Ingelosi ihlaba entliziyweni kaSanta Teresa waseAvila

USaint Teresa wase-Avila, owaseka i-odolo yenkolo ye-Discalced Carmelites, wachitha ixesha elininzi kunye namandla emthandazweni kwaye waduma ngamava angaqondakaliyo awayenawo noThixo kunye neengelosi zakhe. Uvuthondaba lokuhlangana kwengelosi kaSaint Teresa kwenzeka ngo-1559 eSpain, ngelixa wayethandaza. Ingelosi yabonakala yaza yamhlaba intliziyo yakhe ngomkhonto ovuthayo owathumela uthando olucocekileyo nolunomdla lukaThixo emphefumlweni wakhe, uSt.

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Kwimbali yakhe, Ubomi (eyapapashwa ngo-1565, kwiminyaka emithandathu emva kweso siganeko), uTeresa ukhumbula ukubonakala kwengelosi evuthayo, ukusuka kwenye yemiyalelo ekhonza ngokusondeleyo kuThixo: iiserafi okanye iikerubhi. UTeresa wabhala wathi:

“Ndabona ingelosi ibonakala ikwimo yomzimba kufutshane necala lam lasekhohlo… Yayingenkulu, kodwa incinci kwaye intle ngokugqithisileyo. Ubuso bakhe babuvutha ngumlilo kangangokuba wabonakala engowona mgangatho uphakamileyo wezithunywa zezulu, into esiyibiza ngokuba ziiserafi okanye iikerubhi. Amagama azo, iingelosi azindixeleli, kodwa ndiyazi kakuhle ukuba ezulwini kukho umahluko omkhulu phakathi kweentlobo ngeentlobo zeengelosi, nangona ndingenako ukuyichaza. ”
Umkhonto womlilo uhlaba entliziyweni yakhe
Emva koko ingelosi yenza into eyothusayo: yamhlaba intliziyo kaTeresa ngekrele elidangazelayo. Kodwa eso senzo sasibonakala sinobundlobongela eneneni yayisisenzo sothando, uTeresa wakhumbula:

“Ezandleni zakhe ndabona umkhonto wegolide, unencam yentsimbi ekupheleni obonakala ngathi uvutha umlilo. Wayithi nkxu entliziyweni yam izihlandlo eziliqela, ukuya kutsho ngaphakathi. Xa wayikhuphayo, kwaba ngathi iyabatsalela ngaphakathi, nto leyo endishiya ndivutha luthando ngoThixo.”
Ubuhlungu obukhulu kunye nobumnandi kunye
Kwangaxeshanye, uTeresa wabhala, weva iintlungu ezinamandla kunye nemincili emnandi ngenxa yento eyenziwe yingelosi:

“Intlungu yayinamandla kangangokuba yandenza ndancwina izihlandlo ezininzi, kodwa ubumnandi beentlungu babumangalisa kangangokuba ndandingenakunqwenela ukukhululeka kuyo. Umphefumlo wam wawungoneliswa yiyo nantoni na ngaphandle koThixo.Yayingeyontlungu yasenyameni, kodwa yeyomoya, nangona umzimba wam wawusiva kakhulu […] Le ntlungu yathatha iintsuku ezininzi kwaye ngelo xesha ndandingafuni nokuyibona okanye ndingafuni nokuyibona okanye ndingayiboni. thetha nabani na , kodwa kuphela ukuthanda intlungu yam, eyandinika ulonwabo olungaphezu kwayo nayiphi na into edaliweyo inokundinika. ”
Uthando phakathi koThixo nomphefumlo womntu
Uthando olunyulu olwafakwa yingelosi entliziyweni kaTeresa lwayivula ingqondo yakhe ukuze abe nombono onzulu wothando loMdali ngabantu abadalileyo.

UTeresa wabhala wathi:

Obu budlelwane bubuthathaka kodwa bunamandla obuphakathi koThixo nomphefumlo kangangokuba ukuba nabani na ucinga ukuba ndiyaxoka, ndithandazela ukuba uThixo, ngokulunga kwakhe, amnike amava athile.”
Isiphumo samava akhe
Amava kaTeresa ngengelosi aba nempembelelo ebalulekileyo kubomi bakhe bonke. Wakwenza usukelo lwakhe yonke imihla ukuzinikela ngokupheleleyo kwinkonzo kaYesu Kristu, awayekholelwa ukuba ingumzekelo ogqibeleleyo wothando lukaThixo olusebenza. Wayehlala ethetha kwaye ebhala ngendlela ukubandezeleka awakunyamezelayo uYesu awakhulula ngayo ihlabathi eliwileyo kunye nendlela intlungu uThixo avumela ukuba abantu bafumane ngayo inokufikelela iinjongo ezilungileyo ebomini babo. Isiqubulo sikaTeresa saba: "Nkosi, ndivumele ndibandezeleke okanye ndife."

UTeresa waphila de kwangowe-1582 ukuya kwiminyaka engama-23 emva kokudibana okumangalisayo nengelosi. Ebudeni belo xesha, wahlaziya ezinye iimonki ezazikho (ezinemithetho engqongqo yokuhlonela uThixo) waza waseka ezinye izindlu zoonongendi ezisekelwe kwimilinganiselo engqongqo yobungcwele. Ekhumbula ukuba kwakunjani ukuziva uzinikelo olunyulu kuThixo emva kokuba ingelosi yamhlaba ngomkhonto entliziyweni yakhe, uTeresa wazama ukunikela konke okusemandleni akhe kuThixo nokubongoza abanye ukuba benze okufanayo.