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«NdinguKumkanikazi weZulu, uMama kaThixo ... Ekubeni ndadibana neNkosi ekuqaleni kobuntwaneni bam, ndandisoloko ndiphulaphula kwaye ndoyika ukusindiswa kwam nokumthobela. Xa ndandisazi ukuba uThixo wayengumdali wam nomgwebi wazo zonke izenzo zam, ndandimthanda ngokusondeleyo; ngalo lonke ixesha ndandisoyika ukumkhubekisa ngamazwi nangezenzo. Ndathi ke ndakuqonda ukuba uwunike abantu umthetho nemithetho yakhe, nokokuba wenza izimanga ezininzi ngabo, ndagqiba, ndazimisela entliziyweni yam, ukuba ndingathandi namnye ngaphandle kwakhe; kwaye izinto zehlabathi zandinika ubukrakra obukhulu. Ndathi ndakufunda nokuba uThixo uya kulikhulula ihlabathi aze azalwe yiNtombi Enyulu, ndaziva ndishukunyiswa luthando olungaka ngakuye, kangangokuba ndacinga ngaye kuphela ndingafuni mntu wumbi ngaphandle kwakhe. Ndarhoxa kangangoko kunokwenzeka kwiincoko zemihla ngemihla, nakubukho babazali nabahlobo; Amahlwempu ndandinikela ngayo yonke into endandinayo, ndaza ndazigcinela ilokhwe nje encinane kunye nezinto ezimbalwa zokuphila. Ndandingathandi nantoni na engengoThixo. Entliziyweni yam ndawukhulisa umnqweno ongayekiyo wokuphila de kube yimini yokuzalwa kwakhe, ndifanele ukuba ngumkhonzi kaMama kaThixo, nangona ndandingaziboni ndikufanelekela oko. Ndenza isibhambathiso ngaphakathi kum ukuba ndihlala ndinyulu, ukuba kuyamkholisa uThixo, ndingabi nanto yimbi ehlabathini. Ngoku, ukuba ukuthanda kukaThixo bekwahlukile, bendiya kufuna ukuba kwenziwe ukuthanda kwakhe, kungekhona okwam, kuba ndandisoyika ukuba akanako yaye akayi kwenza nantoni na eluncedo kum; ngoko ke, ndazinikela ekuthandeni kwakhe. Lathi lakufika ixesha lokunikelwa kweentombi eTempileni, ngokomthetho abazali bam ababewuhloniphile, ndaboniswa namanye amantombazana; ngaphakathi kwam ndandicinga ukuba akukho nto ayinakwenzeka kuThixo; kwaye ekubeni wayesazi ukuba ndandinganqweneli okanye ndifune nabani na ngaphandle kwakhe, wayenako ukundigcina ndisenyulu, ukuba oko kwakumkholisile; kungenjalo, makwenziwe ukuthanda kwakhe. Emva kokuba ndive yonke impako yeTempile ndaza ndabuyela ekhaya, ndavutha ngakumbi uthando lukaThixo, kwaye yonke imihla ndandibaswa ngumlilo omtsha kunye neminqweno emitsha ngaye. Ngenxa yoko ndarhoxa ngaphezu kwesiqhelo kubo bonke abantu, ndihleli ndedwa imini nobusuku, ndinoloyiko olukhulu lokuba umlomo wam uya kuthetha nokuba iindlebe zam ziya kuva into echasene nothando lukaThixo, okanye ukuba amehlo am aya kubona into eyolisayo. Ngaphezu koko, ndandisoyika ukuba ukuthi cwaka kwam kuya kundithintela ekuvakaliseni oko ndandifanele ukukuthetha, yaye ndandilumkile ukuba ndingayenzi le mpazamo; ndikhathazeke gqitha entliziyweni yam yaye ndibeke ithemba lam kuThixo, ngequbuliso ndakhumbula ukucinga ngamandla amakhulu kaThixo, indlela izithunywa zezulu nayo yonke indalo emkhonza ngayo, nendlela olungenakuthetheka ngayo nolungenasiphelo uzuko lwakhe . Ndithabatheke yimincili, ndabona imimangaliso emithathu: inkwenkwezi, kodwa ingenjengaleyo ibengezela esibhakabhakeni; lukhanyiso ke, lungabi njengalo lubonakala ehlabathini; ndaza ndeva ivumba elimnandi, kodwa elingelilo elemifuno okanye nelevumba elimnandi, kodwa limnandi kakhulu yaye lingenakuthethelelwa, livumba elimnandi endazaliswa ngalo; ndangcangcazela luvuyo olukhulu. Ngelo xesha, ndeva ilizwi elinzulu, kodwa yayingelolizwi lomntu; ndathi ke ndakukuva oko, ndoyika ukuba ibe yinkohliso. Ngequbuliso kwabonakala kum ingelosi, efana nendoda entle, kodwa ingeyiyo eyenyama, yathi kum: “Bhota, uzele lubabalo…». Emva kokuwava amazwi akhe ndiye ndazama ukuqonda intsingiselo yawo, okanye kwakutheni ukuze andibulise ngolu hlobo, kuba ndandiqinisekile ukuba ndandingayifanele loo nto yaye ndandingayifanelanga nantoni na endiyinikwayo, kodwa andizange ndiyityeshele loo nto. ukuba akukho nanye into eya kumnqabela yena uThixo, nokuba abe nako ukwenza kum njengoko athanda ngako. Emva koko ingelosi yathi kum okwesibini: “Lowo ungcwele uya kuzalwa nguwe yaye uya kubizwa ngokuba nguNyana kaThixo (cf. uLuka 2); kwaye ukuthanda kwakhe makwenziwe. Andizange ndicinge ukuba ndiyayifanelekela, kwaye andizange ndiyibuze isithunywa sezulu ukuba kutheni okanye le mfihlelo iya kuzaliseka nini na; ukanti ndabuza ukuba kuya kwenzeka njani na, kuba ndandingafaneleki ukuba nguMama weNkosi, ndingazi mntu; njengoko ndandiwathethile la mazwi, ingelosi yandiphendula yathi akukho nto ayinakwenzeka kuThixo, kwaye yonke iminqweno yakhe iya kwenzeka. Emva kokuva ingelosi, ndaziva ndinomnqweno omkhulu wokuba nguMama kaThixo, yaye ndaziva ndizaliswe luthando olukhulu; umphefumlo wam wathetha ngothando olungenakulinganiswa nanto. Ngenxa yoko ndathetha amazwi athi, Makwenzeke ukuthanda kwakho kum. Ngala mazwi, uNyana kaThixo wakhawulwa kwangoko esizalweni sam; umphefumlo wam weva uvuyo olungenakuchazwa kwaye onke amalungu omzimba wam anikezela umtsi. Ndayigcina phakathi kwam, ndayithwala ngaphandle kweentlungu, ngaphandle kobunzima, ngaphandle kokukhathazeka; Bendizithoba kwinto yonke ndisazi ukuba lo ndimthweleyo unamandla onke. Ndithe ndakumzala, ndamzala ngaphandle kwentlungu, engenasono, kanye njengoko ndamkhawulayo, kodwa ndivuya emoyeni nasenyameni, kangangokuba iinyawo zam zaba nzima ukuwuchukumisa umhlaba. Kwaye kanye njengoko yayingene kuwo onke amalungu am ngovuyo lwehlabathi lonke lomphefumlo wam, ngendlela efanayo yaphuma ngaphandle kokonakalisa ubuntombi bam, ngelixa amalungu am nomphefumlo wam engcangcazela luvuyo olungenakuchazwa. Ndijonge kwaye ndimangaliswe bubuhle bakhe, umphefumlo wam wazaliswa luvuyo, ndisazi ukuba andimfanelanga lo Nyana. Ndathi ndakumjonga izandla neenyawo apho izikhonkwane zaziza kubethelelwa khona, ndakuva ukuba, ngokutsho kwabaprofeti, wayeya kubethelelwa emnqamlezweni, amehlo am azaliswe ziinyembezi, kwasuka kwabuhlungu intliziyo yam. Kwaye xa uNyana wam endibona ndidakumbile kwaye ndilila, waba buhlungu kakhulu. Kodwa ndathi ndakucinga ngamandla obuthixo, ndaphinda ndazithuthuzela, kuba ndandisazi ukuba uThixo wayefuna oku yaye kwakufanelekile ukuba iziprofeto zizaliseke; ndaza ke ndavumelana nentando yam; ngoko intlungu yam yayisoloko idibana novuyo.