Ndibulela
NdinguThixo wakho, ubawo wozuko olukhulu olunokuthi konke akwenzele kona kwaye uqhubeke nemfesane yakho. Ndifuna ukuba uhlale unobuhlobo nam, ukuthandaza kum kunye nokundibulela ngokungapheliyo. Awungekhe uphile ngaphandle kwam. Ndingumdali wayo yonke into kwaye ndingayenza yonke into kodwa ndifuna ukuba uthathe inyathelo lokuqala kum undinike umbulelo ngako konke endikwenzela kona. Ndihlala ndishukuxa ukuze ndikuncede kodwa amaxesha amaninzi awuluboni uncedo lwam. Ucinga ukuba ngabantu abanokukunceda kodwa ndim ndinguye okhokela yonke into, nawo onke amadoda angenelela ebomini bakho. Akukho nto yenzeka ngamathuba kodwa ndim oshukumisa yonke into.
Rhoqo izinto azihambi ngendlela ofuna ngayo kwaye uthi ububi bakho kum. Kodwa kufuneka ungaweli ekubandezelekeni ndinesicwangciso sobomi kuwe ongasaziyo kodwa mna ndingusomandla ndiye ndazimisela yonke into kususela kwaphakade. Akufanelanga woyike nantoni na, kufuneka ucinge nje ngokuba ngumhlobo wam, umphefumlo wam endiwuthandayo kwaye ndiza kwenza izinto ezintle ebomini bakho. Ukuba uhlala ungakufumani into oyicelileyo kwaye kuphela kwesizathu sokuba yindlela yobomi engakhange ndikubekele yona kodwa ndihlala ndikulungele ukukunceda ukuba uyayifuna. Ndithi kuwe ngoku "hlala uhleli intando yam". Amadoda amaninzi aphila ngokonwaba kwawo kwaye awandibuzi ukuba ndiwakhokele ebomini bawo, awabuphili ubuhlobo bam kwaye ndingu thixo wobomi bawo. Oku akwenzi ukuba wenze intando yam kwaye ngenxa yoko awunakonwaba kuba ayiphuhlisi isigama sakho.
Kuya kufuneka uphile intando yam, kufuneka uphumeze uyilo endilwenzileyo ebomini bakho kwaye kufuneka usoloko undibulela. Ndiyawuxabisa umthandazo wokubulela kuba ndiqonda ukuba omnye wabantwana bam wonwabile ngesipho sobomi, ndimenzela yonke into. Xa uhlala kwimeko ebuhlungu akufuneki ukhathazeke. Njengoko unyana wam uYesu esitsho "xa isityalo sithwala isiqhamo siwo ukuze sithwale isiqhamo ngakumbi". Ndenza ukuthena ebomini bakho ngenxa yentlungu ukukubiza ukuba uphile amava amatsha, ukuphakamisa umphefumlo wakho kum, kodwa ungavukeli kwintlungu yakho ndikulungiselela indlela entsha yobomi. Sukuba ungayithembi intlungu yakho kodwa ndithembe. Bulela ngokuqhubekayo kwaye uya kubona ukuba ndiyasiva isicelo sakho sonke ngokwentando yam.
Ke xa ucela into engahambelani nentando yam uyakuyithetha ngokholo "Thixo wam, cinga ngayo", ndikhathalela ubomi bakho kwaye ndithatha amanyathelo akho ukuya kwintando yam. Awuzange uphelelwe lithemba kodwa uthandaze kum, undibulele, ucele kwaye ndiza kukwenzela yonke into. Nditsho nonyana wam uYesu xa wayesemhlabeni ebomini bakhe wandithandaza kakhulu. Ndamncedisa ndamenzela yonke into. Sasinobudlelwane obugqibeleleyo. Yenza njengoko wenzayo unyana wam uYesu.Uhlala unxibelelana nam rhoqo kwaye xa ubona ukuba ikho into engahambi kakuhle ngobomi bakho, ndibuze kwaye ndiza kukunika impendulo. Ndihlala kuwe kwaye ndithetha nentliziyo yakho. Ndisebenzisa amacebo obomi endinawo ngamnye wabantwana bam ukuze kulunge wonke umntu, kulunge kubo bonke abantu.
Unyana wam undibulela rhoqo. Ukuba ubunokubona yonke into endikwenzela yona bendiya kuhlala ndinombulelo. Ndihlala ndisondele kuwe, ndiqinisekisa ukuba ubomi bakho bumnandi, bubomi bokomoya, ubomi obusekwe kum. Awungekhe ucinga ukuba ndinguThixo ombi kwaye andicingi abantwana bam kodwa ndingutata olungileyo onakekela omnye kuni. Ndibizela mntu ngamnye kubomi banaphakade, ukuba baphile eParadesi, ebukumkanini bam, naphakade. Akufanelanga woyike nantoni na kufuneka undithande, phila ngokuhlangana nam kwaye undibulele ngayo yonke into endikwenzela yona. Ukuba uyenza le nto uza kubona ukuba yonke into eyenzeka kuwe ebomini iya kucaca kuba awuphileli ukwanelisa iinkanuko zakho kodwa ukuzalisekisa ukuthanda kwam. Nditsho nonyana wam uYesu kulomhlaba wenza inkululeko, ukuphiliswa, kodwa ke bekufanele ukuba afe emnqamlezweni ukuze usindiswe. Ndicela yonke indoda yenze idini ngenxa yoluntu. Awundiqondi ngoku kodwa xa usezulwini kunye nam zonke izinto ziya kubonakala ngokucacileyo kuwe, uya kubona ubomi bakho ngamehlo am kwaye uza kundibulela ngako konke endikwenzele kona.
Ndihlala ndibulela. Ndikwenzela into nganye kwaye ndingutata olungileyo onithandayo. Ukuba uyandibulela uyaluqonda uthando lwam, uyaqonda ukuba ndinguThixo oshukumisayo ebantwini, ohamba ngokuthanda kwakho, akuthande.