UPadre Pio uthetha noThixo: kwiileta zakhe
Ndiza kuphakamisa ilizwi lam kuye ngokuvakalayo, ndingavumi
Ngenxa yoku kuthobela ndikubongoza ukuba ndikubonise ngokwenzeka kum ukusukela ngolwesihlanu ukuya ngokuhlwa, kuzo zontandathu kule nyanga ka-Agasti ka-1918. Andikufanelanga ukukuxelela ngokwenzekileyo ngeli xesha lokufa ngokugqwesileyo. Ndavuma kumakhwenkwe ethu ngobusuku besihlanu, xa ngequbuliso ndagcwele lunkwantyo olukhulu xa ndibona isimilo sasezulwini esingeniswe kum phambi kweliso lobukrelekrele. Ubambe ngesandla isixhobo sohlobo lwesixhobo, esifana nephepha lesinyithi elide kakhulu nelitsolo elibukhali, kwaye kwabonakala ngathi isipitsi siphume ngomlilo. Ukuyibona yonke le nto nokujonga uthe umntu ophosa le nto ichazwe ngasentla emphefumlweni ngalo lonke ugonyamelo, yayiyinto enye. Ndavela ndakhupha isimbonono, ndaziva ngathi ndiyafa. Ndixelele inkwenkwe ukuba ithathe umhlala phantsi, kuba ndiziva ndimbi kwaye andisaziva amandla okuqhubeka.
Ukufela ukholo kuye kwahlala, ngaphandle kokuphazamiseka, kwada kwasa ngosuku lwesixhenxe. Into endixhwaleke kabuhlungu ngeli xesha lilusizi andikwazi ukuyithetha. Nditsho namathumbu ndawabona ukuba aqhekeziwe kwaye ethe nkqo ngasemva kweso sixhobo, yonke into ibitshiswe ngomlilo. Ukusukela ngala mhla ndenzakala ngokufa. Ndiva ngaphakathi entliziyweni yomphefumlo wam inxeba elihlala livulekile, elindenza ndingakhathali.
Yintoni onokuyithetha ngale nto undibuza yona malunga nokubethelelwa kwam emnqamlezweni? Thixo wam, loluphi udideko kunye nokuhlazeka endikuvayo xa kufuneka ndibonise into oyenzileyo kwesi silwanyana sakha sakho! Ibiyintsasa ye-20 kaSeptemba, kwikwayara, emva kokubhiyozelwa kweMisa eNgcwele, xa ndothuswa kukuphumla, okufanayo nokulala kamnandi. Zonke izivamvo zangaphakathi nezangaphandle, hayi ukuba amandla omphefumlo azifumene zizolile. Kuyo yonke loo nto kwathula kwathi cwaka ngaphakathi nangaphakathi kum. kwangoko kwavela uxolo olukhulu kunye nokuyekelela ekuhluthweni ngokupheleleyo kwayo yonke into kwaye isisiphazamiso esifanayo. Yonke le nto yenzeke ngeflash.
Kwaye ngelixa yonke lento iqhubeka ndizibone sele ndihleli phambi komlinganiswa ongaqondakaliyo, ofana nalowo wabonwa ngorhatya we-5 ka-Agasti, owahlula kule nto kuphela ukuba wayenezandla neenyawo necala elilahle igazi. Ukubona kwakhe kuyandothusa; Andikwazanga ukukuxelela into endiyivayo kwangoko. Ndaziva ukuba ndiyafa kwaye ngendingasweleka ukuba iNkosi ibingangenanga ukuxhasa intliziyo yam, endinokuziva ndisihla esifubeni sam.
Ukubona umlinganiswa kuyarhoxa kwaye ndiye ndaziqonda ukuba izandla zam, iinyawo zam kunye necala zihlatywe kwaye zikhuphe igazi. Khawufane ucinge indlela ebekubi ngayo izinto endikhe ndanazo ngelo xesha kwaye mihla le ndiqhubeka ndihlangabezana nazo. Inxeba lentliziyo liyaphosa igazi, ngakumbi ukusuka ngoLwesine kude kube ngokuhlwa kude kube nguMgqibelo. Bawo, ndiyafa zintlungu ngenxa yokubandezeleka kunye nokudideka okulandelayo okuziva kumanzi enzonzobila. Ndiyoyika ukopha de ndife ukuba iNkosi ayimameli ukugcuma kwentliziyo yam ihlwempu kwaye iwushiye lo msebenzi kum. Ngaba uYesu olunge kakhulu, uza kwenza kum?
Ngaba iya kususa okungenani kum lo mbhidamo endiwufumanayo ngezi zibonakaliso zangaphandle? Ndiza kuphakamisa ilizwi lam kuye ngokuqinileyo kwaye andizukuyekisa ukumthintela, ukuze ngenceba yakhe arhoxe kum hayi kwintlungu, hayi kwintlungu, ngoba ndiyayibona ingenakwenzeka kwaye ndiziva ndifuna ukubakho kwintlungu, kodwa le miqondiso yangaphandle, eyeyo Isidubedube kunye nokuhlazeka okungachazekiyo nokungagungqiyo.
Isimilo endinqwenela ukuthetha ngaso kwenye yam yangaphambili asinguye omnye ngaphandle kwento enye endiyithethile nawe komnye umgodi, obonwe nge-5 ka-Agasti. Ulandela ukusebenza kwakhe ngokungagungqiyo, kunye nentlungu engathethekiyo yomphefumlo. Ndeva ukungqungqa okungapheliyo ngaphakathi, njengomphumo wamanzi, osoloko uphosa igazi. Thixo wam! Ukohlwaywa kunene kwaye nomgwebo wakho ulungile, kodwa undenzele inceba. Domine, ndiya kusoloko ndikuxelela ngomprofeti wakho: Domine, ngomsindo ingxabano yakho, mna ndincamile ngomsindo wakho wekhrimu! (INdu. 6, 2; 37, 1). Bawo, ngoku ukuba yonke ingaphakathi lam yaziwa nguwe, musa ukukucekisa ukwenza ilizwi lokuthuthuzela ukufikelela kum, phakathi kwengcwanguzi kunye nobukrakra obunzima.