Inenekazi lethu liyamvumela uLucia ukuba abhale imfihlo kwaye amnike izikhombisi ezintsha
Impendulo ekudala ilindelwe evela kubhishophu waseLeiria ifike kade kwaye waziva enyanzelekile ukuba azame ukwenza lo myalelo awufumeneyo. Nangona wayemathidala, kwaye esoyika ukungaphumeleli kwakhona, okwamshiya edidekile ngokwenene, wazama kwakhona kwaye akakwazanga. Makhe sibone ukuba le drama isixelela njani:
Ngelixa ndandilinde impendulo, nge-3 kaJanuwari, 1 ndaguqa ecaleni kwebhedi ethi, ngamanye amaxesha, isebenze njengetafile yokubhala, kwaye ndazama kwakhona, ndingenakwenza kwanto; eyona nto yandichukumisa kakhulu kukuba ndandinokubhala ngokulula enye into. Ndaye ndacela uMama wethu ukuba andazise ukuba kuyintoni na ukuthanda kukaThixo.Ndaye ndaya e-chapelini: kwakungowesine emva kwemini, ixesha endandiqhele ukuya kutyelela iSakramente elisikelelekileyo, kuba yayilixesha apho Ngokwesiqhelo uhlala yedwa, kwaye andazi ukuba kutheni, kodwa ndiyathanda ukuba ndedwa noYesu emnqubeni.
Ndaguqa phambi kwesinyathelo sesibingelelo soMthendeleko ndaza ndacela uYesu ukuba andazise ukuba kuyintoni na ukuthanda kwakhe. Ndandiqhele njengoko ndandikholelwa ukuba iiodolo zabaphezulu zizinto ezingenakuphikiswa zentando kaThixo, andizange ndikholelwe ukuba yayingeyiyo. Ndixakekile, isiqingatha sitsaliwe, phantsi kobunzima belifu elimnyama elalibonakala lijinga phezu kwam, ubuso bam busezandleni zam, ndalinda, ndingazi ukuba ndiza kuyifumana njani impendulo. Emva koko ndaziva ndinobubele, ndithandana kwaye isandla sikamama sichukumisa igxalaba lam, ndajonga phezulu ndabona uMama wasezulwini othandekayo. «Musa ukoyika, uThixo wayefuna ukubonisa ukuthobela kwakho, ukholo kunye nokuthobeka; cwaka kwaye ubhale izinto abakuyalela zona, kodwa ingeyiyo le uyinikwayo ukuze uyiqonde intsingiselo yayo. Emva kokuyibhala, yifake kwimvulophu, uyivale kwaye uyitywine kwaye ubhale ngaphandle ukuba inokuvulwa kuphela ngo-1960 ngusolusapho omkhulu waseLisbon okanye ngubhishophu waseLeiria ”.
Ndaye ndeva ukuba umoya uphuphuma yimfihlelo yokukhanya enguThixo kwaye kuye ndabona ndaza ndeva - incam yomkhonto enjengedangatye elolula ide ichukumise i-axis yomhlaba kwaye iyaxhuma: iintaba, iidolophu, iidolophu kunye neelali. Abemi bawo bangcwatywa. Ulwandle, imilambo kunye namafu aphuma elunxwemeni, ayaphuphuma, ayazalisa aze atsale inani elingenakubalwa lezindlu nabantu abakubo emthambekeni: kukuhlanjululwa kwehlabathi kwisono elizifake kuso. Inzondo kunye namabhongo abangela imfazwe eyonakalisayo! Kwintliziyo ekhawulezileyo kunye nomoya wam ndeva isandi selizwi elimnandi esithi: «Kwiinkulungwane ezidlulileyo, inkolo enye, ubhaptizo olunye, iCawa enye, ingcwele, ikatolika, ubupostile. Ngonaphakade, izulu! ». Igama Izulu lagcwalisa umphefumlo wam ngoxolo nolonwabo, ukuya kuthi, phantse ndingazi, ndihlala ndiphindaphinda ixesha elide: «Izulu! Isibhakabhaka!". Kwakudlula nje loo mandla angaphaya kwawemvelo ndaqala ukubhala kwaye ndakwenza oko ngaphandle kobunzima, nge-3 kaJanuwari, 1944, ndiguqe ngamadolo, ndoyama ebhedini eyayisebenza njengetafile yam.
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