UIvan waseMedjugorje: Andoyiki ukufa kuba ndilibonile iZulu
Kumkanikazi woXolo noXolelwaniso, sithandazele.
Ababingeleli abathandekayo, bahlobo abathandekayo kuKristu,
Ekuqaleni kwale ntlanganiso, ndingathanda ukunibulisa nonke ngokusuka emazantsi entliziyo yam.
Ngeli xeshana lifutshane ndingathanda ukwabelana nani ngemiyalezo ephambili apho iNenekazi lethu lisimemela kuyo kule minyaka ingama-33. Kule mihla sineemvakalelo ezinzulu, kuba namhlanje kwiminyaka engama-33 eyadlulayo iNenekazi lethu leza kuthi. Isiqwenga seParadesi siza kuthi. Uza kuthi lowo uthunywe nguNyana wakhe ukuba asincede, alikhuphe ihlabathi ekubandezelekeni likulo aze asibonise indlela yoxolo nakuYesu.
Ndiyazi ukuba abaninzi benu beze apha bediniwe lihlabathi, belambele uxolo, belambele uthando, belambele ukholo. Ufikile kumthombo; uze kuMama ukuba uziphose esifubeni sakhe kwaye ufumane ukhuseleko kunye nokhuseleko kunye naye. Ufikile kuMama uzothi kuye: "Sithandazele usithandazele kuNyana wakho uYesu kumntu ngamnye wethu".
Usibeke Entliziyweni Yakhe. Asisodwa.
Kumyalezo weNkosikazi yethu ithi: "Ukuba ubusazi ukuba ndikuthanda kangakanani, ubuya kukhala uvuyo". Uthando lukaMama lukhulu kakhulu. Sifike kumthombo, sivela kuMama othethelela kuNyana wakhe, uMama ofundisayo nokhokelayo, kuba ungoyena mfundisi-ntsapho ubalaseleyo, oyena mfundisi-ntsapho ubalaseleyo.
Kwiminyaka engamashumi amathathu anesithathu eyadlulayo, ngolu suku, iNenekazi Lethu lankqonkqoza kumnyango wentliziyo yam landinyula ukuba ndibe sisixhobo sakhe. Isixhobo Ezandleni Zakhe nakwekaThixo Andifuni ukuba nijonge kum njengongcwele, ogqibeleleyo, kuba andinguye. Ndizama ukuba ngcono kwaye ndibe ngcwele. Lo ngumnqweno wam. Umnqweno ubhalwe ngokunzulu entliziyweni yam. Andiguqukanga ngobusuku obunye nokuba ndibona iLady yethu yonke imihla. Ndiyazi ukuba uguquko, kum njengamntu wonke, yinkqubo, inkqubo yobomi bethu. Kodwa kufuneka sithathe isigqibo malunga nale nkqubo kwaye sitshintshe yonke imihla. Yonke imihla sishiye isono nayo yonke into esiphazamisayo endleleni eya ebungcweleni. Kufuneka silamkele iLizwi likaYesu Krestu kwaye siphile kwaye ngaloo ndlela siya kukhula ebungcweleni.
Kule minyaka ingama-33 umbuzo ubuhleli uhleli ngaphakathi kum: “Mama, kutheni? Kutheni undinyule? Ndizokwazi ukwenza into oyifunayo na oyifunayo kum? Yonke imihla ndizibuza lo mbuzo. Kubomi bam ukuya kwi-16 bendingenakuze ndicinge ukuba inokwenzeka into enjalo, ukuba iNenekazi lethu lingavela. Ukuqala kweapparitions kwakundimangalisa kakhulu.
Kwindlela yovavanyo, ndikhumbula kakuhle, emva kokuba ndathandabuza kudala ukuba ndimbuze, ndambuza: “Mama, kutheni nam? Kutheni undinyule? Inenekazi lethu lincume kamnandi kwaye liphendule lathi: "Nyana wam othandekayo, andisoloko ndikhetha okona kulungileyo".
Kwiminyaka engamashumi amathathu anesithathu iNenekazi lethu likhethe mna. Undibhalise esikolweni sakho. Isikolo soxolo, uthando, umthandazo. Kwesi sikolo ndinqwenela ukuba ngumfundi olungileyo kwaye ndenze umsebenzi endiwanikwe nguLwethu ngeyona ndlela inokwenzeka. Ndiyazi ukuba awundivoti.
Esi sipho sihlala ngaphakathi kum. Kum, ngobomi bam kunye nosapho lwam esi sisipho esikhulu. Kodwa kwangaxeshanye ikwanoxanduva olukhulu. Ndiyazi ukuba uThixo undiphathise izinto ezininzi, kodwa ndiyazi ukuba ufuna oko kum. Ndiyalwazi uxanduva endinalo kwaye ndihlala nalo yonke imihla.
Andoyiki kufa ngomso, kuba ndibone yonke into. Andoyiki kufa.
Ukuba kunye neMadonna mihla kunye nokuphila kule Paradesi kunzima ngokwenene ukuchaza ngamazwi. Akulula ukuba kunye noMadonna yonke imihla, ukuthetha naye, kwaye ekupheleni kwale ntlanganiso ukubuyela emhlabeni kwaye uqhubeke nokuhlala apha. Ukuba ubunokubona i-Madonna okwesibini, andazi ukuba ubomi bakho emhlabeni buya kuba nomdla kuwe. Ndidinga iiyure ezimbalwa yonke imihla ukuze ndilulame, ukubuyela kweli lizwe emva kwentlanganiso enjalo. Yeyiphi imiyalezo ebaluleke kakhulu asimema kuyo iNenekazi kule minyaka? Ndingathanda ukubabalaselisa. Uxolo, ukuguquka, ukuthandaza ngentliziyo, ukuzila ukutya kunye nokuzithoba, ukholo oluqinileyo, uthando, uxolelo, Oyena mntu ungcwele, ufunda iBhayibhile kunye nethemba. Ngale miyalezo ndiye ndayiqaqambisa, Inenekazi lethu lisikhokela. Kwiminyaka yakutshanje, iNenekazi lethu lichaze imiyalezo nganye ukuze bayiphile kwaye bazenze ngcono.