"Emva kohambo lokuya eMedjugorje ndaye ndachacha kuGawulayo"

Igama lam ndinguTin kwaye ndifuna ukungqina kuwe malunga nobukhulu bukaThixo: indlela uThixo awangena ngayo ebomini bam nendlela awabutshintsha ngayo ngokupheleleyo.

Ndinayo yonke ebomini. Bazali abamangalisayo, imali eyaneleyo kunye nehlabathi lonke elijikeleze mna. Ndiqale ukuba xa ndandineminyaka engama-7-8 ubudala. Ndinayo yonke into, kodwa ubusela bebusenzeka rhoqo ebomini bam. Ziye zaba yimicimbi yam yemihla ngemihla. Ngo-12 ndaqala ukutshaya i-marihuana kwaye ngeloxesha ubomi bam buqala kancinci ukuphulukana nolawulo.

Kwandula ke kwavela "iipipi" ). Ngeminyaka eyi-18 ndathatha i-LSD, ndagoduka ngentsimbi yobusuku, ndivuke abazali bam ndabaxelela ukuba ndithatha lechiza kwaye ndagqibela kudala eVrapče ukusuka kwinkampani yam inyanga yonke (yayilucingo lwam lokuqala Uncedo, kodwa bendingekamazi uThixo, ndingazi nokuba ukhona, Ngokwenyani, xa ndifikile ekhaya emva kwenyanga, nditshintshile, ndaphola kancinane, ndasuka kwinkampani yam ndaye Imeko yokusingqongileyo iye yaba ngcono kakhulu, ngcono kakhulu .. Oku ngokubanzi thina bantu sikwenza-siphumelela isemina, sithandaza kwiirosari ezimbalwa kwaye sicinga ukuba yonke into igqibelele.

Oko kukuthi, -. Kodwa akunjalo. Asizanga nokuza apha ekuqaleni. Ndaye ndatshata ke ndaba ndinomfazi omangalisayo, endazi ngoku ukuba ndithunywe nguThixo kuphela. Ndiqale ukujaja izinto ebomini kwaye ndisebenzela iinkampani ndifuna imali. Ke uThixo wam waba yimali, yonke into yaguqukela kuyo kwaye ibalulekile indlela yokufumana imali. Ndineefemu ezi-3. Ndinenkampani e-Zrče esihogweni sesiyobisi, kumnandi kunye nezesondo, ze-rock'n'roll kwaye ke nam ndaye ndayeka emva kwethuba. Kodwa ngoku ndandi "smarter" kwaye ndaqhubeka ngokwahlukileyo kumachiza. Akukho mntu wayesazi ukuba ndisebenzisa iziyobisi, ngelixa ndizithatha ngokubaninzi. Nabo baba njalo. Ndiqale ukusilela ekhaya, kodwa ngezizathu ezifanelekileyo kwaye ngoku ndinobuchule bobuxoki obugqibeleleyo. Inkampani yam yayinxibe, mafiosi, ababulawa, abanogonyamelo, abathengisi beziyobisi, makro. Ndinomgqomo eZagreb apho babedanisa khona. Ndiye ndachitha iintsuku zam kunye namahenyukazi ngeemfumba zecocaine, ngamanye amaxesha ndide ndenze i-heroin, ndidlala amadayisi kwaye ndisele kwimivalo kwaye ndisehla kwiihotele kwiinkampani ezahlukeneyo.

Ndibuchithile ubomi bam bonke kubuhlungu babanye, ndiqhuba imoto entle, ndiqhatha, ndikhohlisa kwaye ndibile - ngakumbi usapho, abahlobo kunye nabanye abantu. Ndiphila ubomi bempelontle kwaye ndibuhlungu. Ububi obuphuma kuphela emlonyeni wam. Ndafunga, ndonda, ndathetha, ndibiza, ndisebenzisa, ndinoburharha kwaye ndibuhlungu, ndakhohlisa kwaye ndonakalisa usapho lwam yonke imihla, kwaye ndandingayazi nale nto. Kodwa ke into yaqala ukutsiba ... Iingxaki ziqokelele, ndathatha uGawulayo (ndazi kamva malunga naloo nto), usapho lwalusazi yonke into emva koko ndabetha ezantsi (kwaye ngoku ndiyazi ukuba okokuqala wachukumisa uThixo). U-mogle wam akandishiyanga, kodwa wanikela konke ezandleni zikaThixo, wathatha incwadi yomthandazo, waqala ukuthandaza. Okwesihlandlo sokuqala ndaya emthandazweni eSiget nguTata uSmilia Kožul kwaye kungekudala emva koko ndaye ndazifumana ndikwinyanga yomNyaka oMtsha ecaweni hayi kwibar yam kwaye ezi yayizimpawu zokuqala kum zokuba "ndaye ndaphambana" kancinci ... Emva kwesibini iinyanga zokuzama ukutshintsha, ebendingenakukwazi, ndaye ndaphela ngoncedo lwe-mogle yam kwisemina eTabor. Emva koko uBawo uLinić wathi ibinzana: "UNGAYENZII UKUFUNA UTSHINTSHO - KODWA UTSHINTSHO!" Emva kwesi sigwebo kukho into ephuke apha kum, into inyamalale, into iwile, kwaye ngoku ndiyazi ukuba yintoni ... umnyango wobomi bam uvaliwe, kwaye amawaka ezinye iingcango ziye zavulwa, kodwa bengazodwa. UThixo ubavulile .. Kwaye yile nto kanye ayenzayo uThixo, mfundi othandekayo, le yiyo yonke intsingiselo yobukho bakhe, evula yonke iminyango, evula onke amangeniso kwaye akubonise zonke iindlela onokuthi uza kuye .. Ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba uyafuna ... isigqibo sakho.

Emva kwesi sigwebo, ndagoduka kwaye ngosuku olulandelayo ndazivalela ibha kunye nazo zonke iinkampani. Andikaze ndiphinde ndisele ikofu kunye nomntu ovela kwinkampani endala. UThixo ungene ebomini bam, kwaye mna Glio ndavumela. Khange ndiyigxothe, andikhalazanga kwaye andizami ukuqonda nantoni na ngengqondo yam. Ndamvumela uThixo ukuba andenzele. Okwalo mzuzu wandikhulula kuyo yonke into, wandibonisa bonke ubuhle bobomi kunye naye.Wandinika lonke uvuyo noxolo, wandikhulula ekuxhomekekeni kobomi ... Wavula amehlo am ukubona zonke izipho zakhe ( umfazi wam kunye nabantwana kunye nexesha elichithwe kunye nabo). Indinike intsingiselo kunye nomxholo wobukho bam. Ngoncedo lwakho anditshayi, andiseli, andidlali dayisi, andiziphathi iziyobisi, andizondi, andithuki, andizenzi ubufebe (nditsho neGoogle yam phantse unyaka ndihlala kubunyulu obugcweleyo kwaye nje kule nyulu ndiyicacileyo Ngokwenene luthando, yintoni intsingiselo, yintoni eyintloko, kuba ububi abuboni ngelixa sihlala kulo, kwaye ububi buso bonke busisusa kokulungileyo, inkanuko kunye neenkanuko zethu, Iminqweno yethu kunye nokubawa zizinto esizifunayo kuqala, ukuzonwabisa kuthi, nakwabanye) Andilwi, ndihlonele abazali kwaye ndizama ukuba ngcono imihla ngemihla. Ndizama ukuthanda uThixo ngentliziyo yam yonke, uyisiqalo nesiphelo sayo yonke into, Ungumbongo wam. Andisaphili kodwa uThixo uhlala kum, kwaye oku akuthethi ukuba andisazenzi zono kodwa ukuba uThixo unamandla kunasiphi na isono, Uyasihlambulula, aze sihlambe.

Kwaye undinike ntoni na uThixo? Uthembise izulu emhlabeni kulowo uzinika kuye.

Emva kwexesha elithile apho uThixo andikhulule ngokwenyani kuyo yonke into, kwaye ndaye ndizinikela kuye imihla ngemihla nangakumbi, ndaya eMejjororje. Njengokuba bendiqala ukujonga isifo sam (i-AIDS) ngoko ndiyalibala ukuba ndinaso.
Ndize kwiNtaba ye-Apparition kwaye kokuma kokugqibela ndaziva ndinesidingo sokuba ndisamkele esi sifo kwaye ndiyenzile. Ndiye ndaqala ukulila ndibulela uThixo ngayo yonke into andinike yona, nasesi sigulo. Ndithathe iwashi ebizayo esandleni sam eyayithengiwe ngemali etyelweyo, ndibhalele umyalezo ndisithi ndiyamthanda kwaye ndiyamkholelwa ndaye ndaphosa itye elityeni. Ndikhe ndancama - hayi kakhulu kwiwotshi njengenxalenye yobomi elala phezu kwewotshi. Ndizinikezele kuye ndatsho ukuba ndifuna ukuzisa ukukhanya kwakhe kunye namandla obomi andinike bona kubo bonke abantu abagulayo. Ndiyazi ukuba uThixo unecebo, kuba uThixo umhlobo wam, inesicwangciso sakhe ngamnye wethu. Ndifumene into engummangaliso kule ntaba, into ekhethekileyo ...

Ngokuhlwa ndiye ndafowunela unkosikazi wam, wandixelela ukuba ngeloxesha akakwazi kuphakamisa imilenze yakhe, akakwazi kushukuma, kwaye wayekhulelwe kakhulu kumntwana wesibini kwaye esoyika kakhulu. Ndiyayazi into eyenzekileyo kwaye ndangqina kwabanye ngala mhla, bendisazi ukuba nguThixo owenza into yakhe. Ngale nto ndiyingqinayo, ndavuma ukholo lwam kunye nentembelo yam kuThixo wam, NGOKUBA NDINJANI NA. Ndize eZagreb, ndiye ndahamba ndenza uvavanyo kwakhona….

Ewe ... uvavanyo lwalukhona-lwalungelulo! UTHIXO wam wandinika ubomi obutsha kwaye ndiyamthanda ngentliziyo yam yonke kwaye ndiyamthemba…. Kwaye wena mhlobo? Ngaba uyamthemba?
Udumo kuye.