U-Ivan waseMedjugorje: Andoyiki kufa ukuba ndibone izulu
Kule minyaka ingama-33 umbuzo ubuhleli uhleli ngaphakathi kum: “Mama, kutheni? Kutheni undinyule? Ndizokwazi ukwenza into oyifunayo na oyifunayo kum? Yonke imihla ndizibuza lo mbuzo. Kubomi bam ukuya kwi-16 bendingenakuze ndicinge ukuba inokwenzeka into enjalo, ukuba iNenekazi lethu lingavela. Ukuqala kweapparitions kwakundimangalisa kakhulu.
Kwindlela yovavanyo, ndikhumbula kakuhle, emva kokuba ndathandabuza kudala ukuba ndimbuze, ndambuza: “Mama, kutheni nam? Kutheni undinyule? Inenekazi lethu lincume kamnandi kwaye liphendule lathi: "Nyana wam othandekayo, andisoloko ndikhetha okona kulungileyo".
Kwiminyaka engamashumi amathathu anesithathu iNenekazi lethu likhethe mna. Undibhalise esikolweni sakho. Isikolo soxolo, uthando, umthandazo. Kwesi sikolo ndinqwenela ukuba ngumfundi olungileyo kwaye ndenze umsebenzi endiwanikwe nguLwethu ngeyona ndlela inokwenzeka. Ndiyazi ukuba awundivoti.
Esi sipho sihlala ngaphakathi kum. Kum, ngobomi bam kunye nosapho lwam esi sisipho esikhulu. Kodwa kwangaxeshanye ikwanoxanduva olukhulu. Ndiyazi ukuba uThixo undiphathise izinto ezininzi, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba ufuna oko kum. Ndiyalwazi uxanduva endinalo kwaye ndihlala nalo yonke imihla.
Andoyiki kufa ngomso, kuba ndibone yonke into. Andoyiki kufa.
Ukuba kunye neMadonna mihla kunye nokuphila kule Paradesi kunzima ngokwenene ukuchaza ngamazwi. Akulula ukuba kunye noMadonna yonke imihla, ukuthetha naye, kwaye ekupheleni kwale ntlanganiso ukubuyela emhlabeni kwaye uqhubeke nokuhlala apha. Ukuba ubunokubona i-Madonna okwesibini, andazi ukuba ubomi bakho emhlabeni buya kuba nomdla kuwe. Ndidinga iiyure ezimbalwa yonke imihla ukuze ndilulame, ukubuyela kweli lizwe emva kwentlanganiso enjalo. Yeyiphi imiyalezo ebaluleke kakhulu asimema kuyo iNenekazi kule minyaka? Ndingathanda ukubabalaselisa. Uxolo, ukuguquka, ukuthandaza ngentliziyo, ukuzila ukutya kunye nokuzithoba, ukholo oluqinileyo, uthando, uxolelo, Oyena mntu ungcwele, ufunda iBhayibhile kunye nethemba. Ngale miyalezo ndiye ndayiqaqambisa, Inenekazi lethu lisikhokela. Kwiminyaka yakutshanje, iNenekazi lethu lichaze imiyalezo nganye ukuze bayiphile kwaye bazenze ngcono.