Mna, isazinzulu esingakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo, ndiyakholelwa kwimimangaliso
Ndijongile kwisikroskopu sam, ndabona iseli ebulala isifo segazi kwaye ndagqiba kwelokuba isigulana esilivavanyayo igazi simele ukuba safa. Kwakungo-1986 kwaye ndandivavanya imfumba enkulu yamasampulu omtshato "ongaboniyo" ngaphandle kokuxelelwa ukuba kutheni.
Ndinikwe isifo esibucekeceke, kwaye ndicinge ukuba yinto yomthetho. Mhlawumbi usapho olunosizi luvavanisa ugqirha ukuba angabhubha engenakwenza nto. Umongo wamathambo uxelele ibali: isigulana senza i-chemotherapy, umhlaza wangena ekuxolelweni, emva koko waphinda wabuya, wenza olunye unyango kwaye umhlaza waya ekuxolelweni okwesibini.
Ndaye ndeva ukuba wayesaphila iminyaka esixhenxe emva kweengxaki zakhe. Ityala elalingelolokulingelwa, kodwa laqwalaselwa yiVictoria njengommangaliso kwidossier yokuchaphazela kukaMarie-Marguerite d'Youville. Akukho ngcwele yayingekazalwa eCanada. Kodwa iVatican yayisele yalala eli tyala njengommangaliso. Iingcaphephe zakhe zamangalela ukuba akanoxolelo lokuqala kwaye wabuyela kwakhona; endaweni yoko, babanga ukuba unyango lwesibini lwalukhokelele ekuxolelweni kokuqala. Lo mahluko ucekeceke wawubalulekile: sikholelwa ukuba kunokwenzeka ukupholisa ekuxolelweni kokuqala, kodwa hayi emva kokuphinda uphinde. Iingcali zaseRoma zavuma ukuphinda ziqwalasele kwakhona isigqibo sabo kuphela ukuba lingqina "elingaboniyo" liphinde lahlola isampulu, lafumanisa into endiyibonileyo. Ingxelo yam ithunyelwe eRoma.
Andizange ndive malunga nenkqubo yokuhlaziywa kobhaliso kwaye andinakucinga ukuba isigqibo sasifuna ingqwalaselo enkulu yesayensi. (...) Emva kwexesha elithile ndamenywa ukuba ndizokunika ubungqina kwinkundla yezenkolo. Ndixhalabile malunga nokuba babuza kundibuza ntoni, ndeza namanqaku asuka kuncwadi lwezonyango ngamathuba okusinda kwi-leukemia, ndiqaqambisa amanyathelo apinki. (...) Isigulana kunye noGqirha bafaka ubungqina kwinkundla kwaye isigulana samchazela indlela awayethetha ngayo no-d'Youville ngexesha lokuphinda ubuye.
Emva kwexesha elingakumbi, safunda iindaba ezimnandi zokuba u-d'Youville uza kungcwaliswa nguJohn Paul II nge-9 kaDisemba 1990. Oonongendi ababevule isizathu sobungcwalisa bandimema ukuba ndibenenxaxheba kumsitho. Ekuqaleni, ndathandabuza ukungafuni ukubakhubekisa: ndingakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo nomyeni wam ongumJuda. Kodwa bakuvuyile ukusifaka nathi kumthendeleko kwaye asikwazanga ukudlulisa kwilungelo lokuzibonela ngawethu ukwamkelwa kweengcwele zokuqala zelizwe lethu.
Umsitho ubusenziwa eSan Pietro: bekukho amananekazi, ugqirha kunye nesigulana. Ngokukhawuleza emva koko, sadibana noPopu: umzuzu ongenakulibaleka. ERoma, oonobumba baseKhanada bandinika isipho, incwadi eyabutshintsha ngokupheleleyo ubomi bam. Kwakuyikopi yePositio, bonke ubungqina bemimangaliso ye-Ottawa. Inolwazi lwasesibhedlele, imibhalo ebhaliweyo engqinayo. Inayo nengxelo yam. (...) Ngequbuliso, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba ndikwenziwe umsebenzi wam wezonyango kwindawo yogcino yaseVatican. Umbhali kum apha ucinga kwangoko: ingaba ikhona eminye imimangaliso yolwaziso lwangaphambili? Ngaba konke ukuphilisa nezifo ezinyangelweyo? Ngaba isayensi yezonyango yayiqwalaselwe kwixesha elidlulileyo, njengoko kuye kwenzeka namhlanje? Babone ntoni ogqirha emva koko?
Emva kweminyaka engamashumi amabini kunye nokuthatha uhambo oluninzi lokuya eVietnam ndashicilela iincwadi ezimbini ezithetha ngemithi kunye nenkolo. (...) Olu phando lubalaselise amabali ahlabayo okuphilisa kunye nesibindi. Icacise ukufana okungafaniyo phakathi kwezonyango kunye nenkolo ngokwendlela yokuqiqa kunye neenjongo, kwaye yabonisa ukuba iCawa ayiyibekeli ecaleni isayensi ukuba ilawule oko kungummangaliso.
Nangona nje ndingakholelwa kubukho bukaThixo, ndikholelwa kwimimangaliso, izibakala ezothusayo nezibonakala ngathi asinakufumana nkcazo yesayensi. Esi sigulana sokuqala sisaphila kwiminyaka engama-30 emva kokuchukunyiswa sisifo esibuhlungu kakhulu se-myeloid leukemia kwaye andikwazi ukuchaza ukuba kutheni. Kodwa uyayenza.