Iinyembezi zengelosi yeSanta Gemma Galgani

UNOQINISEKISO OLUQHUBEKAYO
Nditsho nakwintsimi enzima yokuthobela uGemma wancedwa ziingelosi.

Imeko ethile eyimfihlakalo, awayebizelwe kuyo ubizo olukhetheke kakhulu eCaweni, ayinakusilela ukufuna ukuthotyelwa ngokukhawuleza, ngokukhululekileyo nangobubele kubantu abasemagunyeni, igunya ababelisebenzisa phezu kwakhe.

Nakule nto, eneneni, ngakumbi kwicandelo lokuthobela, uGemma wayeyintombi yokwenyani yePassion kwaye wayithatha inxaxheba ngokupheleleyo ekuthobeleni uCrucifix, kwi-kenosis yakhe (cf. Phil 2,8: XNUMX), kunye nentlungu yomoya eyaqhubeka de ekugqibeleni.

Intombikazi enguMariya, "uMama wakhe", njengoko wayedla ngokumbiza njalo, ukhumbuza uGemma ngobomi kunye nendlela yokumthobela. Umama wethu umfundisa kwisikolo sokubingelela. Ngaphezulu kwako konke ukushiya ukuthanda kukaThixo, ngaphandle kokuthathela ingqalelo amathandabuzo abanye. UGemma uthi, xa esithi ewe kwiNkosikazi yethu, ngenye intsasa, zehla iinyembezi kuye: "Iinyembezi zavela kubo, andizifuni." Kwaye iNtombi eyinyulu yamwola yathi kuye: «Awuyazi ukuba emva kwedini lomnqamlezo imibingelelo yakho kufuneka ikuvulele amasango ezulu? "

UTHANDO OLULANDELEKILEYO
Ingelosi engumgcini yayikwangutitshala kaGemma ekuthobeleni ubuqhawe.

S. Bulgakov wabhala iphepha elikhuthaza kakhulu, ukuba lifundwe ngononophelo olukhulu, kwi-kenosis yengelosi egcinayo kuthi, kuthando lwakhe lokuzincama, alusebenzisayo ngaphandle kokuphulukana nayo nayiphi na intshisakalo yakhe kunye nokujonga kuThixo nakuzuko lwakhe. Lo mbhalo ukhanyisela ukuqonda isizathu seereferensi ezininzi, nokuba zimbi kakhulu, zengelosi kaGemma kunye nomsa wakhe wemihla ngemihla kunye nokhathalelo lwentsomi:

“Olu thando [uthando lokuzincama] luchaza ukuba uyalulahla uvuyo lwasemazulwini ngenxa yomanyano kunye nobomi kunye nenjongo yesimo somzimba, esibi, nesenyama. Kumoya wokubandakanya, ukukhutshwa kwezinto ngokwemvelo kuyenzeka, ukwehliswa kwe-ontological ukudibana nothando kubomi benyama. Le kenosis inokufana kwayo (kunye nesiseko) sikaThixo, iLizwi elinoMntu, owathi waba lihlwempu kuthi ngokuba ngumntu. Ukumlandela kunye kunye naye, ngaphandle kokuzenza umntu, ingelosi iba ngumntu, uzimanya noluntu ngezibophelelo zothando ».

Ezinye iingxelo zinokubonakala ngathi ziyaphikisa. Ngapha koko, "ukushenxisa imeko yemethaphysical" kunye "nokwehlisa ityoloji" kwingelosi akubonakali kufanelekile ukumnika ithuba lokuthanda "umntu wenyama". Kwelinye icala, ukufaniswa kwe-kenosis yengelosi kuyakholisa kakhulu, "okukhanyisela, ukugcina, ukulawula nokulawula" umntu, kunye ne-kenosis yeLizwi elingumntu. Inkonzo nganye ithetha "ukuhlwempuzeka" kwesiqu sakho, ilahleko, ukutyebisa enye. Kwaye ingelosi egciniweyo luthando olunyulu olunyanzelekileyo olungazifuneli nto, kodwa yonke into ibhekisa kumxhasi wayo kunye "nokuhlonela kwasezulwini" ayiphathisiweyo.

"YONKE IMIPHUMELA YOKUTHOBELA"
Nantsi isampulu yendlela uGemma akuxabise ngayo ukuthobela kwileta kaMatshi 3, 1901 kuTata uGermano. Le yileta ebaluleke kakhulu, efikelela kuYise Germano ngexesha elinobuzaza kakhulu kubudlelwane phakathi kongcwele kunye nesiqhelo esivumayo, uMonsignor Volpi:

«Ubawo, ecaleni kukaYesu entliziyweni yam ehluphekileyo, yeva intuthuzelo umntu anayo, bawo, ekuthobeleni rhoqo! Ndizifumana ndizolile kangangokuba andinakukwazi ukuzichaza, kwaye oku ndiyaqonda ukuba ziziphumo zokuthobela. Kodwa ndinetyala kuye nabani na? Kutata wam olihlwempu. Enkosi kakhulu ngokundifundisa izinto ezininzi, undinika iingcebiso ezininzi, kwaye ukhululekile kwiingozi ezininzi! Ngoncedo lukaYesu ndifuna ukubeka yonke into ekusebenzeni, ukuze uYesu onwabe, kwaye ungaze ube nomsindo. Makadle ubomi uYesu! Ke wena, bawo, uyabazi ubuthathaka bam; Intloko yam nayo inzima; Kwaye ukuba ngamanye amaxesha ndibuyela kwiintsilelo eziqhelekileyo, akazukukhathazeka, ingaba yinyani? Ndiza kucela ukuxolelwa kuYesu, kwaye ndiya kuphinda ndenze isigqibo sokuba ndingasenzi kwakhona ».

Ngaphandle kokuba nesimilo esomeleleyo kwaye kukhokelele kwinkululeko yokugweba, uGemma uhlala ethamba kakhulu kusapho nakubaphathi bakhe, ngakumbi kwabo bamalathisa kwiindlela zomoya. UMnumzana Volpi wayemgunyazisile ukuba akhuphe isibhambathiso sabucala sokuthobela, kunye neso sokuba nyulu kwangoko ngonyaka we-1896, kwaye esi sifungo eGemma sasingeyonto elula yokuzinikela.

"EYASIKELELA INGELOSI YAKHE ..."
Xa ukungqubana kabuhlungu kuvavanyo phakathi kweMonsignor Volpi kunye noBawo uGirano ngokubhekisele kwisimo esingaqondakaliyo seGemma, de kwaba sisiqhelo, ukuncipha kwangaphakathi kwentombazana yayomelele. Ukuthandabuza kwaye ngaphezulu kwako konke ukungazithembi kuye nakwabo abakhokelayo ngokomoya kunokuvula indlela yokungamameli kunye nokwaliwa kwesimo sokuphendula kunye nokubizwa apho wabizelwa khona ngemiqondiso engaqondakaliyo engaqhelekanga. Kwaye esi yayisisigqibo sokuba "u-Chiappino" wayefuna ukuzisa "iGemma".

Imbalelwano yesanta iyaphuphuma nezalathiso kolu ngquzulwano olwaba mandundu kakhulu ngo-1901 nolwalungazi kuphumla kude kube sekupheleni. Asinakuyakha ngokutsha yonke imiqolo apha.

Ngonhlobo oluthile oluhlekisayo, olubonakalayo kwiileta, uGemma kuqala unika isibindi kuye nakwinkokheli yakhe ekude malunga noko

iyenzeka. Yinto ehlekisayo efihlakeleyo engqina ubungqingqwa obunzulu bangaphakathi bomfazi osemncinci.

Kule meko inzima, inobungozi kwaye ihlala ixesha elide, ubufundisi beengelosi budlala indima yabo ngendlela emangalisa ngokwenene. Ingelosi yomgcini kaGemma kodwa ngaphezulu kwako konke oko kukayise uGermano, uguquko oluchanekileyo lotata wakhe okude, angenelele njengezixhobo zokubonelela ukuxhasa intombazana kwisaqhwithi.

Kwileta ichazwe ngasentla kaMatshi 3, 1901, uGemma ucacisela uBawo uGermanano ukuba ingelosi yakhe ibonakele kuye, kodwa ke yena wala, ngokuthobela imiyalelo eyamkelweyo:

"Uyazi, bawo? NgoLwesihlanu ngokuhlwa ingelosi yakhe ebusisiweyo yandenza ndanexhala: Bendingamfuni tu, kwaye wayefuna ukundixelela izinto ezininzi. Undixelele nje ukuba eze: "UThixo akusikelele, okanye umphefumlo onikelwe ezandleni zam". Khawufane ucinge, tata, ndimphendule ndenjenje: “Ingelosi engcwele, mamela: sukungcolisa izandla zakho; hamba, uye komnye umphefumlo okwaziyo ukubala izipho zikaThixo: andazi ukuba ndenze njani ”. Ngamafutshane, ndazenza ndaqondakala; kodwa waphendula wathi: "Okanye woyika ntoni?". "Ukungathobeli," ndaphendula. "Hayi, kuba undithumile uyihlo". Emva koko ndiyeke kwathiwa, kodwa ndamdelela. “Usoyika, kutheni ucinga ukuba uchitha nje ezona zipho zikhulu uzinikwe nguThixo? Kodwa ungakhathazeki. Ndizakucela kuYesu olu lubabalo; Kwanele ukuba uthembise ukuba ndiza kukunika lonke uncedo aya kukunika lona uyihlo. Kwaye, ntombi, musa ukoyika ukubandezeleka ”. Ndamenza isithembiso esihle, kodwa ... Uyandisikelela amatyeli aliqela, ekhwaza kakhulu: "Phila ngonaphakade Yesu!" ".

UGemma uchazela umphathi okude ukuba uzame ukuthobela. Eyona nkxalabo iphambili kukuba uGemma usemngciphekweni wokumosha izipho ezifunyenweyo, ngamanye amagama, ukulahleka nokudideka. Ingelosi icebisa ukuba angoyiki ukubandezeleka ngaphezu kwako konke (kuyacaca kodwa kuyacaca) ukuhlala ngokuthobela kwimeko yekhonkrithi awayekuyo.

Kwaye emva koko, ngobubele obuqhelekileyo obuxutywe ne-naivety yakhe yesiqhelo, uGemma uyaxolisa ukuba ubhala "yonke le mbudane". Kodwa, ukuba uGermano akafuni kukhathazeka - ulindele-, akasayi kuphinda athumele ingelosi ukuba imnike "iintshumayelo ezintle":

«Sele ndibonakala ngathi ndikhathazekile, kuba ndibhale yonke le nto ingenamsebenzi, kodwa ndixolele: ingelosi ayisayi kuphinda immamele, kwaye awusayi kumthumela ngelo xesha. Yandula ke ingelosi yathi kum nzulu: “Ntombi, hayi indlela obonisa ngayo ukuthobela kukaYesu kunaye! Uyabona: uhlala ethobela kwangoko kwaye ngokuzithandela, kwaye endaweni yoko wenza ukuba uthethe izinto kathathu okanye kane. Le asiyontobeko uYesu akufundise yona! Awunakulunga ekuthobeleni ngale ndlela. Ngaba ufuna uncedo lokwenza intobelo ngokugqibeleleyo kunye nangokugqibelela? Hlala usenza oko ngenxa yothando lukaYesu ”. Undinike intshumayelo elungileyo, emva koko wahamba.

«Ndiyoyika njani ukuba uzakuba nexhala, kodwa bendixakekile ndisithi:" Musa ukungcolisa izandla zakho ", kodwa ke uya kuphinda athi:" Phila ubomi Yesu! ". Ke phila uYesu! Phila ngonaphakade uYesu yedwa ».

Kwaye nangu uGemma, ekugqibeleni, engqina inkuthazo enzulu yobomi bakhe; Uphinda aqinisekise ukuthembeka kwakhe kwiqabane elibethelelwe emnqamlezweni; ufuna ukuthobela njengaye. Wafunda isifundo kwingelosi kule meko engeyiyo eyomeleleyo, kwaye ngenxa yoko uyakhala kunye naye: "Phila uYesu yedwa yedwa".

"WAYENEMINYENZO ENKULU YELISO ..."
Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kamva, uGemma ubhalela uBawo Germano kwakhona. Ingelosi yaba bantu yazisa umnqamlezo kuye, imkhuthaza ukuba awuthwale ngothando. Ude akhale naye. UGemma ubandezeleka kakhulu ngenxa yento eyenzekayo phakathi kwabantu abathandayo ngothando lwabazali, uye azibeke ityala ngalo.

«Namhlanje ngaphambi kokuqala ukubhala le leta ndiyibonile, kwabonakala kum, ingelosi yakhe emgcinayo; mhlawumbi wayemthumile? Ephantse ukulila, wathi kum: “Ntombi yam, ntombi yam, wawukhe wangqongwa ziiroses, kodwa awuboni ukuba ngoku nganye kwezi rose iyaphuma emeveni ahlabayo asentliziyweni yakho? Kude kube ngoku ukhe wangcamla ubumnandi obujikeleze ubomi bakho, kodwa khumbula ukuba kukho inyongo emazantsi. Yabona ", wongeze," lo mnqamlezo? Nguwo umnqamlezo awunikwa nguyihlo: lo mnqamlezo yincwadi, oya kuyifunda yonke imihla. Ndithembise, ntombi, ndithembise ukuba uza kuwuthwala lo mnqamlezo ngothando, kwaye uya kuwuxabisa ngaphezu kwalo lonke uvuyo lwehlabathi ”».

Ngokwendalo uGemma uthembisa oko kufunwa yingelosi kuye kwaye unxulunyaniswa neenyembezi zakhe. Uloyiko lukaGemma ngenxa yezono zakhe kunye nomngcipheko wokulahleka. Kodwa phambi kwengelosi ilangatye lomnqweno wezulu liyavuseleleka, apho kuqinisekileyo ukuba zonke iimbambano ziya kuthi shwaka kwilangatye eliphilayo lothando olunye.

«Ndimthembise ngayo yonke into, kwaye ndangcangcazela ngesandla ndawamkela umnqamlezo. Ngelixa ingelosi yayithetha nam ngolu hlobo, yayineenyembezi ezinkulu emehlweni ayo, kwaye izihlandlo ezininzi yazenza ukuba zize kum nazo; kwaye wandijonga kakhulu kangangokuba wayebonakala ngathi ufuna ukuphanda iindawo ezifihlakeleyo zentliziyo yam kwaye andithethise. Ewe wayenyanisile ukundingcikiva: yonke imihla ndiya ndisiya ebubini, ndongeza kwizono, kwaye ndiza kulahleka. Makadle ubomi uYesu! Ndinqwenela ukuba abanye bangabandezeleki ngenxa yam, kwaye endaweni yokuba babe sisihlandlo sokuba wonke umntu axole. Kodwa andifuni, hayi, andifuni; Ndiyonwabela kuphela xa [umakazi] esondele kum ehlupheka; UYesu wandizalisa ngolonwabo. NgoLwesihlanu ebusuku, andizange ndife kungekudala.

Thandaza kakhulu kuYesu ukuba kungekudala andise ezulwini; ingelosi yandithembisa ukuba, xa ndilungile, izakundisa kwangoko: ngoku ndiya khona, kwaye ke ndiya khona kungekudala ».

Le leta iphela ngesikhalo sobuhlungu esingakwazanga ukushukumisa utata okude. Ewe kunjalo, njengoko sisazi, uMonsignor Volpi waye kuvavanye ubunyani beeleta ezazithunyelwe yingelosi kwaye novavanyo aluphumelelanga, neziphumo zokugwetywa okungalunganga kwiGemma ehluphekileyo kunye nakwimigca yokuzibamba eyamkelwe ngu-Father Germano.

«Bawo, thandaza kakhulu, emva koko ke ubhale, uphendule, ngakumbi kule shishini. Uyabona, ubawo, sisiphi isiphango entliziyweni yakho, andazi ukuba kutheni. Kodwa, kwaye ndiyayazi yonke into nokuba yintoni le uyithandabuzayo, mhlawumbi le leta? Kodwa ukuba uYesu akafuni, ndithini? Ndihlupheka kakhulu, tata, hayi ngenxa yezo mpompo andinika zona uYesu, kodwa ngenxa yezinye izinto; hayi mna, nditshutshiswa ngenxa yabanye. Andisafuni kuba ndawo: ukuba sehlabathini ukuba buhlungu kukubona uYesu ekhutyekisiwe, kundikhathaza kakhulu; Izono zam ezihlala zintsha: zinobunzima obukhulu, bawo. EParadesi, kwiparadesi! Kusekwangoko. NgoLwesihlanu kwakungekho kudala ngaphambi kokuba ndiye apho, oh! Bawo, ndiyamcela: thandaza kuYesu kakhulu kwaye uphendule; Nokuba yintoni na malunga nam, ndonwabile. NguYesu owandisekayo. Phila uYesu! »

Ubawo Germano, ngokungathi kunjalo, uphendula uCecilia Giannini, kwaye ngendlela ecace gca: "Ngokubhekiselele kwileta engafunwayo ukuba ndiyithathe kwingelosi, nam ndabhalela uMonsignor ukuba olu vavanyo wayefuna ukulwenza lwalungekho ngokukaThixo, ke ngoko wayeza kuyeka . Xa iNkosi inike ubungqina obaneleyo bokungenelela, ukuthandabuza nokufuna iimpikiswano ezintsha kuyimpazamo kuye. Ukufuna ukwazi kufuneka kufakwe kwiqela lemigulukudu. Yiyo loo nto le leta ingathathwanga yingelosi ».

Uvavanyo lwe-epistolary olucelwe nguVolpi alukhange lubonakale lufanelekile okanye luyimfuneko. UGermano uzilinganisela ekuthetheni "ngomnqweno wokufuna ukwazi", kodwa ubungqina bubonakala ngathi buchaphazela ngqo elinye lamaqela achaphazelekayo, oko kukuthi, igunya lakhe kunye nokuthembeka. Ngaba yayenzelwe ukuba ibe kukuqinisekiswa kwendlela yokuzincama eyamkelwa nguPassionist okanye injongo, nangona ingazi nto, yokungafaneleki kwakhe? Mhlawumbi kungoko kuthe cwaka komqondiso wengelosi "ngunoposi".

"Ukujonga macala onke" kwizinto zikaThixo akupheleli nje kwaye kuyichasene: kuyingozi.

«NDIYA KUKHUSELEKA NGAKHO NGOKUKHUSELEKILEYO '
UGemma, nangona kunjalo, uyazi ngaphezu kwako konke ukushiya ukuthobela kwaye uyonwabele inzulu yomphefumlo ngenxa yayo.

Ubawo Germano usixelela ngesiqendu esimnandi: "Xa wayelele ebhedini ngokuhlwa, nangona wayejikelezwe ngabantu abaliqela bethetha bodwa, ukuba inenekazi elikhankanywe ngasentla lathi kuye:" Gemma, kufuneka uphumle, ulale ", kwangoko wavala amehlo kwaye walala phantsi ukuze balale kamnandi. Nam ngokwam bendifuna ukuyivavanya kube kanye, ndizibone ndikuloo ndlu ikufutshane nebhedi yakhe egulayo, kunye namanye amalungu osapho, ndithe kuye: "Thatha intsikelelo yam, ulale, kwaye sizakuthatha umhlala phantsi". Khange ndigqibe ukukhupha umyalelo, ukuba uGemma, wajika, wayelele yoyi ubuthongo. Emva koko ndaguqa ngamadolo kwaye, ndisa amehlo am phezulu ezulwini, ndifuna ukwenza umthetho wengqondo, ukuba uya kuvuka. Mirabil yintoni! Njengokuphazanyiswa lilizwi elicacileyo nelilizwi, uyavuka kwaye, njengesiqhelo, ancume. Ndiyamngcikiva: “Ingaba ukwenziwa kwentobeko kunjalo? Bendikuxelele ukuba ulale ”. Kwaye yena, ezithobile: “Ungakhathazeki, tata: Ndive ukunkqonkqoza egxalabeni, kwaye ilizwi elinamandla landikhwaza: Yiza, utata uyakubiza”. Yayiyingelosi yakhe emgcinayo ejonge ecaleni kwakhe ».

Ikhangeleka ngathi sisiqendu seflorid. Ngokwenxalenye yoko. Ngaphezulu kwayo konke kubaluleke kakhulu kwiinkalo ezimbini. Kwimeko yokuqala, kwaye ngakumbi, ukuthobela ngokugqibeleleyo kweGem kuyavela

kodwa nakwimizuzu emincinci kunye nezinto ze-banal. Ngapha koko, ngaba ungalala ngokuyalelwa? Kwicandelo lesibini, elichaphazela ingelosi engumgcini, ukungabikho kokuziphatha okungenakwenzeka, kwi-mystic evela kuLucca, ukwahlula phakathi kwamazwi eli hlabathi kunye nelizwi lasezulwini, umqobo phakathi kwala mabini wawuqhekekile, ngokuqinisekileyo akunjalo. ngenxa yefantasy yakhe. Yingelosi emvusayo, elandela umthetho wengqondo oqulunqwe ngu-Father Germano, embetha egxalabeni ekhwaza ngelizwi elikhulu. Besisele sazi ukuba ingelosi ijonge ecaleni kweGemma.

U-Bulgakovll ukwaphawula ukuba ingelosi iyamthanda lowo ujoyine kuye nothando lobuqu kunye nokuphila, ukuseka ubudlelwane bobuhlobo obuqhelekileyo phakathi kwabantu, ngobunzulu obugqitha uthando lomntu ngokuzaliseka nokuphelela kwakhe. Uhlala nomntu, wabelana ngekamva lakhe, ufuna imbalelwano yakhe eluthandweni. Oku kugqiba konke ukwenza kwengelosi emntwini, ngokuhoya nokungazinzi, ngovuyo nangosizi.

Ukuthobela, kwiGemma, kufuna umzamo ophindwe kabini ukufikelela kwimfezeko. Njengomntwana "wanyanzelwa ukuba aphendule ewe" kwizwi lasezulwini; kwindawo yesibini, ubugqi obuvela kuLucca babethobela ngokupheleleyo abo babenethamsanqa lokuqonda kuye kwaye baguqulela imiqondiso yakhe yangaphakathi kwimbonakalo yeqela eliphikisayo. Ngoncedo lweengelosi, uGemma wacula uloyiso (cf. Pr 21,28).

UGregorio di Nissa ubhale wathi: "Kuphela ukuba siyazikhulula ekuhendweni bububi", kwaye ukuba iingqondo zethu sizigxininisa kwezona njongo ziphezulu, sishiya yonke into embi kwaye sibeka ithemba lezinto ezingunaphakade phambi kwethu njengesipili, sinokubonakalisa ngokucacileyo Yomphefumlo wethu umfanekiso wezinto zasezulwini kwaye siyakuva uncedo lomzalwana okufuphi. Ngapha koko, kuthathelwa ingqalelo indawo yokomoya nengqiqo yobuntu bakhe, umntu ufana nomzalwana wengelosi ethunyelweyo ukuba isincede xa siza kuhlangana noFaro ”.

UGemma wayenomdla ongaqhelekanga yile ngelosi, ngaphezulu kwako konke kuba wayehlala emfundisa ukuthobeka ”. UGemma wayesazi kakuhle ukuba yayingeyiyo nje imfundiso yethiyori. Ubukho bengelosi, izenzo zayo ngokubhekisele kuThixo ongenasiphelo kunye noncedo lwayo yayiyile ntombazana isoloko ikhumbuza u-kenosis, wokuthobeka nokuvuma ukuthanda kukaThixo. Ingelosi kaGemma yayiyinto engaqhelekanga. isibonelo. Kwisibhengezo sobuxoki sothando, le yayiyimpendulo yengelosi: «Ewe, ndiya kuba sisikhokelo sakho esiqinisekileyo; Ndiza kuba liqabane lakho elingenakunyibilika ».