Ukuzinikela kuMadonna: Ndiphinde ndabuya kwakhona ndibulela uMaria

Q. Ungubani kwaye uvela phi?
R. Igama lam ndinguNancy Lauer, ndingowaseMelika kwaye ndivela eMelika. Ndineminyaka engama-55, ndingumama wabantwana abahlanu kwaye ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ubomi bam buyeyona ntlungu. Ndityelele izibhedlele ukusukela ngo-1973, ndenza utyando oluninzi kwaye olunzima: omnye esinqeni, omnye emqolo, amabini esinqeni. Ndandihlala ndiphethwe ziintlungu emzimbeni wam wonke, kwaye phakathi kwezinye izinto ezimbi zomlenze wam wasekhohlo wawumfutshane kunasekunene ... Kwiminyaka emibini ephelileyo ukudumba kwavela nokujikeleza izintso lasekhohlo okwandibuhlungu kakhulu. Ndandinomntwana onzima: ndisengumntwana bandidlwengula beshiya inxeba elinganyangekiyo emphefumlweni wam kwaye oku ngasihlandlo sithile bekuya kukhokelela ekuweni komtshato wam. Oonyana bethu babandezeleka yiyo yonke le nto. Ukongeza, kufuneka ndivume into endineentloni ngayo: ngenxa yeengxaki ezinzima zosapho endingenakufumana indlela yokuphuma, ndizinikezela, okwexeshana, notywala ... Nangona kunjalo, mva nje ndakwazi ukoyisa ubuncinci obu bunzima.

Q. Uthathe njani isigqibo sokuza eMedjugorje ekwimeko enje?
A. Uluntu lwaseMelika lwalulungiselela uhambo olundilisekileyo kwaye ndandikulangazelela kakhulu ukuthatha inxaxheba, kodwa amalungu osapho lwam ayandichasa kwaye andivume ngezizathu ezivakalayo. Ke andizenzanga msistito. Kodwa kumzuzu wokugqibela umhambi wanduluka kwaye mna, ngemvume yosizi yosapho lwam, sathatha indawo yakhe. Kukho into enditsalele kuyo ngaphandle kokuthambeka apha, kwaye ngoku, emva kweminyaka elithoba, ndihamba ngaphandle kwendlela. Ndaphola.

Q. Kwenzeka njani?
R. ON 14.9.92 kancinci ngaphambi kokuba iRosary iqale, ndenyuka ndaya kunye nabanye kwiqela lam, kwaya kwecawa ... Sithandazile .. Ekugqibeleni xa umbono uIvan waguqa waqalisa ukuthandaza ndaziva iintlungu. womelele emzimbeni kwaye nangobunzima ndakwazi ukwala ukukhwaza. Ngayiphi na imeko, ndiye ndaphuma ndisiya kwenza ukuba ndibone ukuba uLwethu wayekhona kwaye andizange ndiqaphele ukuba uhlelo lokusebenza luphelile kwaye u-Ivan sele evukile. Ekugqibeleni bathi masiphume kwikwayala endifuna ukuyithatha i-crutches kodwa ngequbuliso ndeva amandla am emilenzeni yam. Ndibambe iintonga, kodwa ndaphakama. Xa ndandiqala ukuhamba ndaqonda ukuba ndingakwazi ukuqhubeka ngaphandle kwenkxaso nangaphandle koncedo. Ndaya endlini apho bendihlala khona, ndenyuka ndenyuka ndisiya egumbini lam kungekho nzame. Ukuthetha inyani, ndaqala ndatsiba ukudanisa ... Kuyamangalisa, bubomi obutsha! Ndilibele ukutsho ukuba ngexesha lokuphola ndaphinda ndamisa ukuqhwanyaza ngalo mlenze umfutshane .., andizikholelwa, ndacela umhlobo wam ukuba andibukele xa ndihamba, watsho ke eqinisekisa ukuba andizukuphinda ndibengu. Ekugqibeleni, ukudumba okujikeleze izintso lasekhohlo kwanyamalala.

D. Ngelixesha mzuzu uthandaze njani?
R. Ndithandaze ngale ndlela: “Madonna ndiyazi ukuba uyandithanda kwaye nam ndiyakuthanda. Undincede ndenze ukuthanda kukaThixo.Ndikwazi ukujamelana nokugula kwam, kodwa undinceda ukuba ndihlale ndiyilandela intando kaThixo. Ke, xa ndandingazi ukuba ndaphiliswa kwaye iintlungu ziyaqhubeka, ndafumana umbandela othile endiya kuwuchaza njengemeko yothando olugqibeleleyo ngoThixo kunye neNtombi Enyulu. ..ndiye ndazimisela ukunyamezela naziphi na iintlungu ngelixa ndigcina le meko.

Q. Ulibona njani ikamva lakho ngoku?
Okokuqala, ndiza kuzinikezela emthandazweni kwaye emva koko ndicinga ukuba umsebenzi wam wokuqala kukungqina uthando olunenceba lukaThixo kubo bonke. Into eyenzekileyo kum yinto emangalisayo kwaye emangalisayo. Ndiqinisekile ukuba lo mmangaliso uza kunceda nosapho lwam ukuba luguqukele, lubuyele emthandazweni kwaye luphile ngoxolo. Ubunzima beCroatia buye bandibetha kakhulu kwezi ntsuku. Andizange ndibone abantu abaninzi beemeko ezahlukeneyo zentlalo kunye nobudala bethandaza kwaye becula kunye ngamandla. Ndiqinisekile ukuba abantu abangabakho banekamva eliqaqambileyo. Ndizokuthandazela, yinto endinokuyenza kwezi ntsuku zinzima kwaye ndiza kuyenza ngokuzithandela nangokusuk 'entliziyweni. (...)