Unyango olungachazwanga lukaSilvia Busi eMedjugorje
Igama lam ndinguSilvia, ndineminyaka engama-21 ubudala kwaye ndivela ePadua. Ngomhla we-4 Okthobha 2004 xa ndandineminyaka eli-16 ubudala, ndafumanisa ukuba, kwiintsuku nje ezimbalwa, ndingasakwazi ukuhamba kwakhona kwaye ndanyanzelwa ukuba ndihlale kwisitulo esinamavili. Zonke iziphumo zovavanyo lweklinikhi zazingenantsingiselo, kodwa kwakungekho mntu waziyo ukuba ndiza kuphinda ndihambe nini kwakhona. Ndingumntwana okuphela kwakhe, bendinempilo eqhelekileyo, bekungekho mntu ulindeleyo ukuba atyhubele amaxesha anzima kwaye abuhlungu. Bazali bam bendihlala ndithandaza ndicela uncedo luka Lwethu ukuze angasishiyi yedwa kwelilingo libuhlungu. Kwiinyanga ezilandelayo, nangona kunjalo, ndaye ndisiba mandundu, ndaye ndaphelelwa ngumzimba kwaye ndaqala ukubanjwa. Malunga noJanuwari umama waqhakamshelana nomfundisi owayelandela iqela lomthandazo elalizinikele kakhulu kwintokazi yethu, kwaye ngolwesiHlanu sonke sobathathu saya eRosary, Mass kunye nasekudunyisweni. Ngenye ingokuhlwa nje phambi kwe-Ista, emva kwenkonzo, inenekazi elithile lafika laza labeka indondo yeMadonna ezandleni zam, indixelela ukuba yayisikelelekile ngexesha lenkqubo eMedjugorje, yayinayo kuphela, kodwa ngalo mzuzu ikholelwe. ukuba ndiyifuna ngaphezu kwakhe. Ndiyithathile kwaye kwakamsinya nje ukuba ndifike ekhaya ndayibeka ecaleni komqala wam. Emva kweholide ndiye ndafowunela inqununu yesikolo sam ndaye ndafumana iinkqubo zeklasi endandisiya kuyo, isikolo sesithathu esiphakamileyo kwisayensi kwaye kwiinyanga zika-Epreli nangoMeyi ndafunda. Ngenyanga kaMeyi, ngalo mzuzu, abazali bam baqala ukundithatha yonke imihla ukuya kwiRosary nakwi-Mass eNgcwele. Ekuqaleni ndaziva ngathi lunyanzelekile, kodwa ke ndiye ndaqala ukufuna ukuhamba nam ngoba xa ndikhona ndithandazile ndafumana intuthuzelo kwimbambano ebangelwa kukungakwazi ukwenza izinto ezifana nabanye abafundi.
Kwisiqingatha sokuqala sikaJuni ndaye ndithatha iimviwo esikolweni, ndadlula kuzo, nge-20 kaJuni xa ugqirha womzimba wandixelela ukuba makamphelekezele umama wakhe eMedjugorje, ndimcele ngobubele ukuba andiphathe naye! Uphendule wathi uzokubuza kwaye emva kweentsuku ezintathu sele ndisebhasini ukuya eMedjugorje notata wam! Ndafika ngentseni yangoLwesihlanu umhla wama-24 kuJuni ka-2005; Ngemini salandela yonke imisebenzi kwaye saba nentlanganiso nombono u-Ivan, owayekwangulowo kamva waba nohlelo kwiNtaba iPodbrodo. Ngokuhlwa xa ndabuzwa ukuba ndifuna ukuya entabeni na, ndala, ndachaza ukuba isitulo esinamavili asinakunyuka intaba kwaye andifuni ukuphazamisa abanye abahambi ngezonqulo. Bandixelele ukuba akukho ngxaki kwaye bazokutshintshana, ngoko sishiya isitulo esinamavili esisezantsi kwentaba kwaye bandikhapha bayondibeka phezulu. Kwakugcwele ngabantu, kodwa sakwazi ukugqitha.
Ukufika kufutshane nomfanekiso oqingqiweyo weMadonna, bandenza ukuba ndihlale phantsi ndiye ndaqalisa ukuthandaza. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba andizithandazeli, andikaze ndicele ukuba ubabalo lube nako ukuhamba kuba kubonakala ngathi akunakwenzeka kum. Ndathandazela abanye, abantu ababesentlungwini ngalo mzuzu. Ndikhumbula ukuba ezo yure zimbini zokuthandaza zimkile; umthandazo endiwenze nentliziyo yam. Kwakufutshane phambi kwembali, inkokeli yeqela lam elalihleli ecaleni kwam yandixelela ukuba ndicele yonke into endiyifunayo kuMfazi wethu, Uza kuhla ezulu evela ezulwini, uza kuba lapho, phambi kwethu kwaye uza kumamela wonke umntu ngokulinganayo. Ndaye ndacela amandla okuvuma isitulo esinamavili, ndineminyaka eli-17 kwaye ikamva kwisitulo esinamavili belisoloko lindoyikisa kakhulu. Phambi ko-22.00 bekukho imizuzu elishumi yokuthula, kwaye ngelixa ndithandazayo ndatsalwa zizibane zokukhanya endazibona ngasekhohlo kwam. Yayiyinto entle, ephumlileyo, ethambileyo; ngokungafani nemibane kunye neetotshi ezivulekileyo kwaye ziyeke lonke ixesha. Baninzi abanye abantu ababejikeleze mna, kodwa ngala maxesha onke kwakumnyama, kwakukho ukukhanya kuphela, okuphantse kundoyikisa kwaye ngaphezulu kokuba ndandijonge kude, kodwa ke kwikona yeliso lam akunakuphepheka. yabona. Emva kovavanyo lwe-Ivan yombono, ukukhanya kwanyamalala. Emva kokuguqulelwa komyalezo weNenekazi lethu kwisiTaliyane, abantu ababini kwiqela lam bandithatha bandibeka ezantsi kwaye ndawa ngomva, ngokungathi nditshonile. Ndiye ndawa entloko, entanyeni nasemva kula matye kwaye andizange ndifumane kukroba. Ndiyakhumbula ukuba kwakungathi ndikwi-mattress ethambileyo, ethambileyo, hayi kula matye anzima, angile. Ndeva nelizwi elimnandi kakhulu elindoyisayo, lindincokolisile ngokungathi lundingxengxeza. Kwangoko baqala ukundiphosa amanzi kwaye bandixelela ukuba abantu bayekile kwaye abanye ogqirha bazama ukuva ukubetha kwam kunye nokuphefumla, kodwa akukho nto, kwakungekho luphawu lobomi. Emva kwemizuzu emihlanu ukuya kwelishumi ndivule amehlo, ndabona utata ukuba uyakhala, kodwa okokuqala kwiinyanga ezili-9 ndaziva imilenze yam kwaye iqhuma ziinyembezi ndatsho ngongcangcazela: "Ndiphilile, ndiyahamba!" Ndiphakame yangathi yeyona nto yendalo; kwangoko bandincedile ukwehla entabeni kuba bendiphazama kakhulu kwaye bendisoyika ukuba uzondilimaza, kodwa xa ndifika kulonyawo lwePodbrodo xa besondela kum kwisitulo esinamavili, ndiyikhabe kwaye ukusukela ngalo mzuzu ndiqala ukuhamba. Ngo-5.00 ngentsasa elandelayo ndikhwela i-Krizevac ndodwa ndinemilenze yam.
Iintsuku zokuqala ezimbalwa xa ndandihamba imilenze yam yemisipha yenziwa buthathaka kwaye yaxineka kukukhubazeka komzimba, kodwa andizange ndoyike ukuwa kuba ndaziva ndixhaswe ziingcingo ezingabonakaliyo emva kwam. Khange ndiye eMedjugorje kwisitulo esinamavili ndicinga ukuba ndingabuya nemilenze yam. Kwakungokokuqala ukuya apho, yayintle hayi nje ngeNceba endandiyifumene, kodwa ngenxa yomoya woxolo, ukuzola, ukuthula noxolo olukhulu oliphefumlayo apho. Ekuqaleni andikhange ndinike bungqina kuba bendineentloni kakhulu kunangoku kwaye ndinezinto ezininzi ezixineneyo zesithuthwane ngexesha losuku, kangangokuba ngoSeptemba 2005 andikwazanga ukubuyela kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. Ukuphela kukaFebruwari ka-2006, uBawo uLjubo weza kubamba intlanganiso yomthandazo ePiossasco (TO) kwaye bacela ukuba ndihambe ndiyokungqina. Ndathandabuza kancinane, kodwa ekugqibeleni ndahamba; Ndinike ubungqina kwaye ndithandaza kwiRosary eNgcwele. Ngaphambi kokuba ndimke uBawo uLjubo wandisikelela kwaye wandithandazela imizuzwana embalwa; Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa zonke iinkxwaleko zanyamalala ngokupheleleyo. Ubomi bam butshintshile ngoku hayi ngoba ndiyaphiliswa ngokwasemzimbeni. Kum eyona Nceba ibalaseleyo yayikukufumana uKholo kunye nokwazi uthando lukaYesu kunye neNenekazi lethu abanalo kuthi. Ngokuguqula kubengathi uThixo ubeke umlilo ngaphakathi kum ekufuneka ukondliwe rhoqo ngomthandazo kunye ne-Ekaristi. Umoya unokusibetha kodwa ukuba usebenze kakuhle, lo mlilo awuzukuphuma kwaye ndiyambulela ngokungazenzisiyo uThixo ngesi sipho sikhulu! Ngoku kusapho lwam sijongana nayo yonke ingxaki ngamandla e-Rosary okuba sobathathu sithandaze kunye yonke imihla. Ekhaya sithe chatha, sonwabile kuba sisazi ukuba yonke into ngokwentando kaThixo, sithembele kuye ngokupheleleyo kwaye sonwabile kakhulu ukuba usikhokele yena kunye neNkosikazi yethu. Ngobu bungqina ndifuna ukubulela nokudumisa iNenekazi lethu kunye noYesu ngokuguqula ngokomoya okwenzeke kusapho lwam kunye nangengqondo yoxolo nolonwabo abasinika lona. Ndiyathemba ukuba wonke umntu wakho uyaluva uthando lwenenekazi lethu kunye nelikaYesu kuba yeyona nto intle ibaluleke kakhulu ebomini.