Saint Gemma Galgani: ukuthamba, ubukhali kunye nokungcikivwa kwengelosi egadayo

UKUSUKA KWIDIARY KA-SANTA GEMMA GALGANI

Ukuthantamisa, ubukhali kunye nezingcikivo zengelosi engumgcini.

Ndilele phezolo, kukho ingelosi yam esecaleni kwam; ndithe xa ndivuka ndambona esecaleni kwam; wandibuza ukuba ndiyaphi. “Eziphuma kuYesu,” ndaphendula.

Imini yonke ihambe kakuhle kakhulu. Nkosi yam, kodwa xa kuhlwa azange yenzeke loo nto! Ingelosi engumlindi iye yaba nzulu kwaye ingqongqo; Andizange ndicinge isizathu, kodwa yena, ngenxa yokuba andinakufihla nto kuye, ngeendudumo ezinzima (xa ndandiqalise ukucengceleza imithandazo eqhelekileyo) wandicela ukuba ndiyenze. "Wamkelekile". "Ulinde bani?" (isiba nzulu ngakumbi nangakumbi). Khange ndicinge nto. "Confratel Gabriel" [ndaphendula]. Ukuva loo mazwi ethethwa, waqala wandikhwaza, endixelela ukuba ndilinde ilize, kwaye ndilindele impendulo, kuba ...

Kwaye apha yandikhumbuza izono ezibini ezenziwe emini. Thixo wam, hayi ubuqatha! La mazwi wawabiza izihlandlo ezininzi: «Ndineentloni ngawe. Ndiza kugqiba ndingabonakali kwakhona, kwaye mhlawumbi ... ngubani owaziyo ukuba ababonakalisi ".

Uye wandishiya ndikweso simo. Ibinditsho ndalila kakhulu. Ndiyafuna ukucela uxolo, kodwa xa ecaphukile, akukho thuba lokuba afune ukundixolela.

Ingelosi ibonakalisa ububele bayo kuye. Izilumkiso zobomi bomoya.

Khange ndimbone kwakhona ngokuhlwanje, nangale ntsasa; namhlanje undixelele ukuba ndinqula uYesu, eyedwa, emva koko wanyamalala. Kwaye ngobu busuku bebulunge ngakumbi kunobusuku obungaphambili; i

Ndacela uxolo izihlandlo eziliqela, yaye wayebonakala ekulungele ukundixolela. Ngobu busuku wayesoloko enam: wandiphindaphinda ukuba ulungile kwaye awusenezothe uYesu wethu kwaye, xa ndiphambi kwakhe, makalunge ngakumbi kwaye alunge ngakumbi.