Ileta eya kunina wosana olungekazalwa

Yintsimbi ye-11 kusasa, umfazi omncinci okhulelwe iiveki ezintathu uye kwiklinikhi yonyango lwengqondo apho athi abonane nogqirha wakhe. Ukufika nje kwigumbi lokulinda ugqirha wathi "uqinisekile lady?" Kwaye intombazana iyaphendula "Ndenze isigqibo". Ke intombazana ingena kwigumbi elibonisa ugqirha kwaye ilungiselela isenzo esibuhlungu. Emva kweyure le ntombazana ilala ubuthongo obunzulu kwaye ngequbuliso yeva izwi elincinci elikhala:
Mama othandekayo, ndingunyana wakho wenqabile. Uxolo ngokuba ungabuboni ubuso bam kwaye nam andibuboni. Ndiqinisekile, nangona kunjalo, ukuba sikhangeleka ngokufana. Ndiqinisekile ukuba mna nawe sifana kakhulu kuba umama othanda ukudlulisa yonke into kunyana wakhe nakumfane naye. Umama bendifuna ukutya ibele lakho, ndincamise intamo yakho, ndilile ndikuthuthuzelwe nguwe. Hayi indlela emhle ngayo xa umntwana ethuthuzelwa ngunina! Mama othandekayo, bendifuna uphile ukuze uguqulwe i-diaper nguwe, bendifuna ukukuxelela into endiyenzayo esikolweni, ndifuna undincedise ngomsebenzi wam wasekhaya. Umama ndibuhlungu kuba ndingazalwanga ngenye indlela njengomntwana bendicinga ukuba nonyana ukuba ubeke igama lakho kulo kwaye uyeha phakathi kwakhe nabani na ocinga ngokukuphatha kakubi, kuye kwafuneka ajongane nam. Uyazi mama, xa wagqiba kwelokuba ukhuphe isisu, wawucinga ngemali ethathayo ukukhulisa umntwana kunye nokuzibophelela, kodwa enyanisweni ndoneliseka kancinane emva koko ndathembisa ukuba andizukukukhathaza kakhulu. Ayisiyonyani into yokuba bendiphosakele, yonke into eyenzeka kubomi bendoda inentsingiselo kwaye bendinento endinokuyifunda nokukufundela yona. Umama uyazi nokuba awuyazi ukuba ndilumke kakhulu. Ngapha koko, ndingenza izifundo ezinkulu kwaye ndibe ngugqirha wokunceda amantombazana amancinci njengawe angafuni umntwana ukuba anikezele kwaye asamkele isidalwa sabo. Umama ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndizimisele ukubeka igumbi endlwini yam ukuba ndihlale ndinawe ndikuncedise kude kube lusuku lokugqibela lobomi bakho. Ndicinga malunga nexesha onokuhamba nam ukuya esikolweni kusasa kwaye ulungiselele isidlo sasemini. Ndicinga ngexesha onokuxabana ngalo notata kwaye ngokujonga ngokulula ndingakwenza ukuba uncume kwakhona. Ndicinga xa unxiba kwaye bonke bonwabile kwaye bonwabile bendiyinxibile. Ndicinga ngexesha xa sinokuthi siphume siye kubona iifestile zevenkile, sixoxe, sihleke, silwe, sibambe Umama ndingaba ngumhlobo wakho osenyongweni ongazange ucinge ukuba unawe ecaleni kwakho.

Mama othandekayo, ungakhathazeki ukuba ndisezulwini. Nokuba awundinikanga thuba lokuba ndikwazi kwaye ndiphile kweli lizwe, ngoku ndihlala kufutshane noThixo.

Ndamcela uThixo ukuba angakugwebi. Nokuba awundifuni, ndiyakuthanda kwaye andifuni ukuba uThixo akuhluphe ngento oyenzileyo. Mama othandekayo, ubungandifuni ngoku kwaye andinakuhlangana nawe kodwa ndilinde wena apha. Ukuphela kobomi bakho uza kuza apha kum kwaye ndikwaye ukukuganga kuba ungumama wam kwaye ndiyakuthanda. Sele ndilibele ukuba awuzalanga kum kodwa xa uza apha ndizokonwaba ngoba ekugqibeleni ndiyabubona ubuso bomfazi endimthandayo kwaye ndiyokuthanda ngonaphakade, mama.

Ukuba udlula kwixesha elinzima kwaye ufuna ukukhupha kunye nokulahla umntwana wakho, yeka umzuzu. Qonda ukuba umntu umbulala ngoyena mntu ukuthandayo kakhulu kwaye ngumntu oyena mntu uya kumthanda kakhulu.
UNGAYENZI loo nto.

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Iintsana ezibulewe esibelekweni ngoku zinjengeengelosi ezincinci ezijikeleze itrone kaThixo.