Usuku lokugqibela lobomi bam
Namhlanje njengentsasa nganye ndivuke, emva kokuba ndenze ikofu kwibhari eqhelekileyo ndaya emsebenzini. Kwabonakala ngathi lusuku njengamaxesha amaninzi adlulileyo kodwa endaweni yoko andazi ukuba oko ndandihlangabezana nakho lusuku lokugqibela lobomi bam.
Ngentsasa elandelayo emva kokwenza yonke imisebenzi yam yemihla ngemihla bendizothatha ikhefu kwaye ndincokole nomlingane wam. Kungekudala emva koko ukubetha kwentliziyo yam kwaqala ukwanda, ukubila kwanda ngakumbi nangakumbi kwaye amandla am ayaphela. Njengoko ndacela uncedo ndabona ukuphazamiseka okuthile phakathi kwabantu abandijikelezileyo kodwa ngequbuliso ndakhutshwa kuloo nyaniso. Ngokwenyani leyo yayihlala, nokuba bendiyiyo protagonist enyanisweni wonke umntu wayecinga ngokundinceda nokundinika isandla kwisigulo sam, ndaphila inyani eyahlukileyo.
Ndivile ukuba umphefumlo wam uxokiwe emzimbeni enyanisweni ndawubona umzimba wam ebhedini yoncedo lokuqala wonke ufakwe ngaphakathi kwaye ogqirha babezama ukuphola. Ingelosi ekhanyayo esondela kum kwaye kwimizuzwana embalwa yandenza ndabona ubomi bam bonke.
Kulapho ndaye ndabona khona ukuba mandichithe ixesha lobomi bam. Ukuzithemba kwam ukugqwesa abanye, ukufumana imali eninzi kunye nokuba zezona zibalaseleyo, ngelo xesha zanyamalala kumzuzwana kwaye ndiqonda ukuba ndiye ndaqala indlela yobumfama ebomini.
Lo mfanekiso uqaqambileyo wandixelela ukuba “uyabona indoda elungileyo nokuba ubusemhlabeni uhlonitshwe ngomsebenzi wakho awuyiqondi eyona ntsingiselo yobukho bakho. Kwifilimu yobomi bakho ubona ukusebenza okuninzi kwiminqweno yakho kodwa luphi uthando olungenamiqathango? Awuziboni unceda, ubongoza uThixo uBawo, wenza isenzo sobuzalwana. Ufunde ntoni ngobukho bakho? Ingaba ukulungele ukuhlala kweli hlabathi litsha ukuba ubungalwazi uthando kunye nemfundiso kaThixo uYise?
Ngelixa i-beep yoomatshini yayiqhubeka ngokuqhubekayo, oogqirha babendijikelezile kangangeeyure kwaye ukuphefumla kwam kwakuhamba kancinci kwaye ndicotha ndaye ndagqiba kwelokugqibela lobomi bam ukuba ndibone unyana wam, ndingatsho kuthi ntle kodwa ndimnike kuphela eyona mfundiso ibaluleke kakhulu endingazange ndamnika yona ngaphambili.
Njengokuba unyana wam esondela ebhedini, ndamhleba ndathi kuye "sukuyenza le nto ndiyenzileyo kude kube ngoku. Thanda usapho lwakho, abazali bakho, umfazi wakho, abantwana bakho, abahlobo bakho, osebenza nabo, thanda wonke umntu. Kusasa xa uvuka sukucinga ukuba kufuneka urhole malini kodwa kufuneka uthande kangakanani. Ncuma emini, ungadinwa kakhulu, yabelana ngesonka, thandaza kuThixo, emini, cinga ngezihlobo zakho ezisebunzimeni kwaye ubatsalele umnxeba, masive ukusondela kwakho. Kwaye ukuba ikhulu labantu elinobunzima livela endleleni yakho, bancede bonke. Musa ukuphatha nabani na kakubi, yenza ukulunga kwakho nothando lwakho lube sisikhanyiso esiphambili sobomi bakho. Xa uyokulala ngorhatya, cinga ngokulungileyo ongakhange ukwenze kwaye uthembise ukukwenza ngengomso. Xa unemali eyaneleyo kwaye usebenza ukuze uphile, ungadinwa kakhulu, zinike ixesha lokuba ngokwakho. Zama ukuzithanda kwihlabathi lokulunga ”.
Ukufika kwam ngoku umoya wam wawucotha kwaye ucotha kodwa ngeloxesha bendonwabile bendiziva ukuba ngele ngcebiso ndizinikwe unyana wam ndenze into entle kakhulu ebomini.
Mhlobo othandekayo, ngaphambi kokuba ndiphefumle okokugqibela ndize ndilishiye eli hlabathi ndifuna ukukuxelela ukuba “musa ukuphila ubomi bakho bonke phakathi kweengcinga zakho eziphathekayo. Yazi ukuba ubomi bakho bujinga ngomsonto ngoku. Phila ngokungathi ibingumhla wakho wokugqibela, phila ngokulandela amaxabiso abantu ayinyani akwenza ube yindoda elungileyo onwabileyo ukuba ubuphile ubukho bakho. Ubomi bam ngoku buphelile kodwa ngoku uqala owakho, ukuba kuya kufuneka utshintshe kwaye unike indlela eyiyo, ke ukuba ngenye imini kwenzeka ntoni kuwe ngoku uza kubuphelisa ubukho bakho ngaphandle kokuzisola, ngoncumo emilebeni yakho, ukhala wonke umntu ukulungele ukuhlala kwihlabathi laphakade lothando apho kungafuneki ukuba ufunde nantoni na ukuba sele ulunika uthando eMhlabeni ngoku ”.
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