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Emva kweminyaka ephantse ibe li-15 ukusukela kumntwana wokugqibela ndikhulelwe kwakhona ngonyaka ka-1996. Ndandiqaqamba ngovuyo, emva kokuthandaza kakhulu, Inenekazi lethu lazalisekisa umnqweno wam kwaye ndandiqinisekile ngale nto kuba ngobunye ubusuku ndiyaphupha: Andikaze ndibenamaphupha angaqondakali ebomini bam, kodwa ngobo busuku ilitye leMadonna lehla kwisibingelelo sakhe kwaye liyinyani, landibamba ngesandla lathi: Ngaba uyamkhumbula kakhulu umama wakho? (wasweleka ngo-1983), ndaphendula ndaphendula njalo njalo nangesandla sakho uhamba nam apha endleleni, uyema kwaye ndijonga indlela enyukayo emaphandleni kwaye ndibona umama ephuma ngomnyango eze kudibana nam. We hugly tight ngaphandle kokuthetha, wayemhle, emncinci kwaye iinwele zakhe zazinevumba endingenakuzichaza, ndazi nje ukuba kusasa xa ndivuka ndiva ivumba. Emva kwale ntlanganiso imnandi nomama, usandibalisela: Uza kuba nonyana ngo-1996 (xa ndandinephupha lalingu-1995) emva koko wabuyela kwisibingelelo sakhe. Ndavuya kakhulu ndabuza abantu ukuba uMadonna ngumfanekiso obenxibe zonke ezimhlophe kwaye bandixelele ukuba unguMadonna waseMedjugorje.
Ndithe xa ndivuka ndothuswe kancinci ngumbono kamama noko ndimncinci for iindaba endizifumene kuMadonna, andizange ndiwakholelwa la mazwi okuba nomnye umntwana futhi ngoba bendiyifuna iminyaka kodwa bonke ogqirha Ndaxelelwa ukuba kubhetele ukuba ndisuse isibeleko sam kuba sasinomzimba kwaye sikhulu kwaye ukuba kwakungcono kum ngaphambi kokuba ndifumane ithumba.
Andikaze ndimamele ogqirha kuba ukususa isibeleko ngendingazange ndilifumane ithuba kwaye ndithandaze kuMama waseZulwini ukuba andinike elinye ithuba futhi ngoba kwiminyaka eyadlulayo ndakhupha isisu kwaye ndaziva ndinetyala. Ndifowunele udade wethu ukuba azokuxela eli phupha lingaqhelekanga kwaye ndatsho ukuba mhlawumbi ibikhohlise, andizukuphinda ndibenabo abantwana kuba ndineminyaka engama-40 kwaye ndiza kudlula ngokuyeka ukuya exesheni emva kweminyaka embalwa.
Ixesha elithile lihambile kwaye ndingakhange ndicinge malunga neliphupha ngoku kwaye ngenye imini ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndenze uvavanyo kuba yayiphantse yaba ziinyanga ezimbini ukuba andinajikelezi, uyazi ukuba bendisoyika isifo esibi kwaye xa ndinempendulo ndikholelwe ukuba akukho namnye emhlabeni owonwabileyo kunokuba nam.
Uyazi emva kokuba ndiqhagamshele iphupha kuba yayiyinyanga kaCanzibe inyanga yeLady yethu, wayendimamele.
Emva kweenyanga ezi-4 ndenze i-amniocentesis phantsi kwengcebiso kwezonyango, kodwa ke bendingaqinisekanga ngale nto ngoba ukuba bekuzakuqala ntoni bendizakwenza njani ngokulandelayo? Kodwa uMadonna naye akakhange andilahle kule nto kwaye uyazi isimanga esikhulu? wayeyintokazi emva kwamadoda amabini.
Xa ndithandazayo kuye ndatsho ukuba uMadonnina wam makandinike omnye umntwana nokuba ungabelana ngesondo, kodwa ukuba ufuna ukundinika intombazana iya kuba luvuyo olukhulu ngakumbi kum. Uye wandinika nesisipho.
Kwiinyanga ezi-5 bendigula nyani esibhedlela ndinesifo se-hallucinatory pain nangona amayeza engahambi kwaye ugqirha wandixelela ukuba ukuba ndingangcono wayezongenelela engazi ukuba kuzophela kanjani njengoba i-fibroid bendikhule ilingana nentloko yentombazana. . Ndithandazile kwaye ndinokholo kumazwi ka Lwethu, ebengazundinika uvuyo olukhulu ke aze alususe kum
Iveki ihambile kwaye bendiphelelwe ngamandla kwintlungu kwaye ngequbuliso ndaziva ndibhetele kwaye emva kwe-ultrasound ugqirha wamangaliswa kuba ifibro lalibuyile lincinci njengasekuqaleni kokukhulelwa. Ngexesha lokuhambisa icandelo cesarean, ugqirha wandibuza ukuba ndifuna ukuvala iityhubhu, kodwa ndamxelela isizathu sokuba kufanelekile ukuba ndenze le nto andifuni omnye umntwana njengoko wayetshilo kum kodwa ndacinga ukuba ibiyinto yokwenzeka nje ukuba ndikhulelwe.
Iinyanga ezili-13 zidlulile, ndandingaziva kakuhle kuba ugqirha wayengenakukwazi ukuyisusa i-fibroid kwaye ndandinexhala kodwa ukumangaliswa kwam kukuba ndikhulelwe kwakhona. Umyeni wam akazange ayithathe kakuhle kwaye wayefuna ukuba ndikhuphe isisu, kodwa ngokukhawuleza isigqibo sam sasingu-hayi. Emva kokuba sithandaze kangaka uLinathi wasifezekisa isicelo sam kwaye ngoku besisenza ntoni na ukuba ndiyamphika lomnye unyana? Andikwazanga, le ibiphantse yaba luvavanyo ngokundixelela ukuba ndizokunika omnye umntwana ukuba wenzani ngoku? HAYI HAYI kwaye HAYI kwafuneka ndijongane nothando le ntyatyambo eyayiphakathi kum kwaye yandikholelwa nangona ugqirha wandixelela ukuba ndizakuphumla kwaye ndingakhathali, ndingenaso nesithunzi sokucaphukisa okanye ubunzima okanye iintlungu. Bendonwabile nje ukuba ngumama kwakhona.
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