Iindaba: "emva kokubanjwa kwentliziyo bendiseZulwini, ndizokuxelela ukuba kunjani"

Ngenye imini ngoSeptemba, uCharlotte Holmes wabukela phezulu njengoko abasebenzi bezonyango abalishumi babengqonge ibhedi yakhe yasesibhedlele kwaye balwa ngobuqhawe ukumbuyisa ekufeni. Omnye wabasebenzi wamngqengqisa ebhedini, ehambisa ukucofa kwesifuba ngelixa abanye belawula iziyobisi, balungisa iimonitha, kwaye babiza ukufunda. Kwikona yegumbi, uCharlotte wabona umyeni wakhe uDanny ebukele, eyedwa kwaye esoyika.

Emva koko, wasusa ivumba elimnandi kakhulu elakha lacola. Kwaye ngalo, izulu lavuleka phambi kwakhe. UCharlotte, owayehlala noDanny eMammoth iminyaka engama-48, wayelaliswe esibhedlele iintsuku ezintathu ngaphambili kwisibhedlele saseCox South e-Springfield emva kokuya kuvavanyo kunye nentliziyo yakhe kwaye wathunyelwa ngqo esibhedlele xa uxinzelelo lwegazi lakhe yayikhuphukile nge-234/134.

"Bendihlala ndinengxaki noxinzelelo lwegazi, kwaye bendikhe ndaya esibhedlele amatyeli amabini okanye amathathu ngaphambili xa bandifaka kunyango lwe-IV ukuze ndihlise," utshilo. “Ngelo xesha, ngoSeptemba, ndandilapho iintsuku ezintathu kwaye ndandixhomekeke kubo bonke abagadi bokubetha kwentliziyo. Bebesandula ukundinika isiponji sokuhlamba ebhedini yam kwaye bebenxibe I gown yesibhedlele esicocekileyo xa kwenzekile. Andikhumbuli kwanto ukusukela ngalaa mzuzu, kodwa uDanny wathi ndiwile nje kwaye omnye wabongikazi wathi, “Owu Thixo wam, akaphefumli. ""

UDanny kamva wamxelela ukuba amehlo akhe avulekile kwaye wayebonakala ejonge. Umongikazi wabaleka ukuphuma egumbini wabiza ikhowudi, ekhokelela ekubeni isihlwele sabasebenzi bezonyango sikhawuleze singene egumbini. Omnye waphakama ebhedini kwaye waqala ukucofa isifuba.

“Bendicinga ukuba andizukugodusa,” watsho uDanny kamva.

Lowo yayingumzuzu, utshilo uCharlotte, xa “ndaphuma ngaphezulu komzimba wam. Ndandijonge phantsi yonke into. Ndizibone zisebenza kum ebhedini. Ndabona uDanny eme ekoneni. "

Kwaye emva koko kwafika ivumba elimnandi.

“Elona vumba limnandi nelimnandi, akukho nanye into endakha ndaliva ngaphambili. Ndingumntu weentyatyambo; Ndiyazithanda iintyatyambo kwaye bekukho ezi ntyatyambo zineli vumba ungalikhumbuliyo, ”utshilo.

Iintyatyambo ziyinxalenye yendawo ethe yenzeka ngesiquphe phambi kwakhe. "UThixo undithathele endaweni engaphaya kwento endakha ndayicinga," utshilo. “Ndavula amehlo kwaye ndothuka. Kwakukho iingxangxasi, iindawo zokungena, iinduli, iindawo ezintle zomhlaba. Kwaye kukho owona mculo umnandi, njengeengelosi ezazicula nabantu bevuma nazo, bezipholele. Ingca, imithi kunye neentyatyambo zazigungqiswa ngexesha lomculo. "

Emva koko wabona iingelosi. “Kwakukho iingelosi ezininzi, kodwa ezi zazinkulu, kwaye amaphiko azo ayethambeka. Bazothatha iphiko bayivuthele, kwaye ndawuva umoya ebusweni bam usuka kumaphiko eengelosi, ”utshilo.

“Uyazi, sonke sicinge ukuba izulu liza kuba njani. Kodwa le… lento ibiphindaphindwe ngesigidi kunayo nantoni na ebendinokuyicinga, ”utshilo uCharlotte. "Ndothukile."

Emva koko wabona "iingcango zegolide, nangaphaya kwazo, bemi ngoncumo kwaye bewangawangisa kum, yayingumama, utata nodadewethu."

Umama kaCharlotte, uMabel Willbanks, wayeneminyaka engama-56 xa wabulawa sisifo sentliziyo. Udadewabo kaCharlotte, uWanda Carter, wayeneminyaka engama-60 xa naye wahlaselwa sisifo sentliziyo wasweleka elele. Uyise, uHershel Willbanks, wayehlala kwi-80s yakhe kodwa emva koko wasweleka "esifa kabuhlungu" ngenxa yengxaki zemiphunga, utshilo.

Kodwa babekhona, babencuma kuye ngaphaya kweminyango yegolide, kwaye babonakala bonwabile kwaye bephilile. Babengenazo iiglasi kwaye bajonge iminyaka engama-40 ubudala. Bebevuya kakhulu ukundibona, ”utshilo uCharlotte.

Kwakukho nomza wakhe uDarrell Willbanks, owayefana nomntakwabo. UDarrell wayelahlekelwe ngumlenze ngaphambi kokuba asweleke ngenxa yeengxaki zentliziyo. Kodwa nantso emi, emi ngemilenze emibini elungileyo kwaye embulisa ngovuyo.

Ukukhanya okungaboniyo okucoca ngasemva kwabathandekayo kunye nesihlwele esikhulu sabantu esimi nabo. UCharlotte uqinisekile ukuba ukukhanya yayinguThixo.

Wayejika intloko esindisa amehlo akhe - ukukhanya kwakukhanya kakhulu- xa enye into yatsala umdla wakhe. Wayengumntwana, umntwana. "Yayilapho phambi komama notata," utshilo.

Okomzuzwana, uCharlotte wayedidekile. Yayingubani loo nkwenkwe? wazibuza. Kodwa kamsinya nje akufika lo mbuzo engqondweni, weva impendulo kaThixo.

Yayingunyana kaDanny, umntwana owakhupha isisu phantse iminyaka engama-40 eyadlulayo xa wayeneminyaka emihlanu enesiqingatha ekhulelwe.

“Ke, bebengakuvumeli ukuba ubambe umntwana okanye umngcwabe xa wawukhupha isisu ixesha elide. Bavele bamxhasa kwaye bamxelela: "Ungumntwana." Kwaye kwakuphelele apho. Kugqityiwe. Ndadandatheka emva kokukhupha isisu, ndinqwenela ukuzibamba, ”utshilo.

Ukubona unyana wakhe omncinci emi nabazali bakhe, wathi, “Andikwazanga kulinda. Ndilahlekile. "

Kwakumangalisa kakhulu, izulu lalinjalo. Kwaye, ngaphaya kweminyango yegolide, weva uThixo esithi, "Wamkelekile ekhaya".

“Kodwa emva koko, ndiye ndayijika intloko yam kuloo kukhanya kwakhona ndaza ndajonga egxalabeni lam. Kwakukho noDanny noChrystal noBrody noShai, ”utshilo malunga nentombi kaDanny uChrystal Meek kunye nabantwana bakhe abadala uBrody noShai. “Bebelila kwaye yaphula intliziyo yam. Siyazi ukuba akukho zintlungu ezulwini, kodwa andizange ndingene emnyango. Bendingekabikho apho. Ndacinga ngendlela endifuna ngayo ukumbona uShai etshata kwaye noBrody etshata ukuqinisekisa ukuba balungile. "

Okwalo mzuzu weva uThixo emxelela ukuba unokhetho. “Ungahlala ekhaya okanye ungabuya. Kodwa ukuba ubuyela umva, kuya kufuneka ulixelele ibali lakho. Kuya kufuneka uchaze into oyibonileyo kunye nomyalezo wam, kwaye umyalezo kukuba ndiyeza kungekudala kwicawa yam, umtshakazi wam, utshilo uCharlotte.

Ngelo xesha, xa uDanny ejonge abahlanguli beqhubeka nokucofa isifuba, weva omnye wabo ebuza, "Iipaddles?" Kuyabonakala ukuba kubhekiswa kwisixhobo sokukhupha umbane.

Weva umphathi ephendula ngohayi kwaye endaweni yoko wayalela uhlobo oluthile lokudutyulwa. "Kwaye emva koko wathi umfana uza ebaleka, kwaye bandinika ithuba lokudubula, kwaye ke kwiimonitha wabona ukuba uxinzelelo lwegazi lwam luyehla," utshilo uCharlotte.

Emva koko, kamva uDanny wamxelela, wabona elinye lamehlo kaCharlotte, "kwaye ndazi ukuba uza kubuyela kum."

UCharlotte wayesele eswelekile kangangemizuzu eli-11.

Xa efika, waqala walila. UDanny wambuza, "Mama, ngaba wenzakele?"

UCharlotte wanikina intloko hayi. Emva koko wambuza: "Ngaba unuka ezo ntyatyambo?"

UDanny wayethumele umyalezo kwiChrystal ngeloxesha uCharlotte wayekayo ukuphefumla, kwaye uChrystal wayeqokelele abantwana bakhe kwaye bonke babalekela eStarfield, besiza kwicala likaCharlotte kanye njengokuba wayeziswa kukhathalelo olunzima.

Xa wabona uChrystal esiza kuye, into yokuqala eyathethwa nguCharlotte yile, "Ngaba uyaziva ivumba leentyatyambo?"

UChrystal waguqukela kuyise wathi, "Huh?"

UDanny wanyusa amagxa. "Andazi," utshilo. "Qhubeka uthi kunuka iintyatyambo."

UCharlotte wayesesibhedlele iiveki ezimbalwa kwaye ngelo xesha “andinakuyeka ukuthetha ngako. Nditshisiwe ebomini bam nasemphefumlweni wam. Kuya kufuneka ndibone into engaqhelekanga kwaye kufuneka ndixelele abantu. Izulu lingcono ngokuphindwe kwesigidi kunokuba ucinga. Ndimisa abantu evenkileni. Nditsho ndimisa iposi yam ndamxelela. Andinantloni. Ndifuna ukwabelana ngeli bali apho ndinakho. "

Xa wayesezulwini, wayeziva ukuba uThixo wayemxelela ukuba xa ebuya uya kubona iingelosi. “Kwaye nje kwinyanga ephelileyo, ndiqalile ukubabona. Ndiyazibona iingelosi ezingabagcini emva kwabo, ”utshilo.

UCharlotte ebesoloko engumKristu ozinikeleyo. Yena noDanny bayinxalenye yeqela elinikezela ngomculo weMammoth Assembly of God. “Kodwa ngoku, ngaphezu kwayo yonke enye into, into endiyithandayo ukuba ndithandaze ebantwini. UDanny wada wandakhela igumbi lokuthandaza. Uyazi ukuba uvuka ngentsimbi yesithathu kusasa kwaye ndiyahamba, kulapho ndikhona. Ibaluleke kakhulu kum, kwaye ngokwenza oku, ndive nabanye abantu abaninzi ngobungqina babo. "

UCharlotte ubalise ibali lakhe kwiicawa ezininzi nakwiintlanganiso zamanye amaqela akule ndawo.

“Andikwazi kunceda ukuthetha ngale nto. Kwaye kuninzi okungakumbi ebalini. Andifuni abantu bacinge ukuba ndiyaphambana- andikhathali nokuba bacinga ukuba ndiyaphambana. Ndiyayazi into endiyiboniswe yiNkosi kwaye andinakuyeka ukuthetha ngendlela emangalisayo uThixo anenceba ngayo, ”utshilo.