Emva kwengozi ngokungakholwayo uyitshintsha ingqondo "ndibone ubomi emva kokufa"
Eli bhinqa libalisa amava alo angaphandle komzimba ngexesha lentlekele eTucson
U-Lesley Lupo usweleke imizuzu eyi-14 emva kokunyathelwa ngamahashe "ndatsiba ngaphandle komzimba wam uye wema malunga ne-15 yeemitha."
Ngaba ukhe wanamava aphantse abulala? Ngaba ukhe wabubona ubomi bakho buvutha phambi kwamehlo akho okanye amava angaphandle komzimba?
Kwiminyaka engama-31 eyadlulayo, uLesley Lupo wasweleka kangangemizuzu eli-14 emva kokunyathelwa ngamahashe, kodwa kwenzeka loo nto kwimizuzu eli-14 apho abantu abaninzi kunzima ukukholelwa, kuba ayinguye wonke umntu onamava aphantse abulala.
"Ndatsiba ndiphuma emzimbeni wam ndamisa malunga neenyawo ezili-15, kwaye oku kuyamangalisa kum ngoba bendingenalo utyekelo lokomoya, utshilo uWolf, obhale incwadi" Yonke imiphefumlo ixabisekile. "
Yayingamava angaphandle komzimba kuWolf oneminyaka engama-36 ubudala, xa wanyathelwa ngamahashe angaphezu kwesibhozo kwifama yaseTucson.
Andiqondi ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni. Ndothuswe nje, ”utshilo uWolf. “Kwaye emva koko, malunga nemizuzwana eli-10, ndabona elinye lamahashe likhwaza, wonke umntu ebalekile, kwaye ndimangalisiwe yile nto kwaye ndaphantse ndacotha, uyazi. Ndaguquka, ingalo yam ihamba ngokungxama, amahashe abaleka, kodwa ngoku ndiyarhola, ndizama ukusukuma ezinyaweni zam, ndikhwaza. "
UWolf akazange azive zintlungu. Ichaza imvakalelo yokuzinza, ngaphandle kwentlungu emzimbeni awayeziva ngayo.
"Ukuba umntu ebendijonge ngela xesha, ngebengatsho ukuthi, oh thixo wam, ubabekeka kabuhlungu, kwaye khange ndibesokola ngoba andimvanga, utshilo uWolf. “Amahashe ayendibetha kwaye ekugqibeleni umzimba wam waqhekeza esiseleni kwaye wawukhukile, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ndifile, kuphele. Ndiqalise ukungcungcutheka. Ndijonge ngocingo xa uthuli luhleli.
Njengoko abantu babekhawuleza ukuya kwicala likaLupo ukuya kumnceda, wayefumana obunye ubukumkani. Uyibiza ngokuba "ngumgangatho ophezulu", kwaye kubantu abaninzi, inokuba lizulu.
KuLupo, owayengakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo, yayisiphithiphithi.
“I-Tucson sele iqalile ukubila, utshilo uLupo. "Iqale-intshukumo ejikeleze kum, ngequbuliso, ndiye ehlathini. Kwakungathi ihlathi lom-oki elinomlambo emva kwam, kwaye kukho iiferms kunye nemousse, kwaye kakhulu, kunqabile, kunye nokuzola endaziva eMhlabeni xa ndizibukela xa ndisiya emzimbeni wam. Kwakungathi ndikhulula ibhanti yomzimba enobukhulu obukhulu kwaye ndiyiphose phezu kwebhedi. Kwakungathi ndiyeza. "
UWolf wakhumbula ukudibana nabantu angazange abonane nabo, kodwa abanye abantu baye baxela ukubona izalamane zabo abangasekhoyo ababekhe badibana nazo, bengazange beve nangemicimbi.
“Oku kungangqinwa ngokuhamba nokufumana ulwazi kwaye ukuba umntu lowo udlulile ngaphambi kokuba lo mntu abe namava kwaye aziva ukuba udibene naye kumava abo. Le yimbono eyinyani (ic), utshilo uChuck Switzerlandrock, nombutho wamazwe angaphandle woFundo olukuFa.
Amava kwakungekho lula ukubuyela kuwo. UWolf uthe uzive enesithukuthezi. Kumnye, bekunzima ngokwasemzimbeni kunye nokuqaqanjelwa, kuba kwakungekho mntu uyikholelwayo.
"Yayiluhambo lwam ukuya kwigumbi eliphezulu kwaye ndifuna ukuthetha ngalo nomntu wonke," utshilo uWolf. “Ewe, ugqirha wam ucinga ukuba ndiyathandabuza. Khange ndibenampendulo kwiziyobisi kwaye bendingelilo ikhoboka leziyobisi. Nakwezinye iicawa, akukho mntu ufuna ukuva ngayo, nokuba ungathi ewe, ndiyazi ngezulu, ndikhona, kuba wonke umntu ukuphatha ngathi uyaphambana. "
Kwiminyaka emininzi, abantu babecinga ukuba kukugula ngengqondo okanye ukubona izinto ezithile, kodwa xa abantu bejonga kwiimpawu zala mabini, kukho amanqaku afanayo. Nangona kunjalo, xa ujonga kwiimpawu zokugula ngengqondo kunye namava asondele ekufeni, akukho ndawo eqhelekileyo.
Umzekelo, inkumbulo yamava icacile kwaye ayitshintshi ekuhambeni kwexesha. Ngokwenyani, ngamanye amaxesha, kunokuba yinto yokuzama ukumamela umvavanyi athethe zonke ezo nkcukacha, kuba njengoko beqala ukukwazi ukuyaba okwesihlandlo sokuqala ukufumana ukuqinisekiswa, iinkcukacha kubo kukuqinisekiswa kwamava. kwaye kokukhona bezikhumbula ezo zinkcukacha, ngoko bahlala nazo rhoqo. Ngokuthathela ingqalelo ukuba unoluvo okanye ukuphoxeka, ezo zinto ziya kuphela ngeentsuku neeyure kwaye abanakukhumbula ibali elinye kabini, utshilo uSwedrock.
Ayililo ililo kuphela umntu onamava oku. Ngapha koko, izigidi zabantu kwihlabathi liphela baye babelana ngamabali abo. Nokuba banamava angaphandle komzimba, babone ubomi babo buqhakaza phambi kwamehlo abo okanye sele befikile kwabanye obukumkani emva kokubhubha, kungenzeka ukuba kukho enye into engaphezulu.
Ukuba nabani na ufuna ukucinga ukuba akukho nto, cinga ngayo. Olu lonyulo lakhe, utshilo uWolf. Andinakuphinda ndibuyele apho.