Umlingisi oguqulwe eMedjugorje: gcina umbulelo kwipatile esixhenxe, uve kunye nozuko

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UOriana uthi:

Ukuza kuthi ga kwiinyanga ezimbini ezidluleyo, ndandihlala eRoma ndihlala kunye noNarcisa. Sobabini sasikhethe ukuba ngabadlali beqonga; emva koko iRoma, emva koko ii-auditions, emva koko ukuqeshwa, iminxeba kwaye ngamanye amaxesha umsebenzi othile, umnqweno omkhulu wokwenza "ukwenza" kodwa kwakhona umsindo omkhulu kunye nengqumbo kwabo "abanokuthi" bakunike isandla, kodwa abakhathaleli wonke umntu. , okanye okubi ngakumbi, kwaye ngelishwa kakhulu, ihlala ikunika ithuba lokusebenza "ngokwemvelo" ngokutshintshiselana kwenye into, ngaphandle kokuchaza ukuba yintoni. Phakathi kwako konke oku kubhideka kwahlala iminyaka emi-4, kubanda kangakanani, zingaphi iisandwich ezishiywe kwisisu, zingaphi iikhilomitha ezingenanto ezifihliweyo, zingaphi ukuphoxeka!

Ngomhla wamashumi amabini anesithandathu ku-Epreli: Mna noNarcisa sigoduka siye kuchitha iintsuku ezimbalwa kunye nosapho lwabo, usuka kwidolophu ekwiphondo laseAlessandria, ndivela eGenoa.

Ngenye imini uNarcisa wathi kum: “Uyazi? Ndiyahamba, ndiya eYugoslavia ”. Ndicinga ngohambo lokuphumla, kwaye ndiphendula: "Kulungile, usikelelekile wena!" "Kodwa hayi! Kodwa hayi! - Utsho ngovuyo -, akukaze uve ngeMedjugorje? "

Kwaye nam: "??? Yintoni ??? "" ... Medjugorje ... apho kubonakala khona iNenekazi lethu! UAna, umhlobo wam ovela eMilan, ufuna ukundisa eMedjugorje kwaye ke ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye, ulungile, ungandiva? " Mna: "Ukuva wena ndikuva, kuphela ukuba uyandicenga undinika amanani ngaphezulu kwesiqhelo".

Emva kweveki umama wakhe, ecaphuke kakhulu, uthi kum kwifowuni:

“Eli nenekazi lisekhona, uAngelo ubuyile (inkwenkwe kaNarcisa), uAnna, kwaye uhlala apho, uyaphambana! Uyaphambana! " Emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa ndisazifumana ndibusvinicarmi ndihlekayo ndicinga ukuba uNarcisa usekho, uyahlanya ngubani owaziyo ukuba bangaphi abanye abantu abaphambeneyo abathi phaya kwabo Madon ...

Ngo-Epreli 26: usuku lokugqibela lokuhlala emaphandleni. Kwiintsuku ezimbalwa kufuneka ndibuyele eRoma kwaye ndikhwele uloliwe oya eGenoa. NdiseTortona, kwisikhululo esiphakathi, kumgama nje weemitha ezimbalwa ukusuka ekufikeni kukaloliwe oya eGenoa, iqonga lizele ngabantu; kanti ndibona bani? Narcisa! Kum kubonakala ngathi isandula kuphuma kwi-puddle: ikwimeko yokuphazamiseka ngokupheleleyo. Undixelela ngochulumanco esithi: “Ndifuna ukuthetha nawe, unditsalele umnxeba kamsinya nje ufika. Ngoku unololiwe kwaye akukho xesha, kodwa ndithembise into enye. Ndithembise ukuba uya kuyenza into yam, undixelele ukuba uya kuyenza!“. Andisaqondi kwanto, yena emane ephinda ethi "Promise me you will", abantu abasijongileyo bacinge ukuba siphuncuke kwesinye isibhedlele, ihlazo liyandihlasela. Uyacinezela, engoyiki kwaye akakunanzanga ukugigitheka kwabo basingqongileyo.

Ndacheba intloko yam, ekugqibeleni ndadanduluka ndathi: “Kulungile, ndiyathembisa ukuba ndiza kuyenza le nto!!!”, ilitha lovuyo emehlweni kaNarcisa, endifaka irosari esandleni sam (…”Yiza apha phambi kwazo zonke ezi zinto. Usuke waba sisidenge na?”) yaye uthi kum: “UVumo; 7 Bawo wethu; 7 Bulisa uMariya; 7 Zukisani imini yonke kangangenyanga”.

Ndiphantse ndalikhumbula, ndagxibha: "Yintoni ???" ", kodwa engoyiki kwaye anelisekile:" Uyithembisile ". Impempe yempempe yoololiwe eyahlulahlula kuthi, ndibonakala ngathi ndiyaphuma. UNarcisa undikhathalela ngesandla sakhe esincinci kwaye ukhwaza:

“Uza kundixelela ngayo!”; Ndiye ndanqwala bandijongile ababantu banyuka nam. Thixo wam onjani umfanekiso! Ndithembisile, kufuneka ndisigcinile eso sithembiso, nokuba ikrazulwe phantse ngamandla, wabe uNarcisa esithi kule nyanga iNkosazana Yethu izobabala ngokukhethekileyo abo bathandazayo kuye.

… Iintsuku ziyahamba, kwaye idinga lam lemihla ngemihla liyaqhubeka ngaphandle kokulibala, eneneni, ngokumangalisayo iba "yinto" endivakalelwa kukuba ndifuna ukuyenza ngokungxamisekileyo nangokungxamisekileyo. Andiceli andiceli mna ndimane ndithandaza ndiyeke.

Mna noNarcisa sibuyela eRoma, kwaye ubomi buyasityumza kwakhona. Uhlala ethetha nam ngeMedjugorje, ukuba abantu bathandaza kakhulu apho kwaye awusokoli! ukuba kukho konke okulungileyo, ukuqondana nokuthandana!”

Iintsuku ziyahamba kwaye ngoku ndiyazi izinto ezininzi malunga neMedjugorje, ndivile izinto ebendingazi nokuba zinokwenzeka, kodwa ngaphezu kwayo yonke into kaNarcisa, ndibona utshintsho lwakhe olothusayo, "uyamangalisa", uya eMass, yena. uyathandaza, ude atsho nerosari aze ahlale erhuqa ecaweni. U-Narcisa uhamba, uyahamba eRoma iintsuku ezi-4-5 kwaye ndihlala ndedwa kwindlu endingayithandiyo, kunye namaxhala angapheliyo omsebenzi, uthando .., usizi olumnyama luwela phezu kwam, ukudandatheka akuzange kuthinteke. : ebusuku andisalali ndiyalila. Iintsuku ezine ezinde zokuphanziswa ngokupheleleyo: kwaye okokuqala, okwesihlandlo sokuqala ebomini bam, ndizifumana ndicinga nzulu ngokuzibulala.

Mna nje osoloko esithi ndiyabuthanda ubomi kakhulu, ndinezihlobo ezininzi ezindithandayo nendibathandayo, umama notata "abathandela" intombi yabo ekuphela kwayo, ndifuna ukunyamalala, ukubaleka kuyo yonke into kunye nomntu wonke. ... Yaye njengoko iinyembezi zisehla ebusweni bam obothukileyo, ngequbuliso ndikhumbula imithandazo endandiyenza yonke imihla kangangenyanga yonke, yaye ndidanduluka ndisithi: “Mama, Mama waseZulwini, ndincede, ndincede ngenxa yokuba andinako ukwamkela. yona kwakhona, ndincede! ndincede! Ndincede! Ndiyakucenga!". Ngosuku olulandelayo uNarcisa ubuya: Ndizama ukufihla ngandlel 'ithile ukuphelelwa lithemba kum, yaye ngoxa ukuxoxa uthi kum: "Kodwa ubusazi ukuba apha kufuphi eRoma kukho indawo ebizwa S. Vittorino?".

Ngemva kwemini elandelayo, ngoJuni 25, ndiseS. Vittorino. Kukho umntu owasixelela ukuba kukho uBawo uGino, ukuba mhlawumbi unalo ibala kwaye uhlala "ethethelela" nokuba aphiliswe. Ndichukunyiswa sisidenge esinenkangeleko sikatata uGino. Phezulu, kubonakala ukuba akukho nto yenzekayo, kodwa, kwezo yure zimbini, ndinombono wokuba "into" iqalile ukuqhekeka, iqhekeza kwaye "ivule" ngaphakathi kwam.

Sihamba sinenjongo eqinileyo yokubuya ngokukhawuleza kangangoko kunokwenzeka. Emva kweentsuku ezilishumi, nge-9 kaJulayi, ngentsimbi yesi-8 kusasa, sawela isango leNkosikazi yethu yaseFatima okwesihlandlo sesibini, sizolile kwaye sigcwele "ukulangazelela into". Ngeli xesha ndicinga ukuba kulungile kwaye kubalulekile ukuthetha izinto ezimbalwa malunga nam: andikayi kuvuma izono iminyaka eyi-15 kwaye kule minyaka ye-15 ndiziphose "intlanzi" kulo naluphi na uhlobo lwe-adventure kunye nokuphazamiseka, kakhulu. kangangokuba xa ndandineminyaka eli-19 ubudala ndadibana namayeza kunye neenkampani ezizizidenge; kwi-20 (njengoko kunzima ukuthetha) ukukhupha isisu; kwi-21 ndabaleka ekhaya ndaza ndatshata (ngokufanayo) kunye "nomntu" owandibetha iminyaka emibini, wandicinezela ngandlela zonke kunye neendlela ezinokucinga; kwi-23, ekugqibeleni isigqibo sokuhamba nokubuyela ekhaya kwaye, emva kweenyanga ezine zokuphazamiseka kwengqondo, ukwahlukana ngokusemthethweni. Emva koko kwanyanzeleka ukuba ndibaleke eGenoa ngenxa yezisongelo eziqhubekayo zowayesakuba ngumyeni wam. Ugxothiwe kanye!

Ndicinga ukuba kubalulekile ukuveza uhlobo "lwamava" kunye "nokungcola" endikuphethe ngaphakathi kude kube lusuku oluhle kakhulu ngolwesine we-9 kaJulayi, usuku endazalwa ngalo okwesibini. Ngaphandle kwabo bonke ububi endibenzileyo kwiNkosi noMama wam waseZulwini, Baye bandithanda kakhulu. Xa ndicinga ngayo kufuneka ndilile.

Ngaloo ntsasa 'ndajula' kwi-confessional, ndicinga ukuba ndihleli apho phantse iyure ezimbini, ndibile ndimanzi ndingazi nokuba ndiqale ngaphi okanye ndithini, iimpazamo zam bezininzi kwaye zinzulu! Ndithe xa ndiphuma ndabe ndingakholelwa ukuba uYesu wayendixolele yonk'into ngenene, yonke into kodwa ndaziva ngaphakathi kum ukuba ewe kunje, bekunje ngendlela emangalisayo. Ewe, isohlwayo sam sasinde, kwaye andizange ndicinge ukuba: "Kuninzi kakhulu", ngokwenene imihla ngemihla kuye kwaba mnandi. Ngaloo mini ndafumana uMthendeleko emva kweminyaka engaphezu kwe-15. Ethubeni utata uGino wasinika intsikelelo yomntu ngamnye amehlo am adibana newakhe. Bagoduka, kwaza kwangobo busuku ndaziva ndikhululekile; unxunguphalo, unxunguphalo, unxunguphalo lwangaphakathi, ukuphelelwa lithemba nazo zonke iimvakalelo zam ezimbi zazinyamalele, zaba ngumphunga.

Ewe umsebenzi uqhubekile kwaye uyaqhubeka nokundinika iingxaki, kodwa ngoku yahlukile. Icocekile ikamva elingaqinisekanga, ukuswela imali kunye nokudana okuthile kwandibhuqa phantsi kwaye kwandenza ndaziva ndonwabe kakhulu, ngoku, ngaphandle kokuba ndingaphumeleli naliphi na ilotto .., ndiyindod 'ezolile, ndizolile, andisacaphuki ndinomsindo kwakhona, kunje ngokungathi ngaphakathi nangaphandle kukho into ethambileyo nethambileyo kum ethambisa yonke into, ethambisa, endenza ndizive kamnandi, ngamafutshane. Ngaphantsi kweenyanga ezisibhozo kudlulile ukusukela nge-9 kaJulayi ngo-1987, kodwa kubonakala kum ngaphezulu. Ngoku ndizama ukuphila ubomi bobuKhristu bokwenyani, ndiyavuma inyanga nenyanga, ndiya eMass, ndithatha uMthendeleko kwaye "ndithetha" rhoqo kuYesu noMama waseZulwini. Ndiyathemba kwaye ndinqwenela ukuba sibande ngakumbi kwaye "siphilile" elukholweni kwaye ukuba uMoya oyiNgcwele ml unceda ukuphucula nokukhula.

Ndisoloko ndicinga ukubuyela kwakulo mhla, xa uNarcisa wathi "ndithembise ukukwenza" kwaye ndathi "ewe"; Ndicinga ngeentloni endandizivelela yena kunye nam, phambi kwabantu ababesijonga bemangele, kwaye endaweni yoko ndicinga ngendlela namhlanje ndifuna "ukumemeza" kwihlabathi "NDIYAWUTHANDA UMAMA WAM WOKUGQIBELA!".

Ewe, eli libali lam, ndicinga ukuba libali elifana namanye amaninzi, afana ngokumangalisayo! Ndingathanda ukuya eMedjugorje ndiyokubulela uMama ondisindisileyo; ndiyabulela kuba andifanelanga nto kwaye endaweni yoko ndifumene yonke into; enkosi ngesi sipho, esona sihle kakhulu, ebendingazi ukuba sikhona!

KuYesu kunye noMama waseZulwini waseMedjugorje!