo. Ngokwenene ibiyingozi emsulwa: Ndifumene ikopi yelifu lokungazi kwilayibrari yethu. Ndisuse uthuli ndalifunda. Ndamangaliswa kukufumanisa ukuba yayiyincwadi yesikhokelo malunga nendlela yokucamngca.

Leyo yayingeyondlela endayifunda ngayo kumzi woonongendi. Oku ndikufunde ngendlela yesiqhelo yemonikhi yento esiyibiza ngokuba yi-lectio, meditatio, oratio, i-contemplatio: ukufunda, ukucamngca, umthandazo onomdla kunye nokucamngca.

Kodwa ke encwadini ndafumana indlela elula eyayifundiseka. Ndamangaliswa nje. Ngokukhawuleza ndaqala ukuyifundisa kubefundisi ababesiza kubuyela umva. Uninzi lwabo lwaluye kwisemina enye endakha ndaya kuyo. Uqeqesho aluzange lwahluka kancinci: ukunqongophala kokuqonda kokucinga kwakukhona ukusuka koyena mdala kuye komncinci.

Ndiqale ukufundisa into endiyibiza ngokuba "ngumthandazo wokucamngca ngokweLifu lokungazi", into eyathi emva koko yaziwa ngokuba "ngumthandazo ophambili". Yaqala kanjalo ke.

Ngaba ungasitshela okuncinci malunga neLifu lokungazi?
Ndicinga ukuba bubuchule bokomoya. Yincwadi yenkulungwane ye-XNUMX ebhalwe ngesiNgesi esiPhakathi, ulwimi lwaseChaucer. Yile nto kanye eye yandishukumisela ukuba ndikhethe le ncwadi kwithala leencwadi, hayi ngenxa yomxholo wayo, kodwa ngenxa yokuba ndiluthanda ulwimi. Ndabe ndimangalisiwe kukufumanisa ukuba ithini. Ukusukela ngoko siye sanalo naliphi na inani leenguqulelo. Eyona nto ndiyithandayo kakhulu yinguqulelo kaWilliam Johnston.

Kule ncwadi imonki endala ibhalela i-novice kwaye imyalela ngokucamngca ngokucamngca. Kodwa uyabona ukuba ikukujolise ikakhulu kubabukeli.

Isahluko sesithathu sisiseko sencwadi. Eminye yingcaciso nje kwisahluko 3. Imigca emibini yokuqala yesi sahluko ithi, “Nantsi into ekufuneka uyenzile. Phakamisela intliziyo yakho eNkosini ngovuselelo luthando, umnqwenela ukulungelwa kwakhe hayi izipho zakhe. Incwadi eseleyo iyanyamalala.

Omnye umhlathi kwisahluko 7 uthi ukuba ufuna ukuthatha wonke lo mnqweno kaThixo kwaye uwushwankathele kwigama elinye, sebenzisa igama elilula elinelinye, njengo "Thixo" okanye "thanda", kwaye mayibe luphawu lothando lwakho. kuThixo kulo mthandazo ucinga. Lo ngumthandazo ophakathi, ukusuka ekuqaleni kuye esiphelweni.

Ngaba ukhetha ukuwubiza ngokuba ngumthandazo okanye umthandazo ocingisisayo?
Andiwuthandi "umthandazo ophakathi" kwaye kunqabile ukuba ndiwusebenzise. Ndikubiza ukuba kukucamngca ngokweLifu lokuNgazi. Awunakuyiphepha ngoku: ibizwa ngokuba ngumthandazo ophakathi. Ndincamile. Kodwa kubonakala ngathi kuyakhohlisa kum.

Ngaba ucinga ukuba abantu abangazange benze olu hlobo lomthandazo balambile, nangona bengakwazi?
Uyilambele. Uninzi sele lwenzile ukufunda, ukucamngca kunye ne-oratio, umthandazo onomdla-umthandazo ngeveve ethile, amandla okomoya avela kukucamngca kwakho, okuvela kwi-lectio yakho. Kodwa khange baxelelwe ukuba kukho inyathelo elilandelayo. Eyona mpendulo ixhaphakileyo endiyifumanayo xa ndibambe indibano yokuthandaza egxile kwiparishi yile: "Bawo, besingazi, kodwa besiyilindile."

Jonga le oratio kwizithethe ezininzi ezahlukeneyo. Ukuqonda kwam kukuba i-oratio ngumnyango wokucamngca. Awufuni kuma embundwini. Ufuna ukuhamba ngayo.

Ndinamava amaninzi ngale nto. Umzekelo, umfundisi wecawa yamaPentekosti usandula ukurhoxa kwimonki yakhe e-Snowmass, eColorado. Ishumi elinesixhenxe leminyaka ubudala umalusi, indoda engcwele ngokwenyani, wayenengxaki kwaye engazi ukuba enze ntoni. Into awayeyithetha kum yayikukuba, "Bendixelela umfazi wam ukuba andisenakuthetha noThixo. Ndithethe noThixo kangangeminyaka eli-17 kwaye ndikhokele abanye abantu."

Ngokukhawuleza ndakuqonda oko kwenzekayo. Indoda yayinqumle umda kwaye yayikukuthula cinga. Wayengayiqondi. Kwakungekho nto kwisithethe sakhe eyayinokumcacisela oku. Icawe yakhe, yonke iyathandaza ngeelwimi, idanisa: konke kulungile Kodwa bayalela ukuba uqhubeke.

UMoya oyiNgcwele akahoyi kangako kweso sithintelo kwaye wazisa le ndoda emnyango.

Ungaqala njani ukufundisa umntu onje ngomthandazo wokucamngca?
Lo ngomnye wale mibuzo unje, “Unemizuzu emibini. Ndixelele yonke into ngoThixo. "

Ngokubanzi, landela imiyalelo yeLifu. Amagama "umxube oswiti wothando" abalulekile, kuba le yeyona oratio. Iintsomi zaseJamani, abasetyhini abanjengoHildegard waseBingen kunye noMechthild waseMagdeburg, bayibiza ngokuba "kukubanjwa ngobundlobongela". Kodwa ngexesha lokufika eNgilane, yayisele "ingumxube oswiti wothando".

Uyiphakamisela phi intliziyo yakho kuThixo ngovuselelo olumnandi lothando? Kuthetha: ukwenza isenzo sokuthanda uThixo.

Yenza kuphela ukuya kuthi ga kwinqanaba elinokwenzeka: thanda uThixo ngenxa yakhe hayi ukuthanda kwakho. Yayingu-St. Augustine waseHippo owathi-thetha ngolwimi lwe-chauvinist-zintathu iintlobo zamadoda: kukho amakhoboka, kukho abarhwebi kwaye kukho nabantwana. Ikhoboka liya kwenza into ngenxa yoloyiko. Umntu unokuza kuThixo, umzekelo, kuba esoyika isihogo.

Okwesibini ngumrhwebi. Uzakuza kuThixo kuba enze isivumelwano noThixo: "Ndiza kuyenza le nto kwaye uya kundithatha undise ezulwini". Uninzi lwethu ngabarhwebi, utsho.

Kodwa owesithathu uyacamngca. Lo ngunyana. "Ndiya kuyenza ngenxa yokuba ufanele ukuthanda." Ke uyiphakamisela intliziyo yakho kuThixo ngovuselelo olumnandi lothando, umnqwenela ngenxa yakhe hayi ngezipho zakhe. Andikwenzi oku ukuthuthuzela okanye uxolo endilufumanayo. Andenzi oku ngoxolo lwehlabathi okanye ukunyanga umhlaza ka-Anti Susie. Konke endikwenzayo kungenxa yokuba uThixo kufanelekile ukuba athandwe.

Ngaba ndingayenza ngokugqibeleleyo? Hayi, ndiyenza ngeyona ndlela ibalaseleyo. Yiyo yonke into endimele ndiyenze. Ke bonisa olo thando, njengoko isahluko 7 sisitsho, ngegama lomthandazo. Umamela loo mthandazo njengomboniso wothando lwakho kuThixo.Ndikucebisa ukuba uyenze imizuzu engama-20. Nantsi.

Yintoni ebalulekileyo kwigama lomthandazo?
Ilifu lokungazi lithi, "Ukuba unqwenela, ungayenza loo nto ngelizwi lomthandazo." Ndiya yidinga. Ndicinga ukuba, ingcwele njengokuba injalo, ukuba ndiyayifuna, ngokuqinisekileyo uyayidinga [ehleka]. Ngapha koko, ndithethe nabantu abalishumi elinambini kuphela, kumawaka endiwafundisileyo, abangaswele lizwi lomthandazo. Ilifu lithi, "Le yindlela yokuzikhusela kwiingcinga ezingabonakaliyo, ukuzikhusela kwakho kwisiphazamiso, into onokuyisebenzisa ukubetha isibhakabhaka."

Abantu abaninzi badinga into yokuqonda. Kuyanceda ukungcwaba iingcinga eziphazamisayo.

Ngaba kufuneka uthandaze uzenzele ezinye izinto, njengoxolo lwehlabathi okanye umhlaza ka-Aunt Susie?
Ilifu lokungazi linyanzelisa kakhulu koku: ukuba uthandaze. Kodwa uyanyanzelisa ukuba ngexesha lokucamngca kwakho, awwenzi. Uthanda nje uThixo kuba uThixo ulufanele uthando. Kufuneka ubathandazele abagulayo, abafileyo njalo njalo? Ngokuqinisekileyo uyakwenza.

Ngaba ucinga ukuba ukuthandaza kubaluleke kakhulu kunokuthandazela iimfuno zabanye?
Ewe Kwisahluko 3 Ilifu lithi, "Olu hlobo lomthandazo luyamkholisa uThixo kunalo naluphi na olunye uhlobo, kwaye lulunge ngakumbi ecaweni, kwimiphefumlo yentlambululo-miphefumlo, kubavangeli kunayo nayiphi na enye indlela yokuthandaza." Uthi "Nangona usenokungaqondi ukuba kutheni."

Ngoku uyabona, ndiyasiqonda isizathu, ngoko ndixelela abantu ukuba kutheni. Xa uthandaza, xa ufikelela kuwo onke amandla akho okuba umthande uThixo ngaphandle kwesizathu, emva koko wamkela uThixo, onguThixo wothando.

Njengoko usamkela uThixo, wamkela konke ukuthanda kukaThixo. Yintoni uThixo ayithandayo? UThixo uthanda yonke into eyadalwa nguThixo. Yonke into. Oku kuthetha ukuba uthando lukaThixo luyelela kumda opheleleyo wendalo engenasiphelo esingakwaziyo nokuyiqonda, kwaye uThixo uthanda iathom nganye yayo kuba wayidala.

Awungekhe uthandaze ngokucingisisa kwaye ngabom, ubambelele kwintiyo okanye uxolelo lomntu omnye. Kukuphikisana okucacileyo oko. Oku akuthethi ukuba uxolele ngokupheleleyo lonke ulwaphulo olunokwenzeka. Oko kuthetha, nangona kunjalo, ukuba ukwinkqubo yokwenza.

Wenza ngokuzithandela ukuyenza kuba awunakumthanda uThixo ngaphandle kokuthanda wonke umntu owakhe wajongana naye. Akunyanzelekanga ukuba uthandaze nakubani na ngexesha lomthandazo wakho wokucingisisa kuba sele uwamkela ngaphandle komda.

Ngaba kubaluleke ngakumbi ukuthandazela umakazi uSusie okanye kubaluleke ngakumbi ukuthandazela konke ukuthanda kukaThixo- ngamanye amagama, indalo?

Abantu abaninzi mhlawumbi bathi, "Andinakuhlala phantsi ixesha elide."
Abantu basebenzisa intetho yamaBhuda, "Ndinengqondo yenkawu". Ndiyifumana kubantu abaye baziswa kwiziko lomthandazo kodwa bengengabo ootitshala abalungileyo, kuba ayiyongxaki leyo. Ndixelela abantu ekuqaleni kwesemina ukuba ndiza kuqinisekisa ukuba ingxaki izakusombululwa ngemiyalelo embalwa elula.

Inqaku kukuba akukho kucamngca okugqibeleleyo. Kudala ndiyenza iminyaka engama-55, kwaye ndiyakwazi ukuyenza ngaphandle kwengqondo yenkawu? Ngokuqinisekileyo akunjalo. Bendihlala ndaphazamisa iingcinga ngalo lonke ixesha. Ndiyayazi indlela yokujongana nabo. Ukucamngca ngokuphumelelayo kukucamngca ongashiyanga. Akunyanzelekanga ukuba uphumelele, kuba ngokwenyani awusoze uphumelele.

Kodwa ukuba ndizama ukuthanda uThixo kangangesithuba semizuzu engama-20 okanye nokuba leliphi ixesha lam, ndiyimpumelelo. Awunyanzelekanga ukuba uphumelele ngokweengcinga zakho zempumelelo. Ilifu lokungazi lithi: "Funa ukuthanda uThixo". Ke uthi, "Kulungile, ukuba kunzima kakhulu, yenza ngathi uzama ukuthanda uThixo." Ngokukrakra, ndiyayifundisa.

Ukuba iikhrayitheriya zakho zempumelelo "luxolo" okanye "ndiyalahleka kwisithuba", akukho nanye kula msebenzi. Indlela yokubaluleka yempumelelo yile: "Ndizamile okanye ndizenzile ngathi ndiyazama?" Ukuba ndenzile, ndiyimpumelelo iyonke.

Yintoni ekhethekileyo malunga nexesha elimisiweyo lama-20?
Xa abantu beqala, ndicebisa ukuba ndizame imizuzu emi-5 okanye eli-10. Akukho nto ingcwele malunga nemizuzu engama-20. Ngaphantsi koko, unokuba yintlekisa. Ngaphezu koku kunokuba ngumthwalo ogqithisileyo. Kubonakala ngathi yindawo eyonwabileyo. Ukuba abantu baneengxaki ezingaqhelekanga, baphelile ziingxaki zabo, Ilifu lokuNgazi lithi: “Nikezela. Lala phambi koThixo, ukhale; ”Guqula umthandazo wakho uye ku" Uncedo ". Ngokukrakra, le yinto ekufuneka uyenzile xa uphelile kukuzama.

Ngaba ikho indawo elungileyo yokwenza umthandazo ocamngcayo? Ngaba ungayenza naphi na?
Ndihlala ndisithi ungayenza naphi na, kwaye ndinokuxela kumava, kuba ndiyenzile kwiindawo zokugcina iibhasi, kwiibhasi zeGreyhound, kwiinqwelomoya, kwizikhululo zeenqwelo moya. Ngamanye amaxesha abantu bathi, “Ewe, awuyazi imeko yam. Ndihlala kanye embindini, iitroli ziyadlula nayo yonke ingxolo. “Ezo ndawo zilungile njengokuthula kwecawa yeemonki. Ngapha koko, ndingathi eyona ndawo imbi kakhulu yokwenza le icawe yeTrappist. Iibhentshi zenzelwe ukuba usokole, hayi ukuthandaza.

Umyalelo wodwa obonelelwa lilifu lokungazi uthi: "Hlala kamnandi". Ke, ungakhululekanga, nkqu nangamadolo akho. Inokufundiswa ngokulula indlela yokungenisa ingxolo ukuze zingaphazamisi. Ithatha imizuzu emihlanu.

Ufikelela ngokomfanekiso ukuze wamkele yonke loo ngxolo kwaye uyithwale ngaphakathi njengenxalenye yomthandazo wakho. Awulwi, yabona? Iba yinxalenye yakho.

Umzekelo, kanye eSpencer, bekukho imonki encinci eyayinzima ngokwenene. Ndandiphethe iimonki ezincinci kwaye ndacinga, "Le nkwenkwana ifuna ukuphuma ezindongeni."

Abazalwana beRingling kunye neBarnum kunye neBailey Circus babeseBoston ngelo xesha. Ndaya ku-abbot, uTata uThomas, ndathi, "Ndifuna ukuthatha uMzalwana uLuka esekisini." Ndimxelele ukuba kutheni kwaye, i-abbot elungileyo, wathi: "Ewe, ukuba ucinga ukuba yile nto kufuneka uyenze".

Mna noMzalwan 'uLuke sahamba. Safika kwangethuba. Besihleli embindini womqolo kwaye wonke umsebenzi uqhubeka. Kwakukho amaqela awayevulelekile ngaphakathi, kwaye kukho iindlovu ezazindlovu, kwaye kwakukho ii-clown ezivuthela iibhaluni kunye nabantu abathengisa iipopcorn. Sihleli embindini womgca sacamngca imizuzu engama-45 ngaphandle kwengxaki.

Ngethuba nje ungaphazanyiswa ngokwasemzimbeni, ndicinga ukuba zonke izihlalo zilungile. Nangona, kufuneka ndivume, ukuba ndisiya esixekweni, isixeko esikhulu kwaye ndifuna ukucamngca, ndiza kuya kwicawa ekufuphi ye-Episcopal. Andizukuya kwicawa yamaKatolika njengoko kukho ingxolo eninzi kunye nomsebenzi. Yiya kwicawa yoobhishophu. Akukho kwaye baneebhentshi ezithambileyo.

Kuthekani ukuba ulala?
Yenza into ethethwa lilifu lokungazi: Ndiyabulela kuThixo, kuba ungakhange ulale phantsi, kodwa uyakudinga, ke ngenxa yoko wasinika isipho. Konke okwenzayo kukuba, xa uvuka, ukuba imizuzu engama-20 ayikapheli, ubuyela kumthandazo wakho kwaye yayingumthandazo ogqibeleleyo.

Abanye bathi ukuthandazela okucingelwayo kuphela kwenzelwa oonongendi kunye noonongendi kwaye abantu abafane babanexesha lokuhlala phantsi benze oku.
Linyala. Kuyinyani ukuba ii-monasteries yindawo apho kugcinwe khona umthandazo wokucamngca. Ngokwenyani, nangona kunjalo, ikwalondolozwe linani elingapheliyo labantu abangabhalanga ncwadi kwi-theology eyimfihlakalo.

Umama wam yenye yezi. Umama wam ebecinga kwakudala ngaphambi kokuba eve ngam, nokuba bendifundisa njani ngomthandazo. Kwaye ebeyokufa angaze athethe nelizwi nakubani na. Kukho abantu abaninzi abayenzayo. Ayipheleli kwizindlu zoonongendi.

Ufumanise njani ukuba umama wakho wayecinga?
Into yokuba xa wasweleka eneminyaka eyi-92, wayesele esebenzise iirosari ezine. Xa wayeneminyaka engama-85 kwaye egula kakhulu, i-abbot yandivumela ukuba ndimtyelele. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuba ndizokufundisa umama umthandazo wokucamngca. Ndihleli ecaleni kwebhedi ndambamba ngesandla. Ndacacisa ngobumnene ukuba yintoni. Wandijonga wathi, "Sithandwa, ndiyenze le nto iminyaka." Bendingazi ukuba mandithini. Kodwa akukho ngaphandle.

Ngaba ucinga ukuba yinyani kumaKatolika amaninzi?
Nditsho njalo.

Ngaba wakhe weva ngoThixo?
Ndinqwenela ukuba ndingayeka. Ngenye imini ndandifihla uluntu lwaseKarmele. Oonongendi babesiza, nganye nganye ukuza kundibona. Ngaxa lithile lwavuleka ucango kwaza kwangena elixhegwazana, liphethe intonga, ligobile - alikwazi nokujonga phezulu. Ndafumanisa ukuba wayeneminyaka engama-95. Ndilinde ngomonde. Njengokuba wayeqhwalela egumbini, ndaziva ngathi lo mfazi uzokuprofetha. Andizange ndibenayo ngaphambili. Ndacinga, "Lo mfazi uza kuthetha nam egameni likaThixo." Ndilinde nje. Watshona kabuhlungu esitulweni.

Wahlala apho umzuzu. Emva koko wajonga phezulu wathi, “Bawo, yonke into ilubabalo. Yonke into, yonke into, yonke into. "

Sihleli apho imizuzu eyi-10, siyifunxa. Oko ndaye ndayikhupha. Oku kwenzeka kwiminyaka eli-15 eyadlulayo. Esi sisitshixo sayo yonke into.

Ukuba ufuna ukuyibeka ngolu hlobo, eyona nto ikhe yenzeka yayingumntu owabulala unyana kaThixo, yayilelona lubabalo lubalaseleyo.