Ingxoxo yokugqibela
NdinguThixo wakho, uthando oluninzi, uzuko olungapheliyo olunokuthi konke akwenzele kona. Ndinguyihlo kwaye ndinothando olungenamda kuwe. Kule ngxoxo yokugqibela ndifuna ukukuxelela yonke into endiyivayo kwaye ndikwenzele yona. Ndikudalele njenge-prodigy, ubomi bakho bubodwa, wahlukile kum. Ndingayenzela yonke indalo. Ndikuthumele kulomhlaba uthumo oluthile. Sukulandela ukhuthazo lobubi, longendawo, kodwa ulandele eyam. Iingcebiso zam zibubomi, zikwenza ukuba uphile ubomi bakho ngokupheleleyo kwaye zikukhokelela kungonaphakade. Akufanelanga woyike nantoni na. Kufuneka nje uzame ukuba uphile ubuhlobo bam, ukuhlonipha imiyalelo yam.
Thatha ubomi bonyana wam uYesu abe ngumzekelo.Andithumanga unyana wam kulomhlaba konke konke, kodwa ndimthumele ukuba akunike umzekelo wendlela ekufuneka uphile ngayo nendlela ofanele wenze ngayo. Njengoko ubona kwiZibhalo Ezingcwele unyana wam kweli lizwe weza ngokufihlwa ngokuzalwa ngumfazi othobekileyo, nam ke ndenza njalo ngawe, ndiyazifihla kodwa ndenza ukuba wenze ukuthanda kwam. Unyana wam ebomini bakhe wayenenjongo endimphathise yona, ke nam ndikuphathise umsebenzi kwaye ndifuna ukuba uwugqibe. Ngamaxesha amaninzi unyana wam wayethandazela ukuba ndikhulule, ndiphilise abantu, kwaye ndimamele umthandazo wakhe kuba yayiyintando yam ukuba enze imimangaliso, ndenza njalo nawe, ndimamela yonke imithandazo yakho kwaye ukuba kungokwentando yam uyakuvuma. Unyana wam waphila uthando, wandithandaza egadini yemithi yomnquma ukuba ndiza kumkhulula, kodwa andizange ndimphendule kuba kwafuneka afe emnqamlezweni kwaye avuke kwakhona ukuze ahlawulele intlawulelo yakho, nam ke ndenza njalo nawe, ukuba ngamanye amaxesha andikuniki kwintlungu yakho kwaye kungenxa yakho kuphela kuba loo ntlungu ikukhokelela ekukhuleni, ekuvuthiseni nasekufezekiseni ukuthanda kwam.
Ukhululekile ukukhetha phakathi kokulungileyo nokubi. Awukhululekanga ukuba uthathe isigqibo ngobomi bakho. Ndingumntu wayo yonke into kwaye ndim okhokela bonke ubomi. Ngamanye amaxesha kubonakala ngathi ngamadoda enza izinto ezinkulu kodwa akunjalo. Amadoda amamela kuphela ukhuthazo lwam, alandela umsebenzi wawo kodwa ndim owenza yonke into, ndalathisa yonke into. Nonke kwiimeko zobomi zikhululekile ukukhetha phakathi kokulungileyo nokubi, kodwa ndibhala imihla yakho yonke imihla yobomi bakho. Sukoyika. Ndingutata wakho kwaye ndifuna okona kulungileyo kuni. Ndifuna nonke ebukumkanini bam, ngonaphakade. Ucinga njani ukuba ndingalunganga? Ndiluthando olumsulwa kwaye ndiyithanda yonke into eyenziwe ndim. Ndifuna nawe wenze njalo. Awungekhe uphile ngaphandle kothando. Lowo ungamthandiyo akanakuba ngunyana wam, akanakuba ngumphefumlo wam uthandekayo.
Uhlala umanyene nam. Phila ubomi bakho bemanyene nam. Ukuba uphila ngobuhlobo bam uyiqondile intsingiselo yobomi, uyayazi inyaniso. Inyani kulo mhlaba ndim, nguThixo wakho, utata wakho kwaye ukuba uyandibona ukuba ndingoyena mntu ungowakho ngokupheleleyo uya kubona ukuba ubomi bakho buya kukhanya, bubomi obungenakuthelekiswa nanto, ubomi obuya kukhunjulwa ngumntu wonke kulomhlaba. Ukuba ubusazi xa ndikuthanda, ubuya kulila ngenxa yovuyo. Ulonwabo lwakho kulomhlaba luya kugcwala ukuba uyaluqonda uthando endinalo ngawe. Ngaphandle kwakho bendingekhe ndiyazi into emandiyenze, nokuba ndinguThixo, onamandla onke ubuya kuba lilize ngaphandle kwendalo yam. Nyana wam, sihlala simanyene, wena kunye nam, ngonaphakade.
Kule ncoko yokugqibela ndiyakuxelela ukuba ufunde kwaye ulandele yonke incoko endikunike yona. Incoko nganye ifuna ukukuxelela into, incoko nganye ibonisa uthando lwam kuwe. Yiba nokholo kum. Ukukholwa kum kushukumisa iintaba, kuvule iindlela, kuvule iindlela. Unyana wam uYesu wathi "ukuba beninokholo olunjengokhozo lwemostade, ungawuxelela umthi we-mulberry ukuba uhambe uye kuzityalela elwandle". Ukukholelwa kum okungaboniyo yeyona nto iphakamileyo nebaluleke kakhulu onokuyenza kulomhlaba. Ndithi kuwe hlala uthandaza. Umthandazo lijelo lazo zonke iinceba, ivula intliziyo yam, yenza ukuba isandla sam esinamandla sihambe, umoya wam oyiNgcwele uyahamba. Ndiyakuqinisekisa ukuba akukho namnye kwimithandazo yakho oya kulahleka kodwa zonke ziya kuphendulwa ngokwentando yam.
Nyana wam ndiyakushiya. Le yincoko yokugqibela endinayo nawe, kodwa incoko yam nawe ayipheli kwezi ngxoxo. Ndihlala ndithetha nentliziyo yakho kwaye ndibonisa indlela elungileyo emakuyilandele. Ndifuna ukukuxelela ukuba ndiyakuthanda. Bendihlala ndikuthanda, ndiyakuthanda kwaye ndiya kuhlala ndikuthanda ngonaphakade.