UMaria Valtorta ubona umama wakhe ePurgatory

Nge-4 ka-Okthobha 1949, ngo-15,30 pm.
Emva kwexesha elide ndibona umama wam evutha amalangatye ePurgatory.
Andizange ndiyibone kumadangatye. Wakhwaza. Andikwazi ukukunyanzela ukukhala endikucacisayo kuMarta ngesizathu sokungamchukumisi.
Umama akasenguye otshayayo, ongwevu, onentetho erhabaxa, onobutshaba kuyo yonke into nawo wonke umntu, njengoko ndambonayo kwiminyaka emithathu yokuqala emva kokufa xa, nangona ndandimcenga, wayengafuni ukubuyela kuThixo ... phantse ndoyike, njengoko ndambona kule minyaka ilandelayo. Umhle, uhlaziyiwe, uzolile. Ukhangeleka njengomtshakazi enxibe ilokhwe yakhe engasengwevu kodwa emhlophe, emhlophe qwa. Ivela kumadangatye ukusuka kwi-groin up.
Ndiyathetha naye. Ndithi kuye: “Ukhona, mama? Nangona kunjalo ndithandaze kakhulu ukuba nditshitshise isivakalisi kwaye ndithandazile. Ngale ntsasa yesikhumbuzo sesithandathu ndinenze uMthendeleko oNgcwele. Kwaye usekhona!
Ndonwabile, ndonwabile, uyaphendula: “Ndilapha, kodwa okwexeshana. Ndiyayazi ukuba uthandazile wenza abantu bathandaze. Ngale ntsasa ndithathe inyathelo elikhulu eliya eluxolweni. Ndiyabulela kunongendi ondithandazeleyo. Ndiza kukuvuza ngoko ... Kungekudala. Kungekudala ndagqiba ukuzicoca. Sele ndizicocile iimpazamo zengqondo ... intloko yam enekratshi ... emva koko ezo zentliziyo ... ukuzingca kwam ... Zazezona zinzima kakhulu. Ngoku ndicacisa ezo zenxalenye esezantsi. Kodwa zizinto ezingenamsebenzi xa kuthelekiswa nezangaphambili ".
"Kodwa ndakukubona utshaya kwaye unentiyo .., awufuni kujikela eZulwini ...".
"Eh! Ndandisendibalasele ... Ndazithoba? Bendingafuni. Latsho lawa ikratshi ”.
"Ubuhlungu nini?"
“Ndandiqhubeka nokuthanda umhlaba. Kwaye uyazi ukuba yayingekuko ukunamathela okuhle ... Kodwa sele ndiqondile. Ndandibuhlungu ngayo. Kuba ndiye ndayiqonda, ngoku ukuba akusekho siphoso seqhayiya, ukuba bendimthanda kakubi uThixo, ndifuna ukuba abe sisicaka sam, nakokubi kuwe… ”.
“Ungaphinde uyicinge loo nto, mama. Ngoku ihambile.
“Ewe kudlulile. Kwaye ukuba kunjalo, ndiyabulela. Kungenxa yenu ukuba ndinjalo. Idini lakho ... Ufumene indawo yentlambululo-miphefumlo kum kungekudala uxolo ”
"Ngo-1950?"
"Ngaphambili! Phambili! Kungekudala! ".
Ke akusayi kuphinda kuthandazelwe.
“Thandaza ngendlela endandilapha ngayo. Kukho imiphefumlo emininzi, yazo zonke iintlobo, kunye noomama abaninzi abalibalekileyo. Simele sithande kwaye sicinge ngomntu wonke. Ngoku ndiyazi. Uyayazi indlela yokucinga ngayo wonke umntu, thanda wonke umntu. Ndiyayazi le nto ngoku, kwaye ndiyaqonda ngoku ukuba ilungile. Ngoku andisekho (amagama achanekileyo) ityala elichasene noThixo, ngoku ndithi kulungile ...
"Uyandithandazela."
"Ehe! Ndacinga ngawe kuqala. Jonga ukuba bendiyigcina kanjani indlu apho. uyazi, huh? Kodwa ngoku ndiza kuthandazela umphefumlo wakho kwaye ukonwaba ukuba uza nam. "
"Kwaye uTata? Uphi utata? "
Msgstr "Kwi-Purgatory".
"Kodwa? Nangona kunjalo yayilungile. Usweleke njengomKristu, ngokurhoxa ”.
"Ngaphezulu kwam. Kodwa ilapha. UThixo ugweba ngokwahlukileyo kuthi. Indlela yakhe… ".
"Kutheni utata ekhona?"
"Eh !!" (Ndiva kakubi ngayo, bendinethemba elide ezulwini)
“Kwaye umama kaMarta? Uyazi, Marta… ".
"Ewe Ewe. Ngoku ndiyazi ukuba yintoni uMarta. Kuqala…, isimilo sam… Umama kaMarta kudala engekho apha ”.
“Uthini ngomama womhlobo wam u-Eroma Antonifli? Uyazi…".
"Ke. Sazi yonke into. Sizihlambulula. Ilungile kuneengcwele. Kodwa siyayazi. Ukuhla kwam apha, uphumile.
Ndibona ulwimi lomadangatye kwaye bayasizela. Ndimbuza:
"Ngaba uhlupheka kakhulu ngumlilo?"
"Hayi ngoku. Ngoku kukho enye eyomeleleyo engaziva ngoluhlobo. Kwaye ... omnye umlilo wenza ukuba ufune ukubandezeleka. Kwaye ke ukubandezeleka akulimazi. Zange ndafuna ukubandezeleka… uyazi… ”.
“Umhle, mama, ngoku. Unjengokuba bendifuna wena.
“Ukuba ndinje ndinetyala kuwe. Ewe! zininzi izinto oziqondayo xa ulapha. Siyaqondana ngakumbi nangakumbi, kokukhona sizihlambulula kwikratshi nokuzingca. Ndinezinto ezininzi ... ".
"Ungaphinde uyicinge loo nto."
“Kufuneka ndicinge ngayo… Usale kakuhle, Maria…”.
“Usale kakuhle, mama. Khawuleza uze nam… ".
“Xa uThixo ethanda…”.
Bendifuna ukumakisha oku. Inemfundiso. Kuqala ukohlwaya iziphoso zengqondo, ke emva kwentliziyo, ukubo ke ubuthathaka benyama. Sifanele sithandaze, ngokungathi zizizalamane zethu, ngenxa yokuhlanjululwa okushiyekileyo; Umgwebo kaThixo wahluke kakhulu kowethu; I-purgatives iyayiqonda into abangazange bayiqonde ebomini kuba zigcwele ngokwabo.
Ngaphandle kobuhlungu bukatata ... ndiyavuya ukumbona enoxolo, onwabile ngokwenene, ngumama ohlwempuzekileyo!